Hate How People Are Nothing But Kind To Me But It Still Ends Like This - Tumblr Posts
1 year ago
even when it's free designs it's so hard to justify sharing art when your mind is trying its best to convince you that you're just subjecting people to it and negatively effecting everyone.
probs gonna log off for a while, not handling how physically painful this is too well
Thank you to everyone that's tried to reach out.
I'm so sorry for being like this and making people worry.
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the amount of time thats just spent curled up in bed is laughable
hate how people are nothing but kind to me but it still ends like this
it feels like im taking advantage of people or dont care about others efforts
i genuinely appreciate how much people try to help and it truly means a lot
but im awful with words so it feels like any way i show that comes off as a lie or im faking
even better is feeling like i just emotionally manipulated people into feeling bad for me due to being selfish or something
the fact that id rather hurt myself than bother others in the slightest probs says a lot heh
feeling like you honestly dont deserve to be happy for a second is its own special kind of hell heh
wouldnt wish this shit on anyone