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What is Jamis insecure about?

Multiple things, one that he can't do anything right, and therefore isn't worthy of other people's company.

Two that he lost Remy's trust, and betrayed Remy.

What does Jamis want more than anything?

In his own words, he wants to be wanted and to be the first mate on the Gallant (Lucky for him those two things coincide). He wants Remy to trust him, and he wants nothing more than to be by his side forever. He considers leaving Remy's side to be the biggest mistake of his life.

What does Arno have that Jamis doesn't?

The thing that he wants most!!! Remy's trust, closeness, and admiration. Even if he doesn't fully get it, Jamis is extremely jealous that Arno has something he felt that he fucked up and lost.

Since Jamis puts a lot of self worth onto whether he seems needed and necessary or not (see his insecurities) he sees Arno as a threat to everything he wants most. Again, even if he doesn't realize. AND, to pour salt in the wound, Arno is a former PIRATE CAPTAIN that TRIED TO TAKE THEIR FAMILY'S SHIP ONCE, and Remy still trusts him more than Jamis. He is going to lash out because he feels like he's worth less than Arno in Remy's eyes. And it's so easy for his insecure mindset to jump from "You've lost your trust in me from the actions I took" to "You've lost your trust in me because I can't do anything right and fuck up everything." Which is a much bigger emotional reaction.

And, of course... because of the perceived lack of respect for Remy in the present conversation... but that last page hit everyone like a truck so.