Girlhood Can Be So Lonely Sometimes - Tumblr Posts

hualianes
1 year ago
Su Xinyu "Recovery." The image above the quote is a grainy, discoloured photograph of a young woman with short, black hair. She lays on her side on top of wrinkled sheets. She is facing towards the right. An sliver of light coming from the right side spreads across her eyes. The quote reads: "I was sixteen for twenty years. By September I will be a ghost"
"I ask them to taste the blood in my mouth and let it spoil their tongues like a child that has outgrown a mother's expectations for it. Or like a dog that will no longer heel to its master's commands. I say grab a steak knife and make an incision between my fourth and fifth rib, a peephole to the feral thing inside me- // ask me what it eats."
"Where were you when I was still kind?"
The background image is of a blank consent form for personal data processing. On top of the text in black handwriting reads: "IT TOOK A LOT OF / VIOLENCE / TO BECOME THIS SOFT" Underneath that in red handwriting reads: "(I LIVE A WAR IN MY / OWN BODY)"
"Connection that does not require alteration. Think of The Lion in the Winter: two figures so in love they are out to destroy the other. It's about passion, about allowing yourself to be overwhelmed, allowing a love to be feral without needing to domesticate it. Loving something or someone for what or who it is, not what you want it to be. That takes an enormous amount of strength and integrity."
"Will you forgive me for my snowstorms, / My fever, poetry, gloom and all?"
"There's a ghost in the house. / But, / I've learned that the house is me. / And the ghost is also me."
"Was I raised without love? / Or was I born unlovable?"

I GET MEAN WHEN I'M NERVOUS LIKE A BAD DOG // AN INNATE INABILITY TO BE LOVED

image: Su Xinyu Recovery (2015) / quote: Su Xinyu & Lucile Brock-Broido the unbearable heaviness of girlhood (via @metamorphesque) // pinterest // Gregory Alan Isakov "Master & A Hound," This Empty Northern Hemisphere // pinterest // pinterst // Alexander Blok "I Leave the Tiresome Noise and Clamor," The Selected Poems of Alexander Blok (via @/rouxney) // Christina Marie Brown Ghost I // pinterest

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