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Just to add onto this, it might also have something to do with the parents. Filbrick and Karyn act very similarly to my parents and relatives, one who worships money as their god and the other just trying to mediate/get by.

My parents and relatives always saw me as gifted compared to my brother because I was the family's Jack of All trades. I could write, draw, sing, dance, while balancing every aspect of STEM and academics with no issue. My brother exceled in Business, economics, math anything that had to do with numbers. Plus, he could actually talk himself out of any freaking situation. My people skills are shit by the way, I keep my head in the books all the time.

Even if my brother couldn't draw to save his life, now that I'm older I know why he related to Stan so much when I thought it was silly at the time(we binged the show like crazy when we were younger, it was also among the couple things we'd rarely 100% agree on).

So I was labeled as the gifted special one, he was always painted as the useless good-for-nothing. I remember we had a fight too that to everyone else he was just: "Matrix' younger brother". He felt like he didn't have his own identity.

It's funny how if anything at all I just look at the Stan Twins and say: Wow Alex, thanks for the FREAKING CALLOUT I CAN FEEL THIS IN MY BONES.

But yeah, it might be a tiny window to the whole family dynamic since the siblings have to come from somewhere. Like what Filbrick and Karyn did to Stan and Ford, my parents compared my brother and I at every beck and turn. It just so happens the more arrogant one, the "special" one took it as an offensive challenge and the one already used to being down in the dirt just laid there taking everything.

Ever since my brother and I split schools, we'd thrived. His peers don't know I exist and hence don't compare him to anyone and I don't talk about my brother unless I need to. It's how I realized that as harsh as Stan and Ford's separation was- it's kinda needed. The "being your own person" thing is really really freakishly difficult for some siblings and all the more when you share the same FACE. But yeah, like you said, different people, different environments, different experiences.

But yeah, it's why I can relate to them and I think it's probably really fortunate that you don't @leopardusk haha!

Just something I'd like to say about the Stan twins among other things I've seen here on tumblr and everywhere else. Also because I'm genuinely confused why this is even a thing. I don't really see the point in why people have to look at characters and say: good/bad, nuances exist and morality is mostly grey haha.

One of the reasons why I chose to write for Ford isn't really because I don't think he's a bad person, au contraire I know he's done really shitty things but I don't think he's bad. That would be an oversimplification.

If I had to be completely open about it, his situation is actually pretty similar to mine aside from the fact his sibling is a twin. My brother is two years younger than me.

But still, shit happens. Cornered by everyone and everything, one is labeled as gifted and special while the other is seen as stupid and useless, then the split between family and aspiration.

Granted, I've never made a deal with a demonic piece of geometry and I've gone through a different set of circumstances in a completely different time frame– but still. I get where his arrogance comes from and I get how being outcasted can make you prone to doing a lot of shitty things to chase validation.

God forbid someone comes to you and strokes your ego to death, that's the easiest way to manipulate someone with the picture of self-confidence and it's made of glass.

I can't say that what happened to me was a fortunate occurrence, but I was severely humbled at a young age and it's probably why I turned out differently. Ford never really did, he clung onto the idea of being special and being a coveted rarity.

Point is, I can kind of see where he's coming from and a lot of his fights with Stan I also kind of understand. I'm not condoning his actions, especially because I've had legendary fights with my brother before and remembering them all makes me feel like shit because there are things I've done I can never bring myself to forgive– but it's why I can understand why shit unfolded the way it did.

I'm not even going to go into grudges because I've held a grudge over someone for 12 years so I can also get why Ford would end up doing that for fucking 30– but yeah. I don't think either twin is really right or wrong. Stan got dealt a bad hand like my brother, and Ford got shoved into the limelight like me. I can understand the both of them well.

Also to those who wonder why Stan would even forgive Ford, I don't know what else to say other than it might be a sibling thing. I used to fight with my brother simply because he'd excel better in some of the things I do. I'd purposefully work harder to overshadow him and he knew. He would let me succeed and even rub it in his face because he saw that it made me happy.

Even after all this time he doesn't hold it against me so that's something I'm eternally grateful for. But yeah, he cared that much when all I did was be selfish. I still think it depends on some siblings but yeah, for these two they hit close to home just for doing what they do.

Not to mention, my brother's also had his moments where it looks like he's destroyed my things/projects on the sole reason that he thinks it's taking me away from him. That it's taking his best friend away from him.

One of those times was when I was creating a painting for a competition years ago, he got mad I spent so much time on it and accidentally knocked over the water container and it spilled all over my work. The painting was effectively ruined and I blew up at him for it.

Sound familiar?

Where Stan played off his destruction, my brother kept apologizing and owning up to his fuck-up. Where Ford refused to listen, I eventually just compromised with my brother and told him to help me create the new painting.

That painting didn't win any prizes but still ended up being exhibited, I'd show a picture of it with my brother and I next to it if I didn't like keeping my irl family private online.

Ford also being kind of unable to move on/deal with himself is something I do to detriment. It takes a lot to deal with that, much more overcome it.

Things change, time passes, circumstances shift. But yeah, this is just my two cents on it and kind of a window to why I also write Ford and Stan the way I do.