I Had This Whole System Of Mild/moderate/severe Emotional Shock - Tumblr Posts

hey, anybody wanna hear how dumb i was at thirteen before i realized i was autistic??

thirteen year old me: oh, sometimes i get rlly upset at very small things and need to run away crying. i must be so dramatic!! (those were meltdowns)

also thirteen year old me: i periodically get obsessions with different media that consume my whole life for various periods of time. plus i made up this whole pretend medical term about ‘severe emotional shock’ to explain my sudden and all-consuming obsession with this game called little nightmares. silly me!! (they were hyperfixations and special interests)

thirteen year old me again: oh, i like to rub dirt off my hands and chew the skin off my lips and fidget with my fingers and fingernails until i hurt myself. and then some. doesn’t everybody?? (i was stimming)

still thirteen year old me: yea, i’ve always had problems with social situations, was always the very quiet, good kid, was obsessed with reading to the point my parents would ban me from my books, and constantly needed a friend during social situations to follow around and take social cues from. i’m so shy and silly!! (social anxiety and difficulty with social cues/situations, et cetera.)

in conclusion, i was a little dumb!!