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pairing: gojo satoru x fem!reader
summary: six years ago, when they placed that sorting hat on your head, nobody expected for it to assign the muggleborn to the slytherin house, but it did. six years later, you find yourself as alone as the day you walked through those doors. little did you expect the prince of slytherin, the pureblood maniac himself, gojo satoru, to be the one to coincidentally fill your empty hours.
warnings: gojo is a pureblooded slytherin, slight angst, slight messy makeout
word count: 12.6k
note: yes, there is going to be a part two. yes, it'll probably come out later this week. thank you to @jadeisthirsting for beta reading as always!
slytherin!gojo masterlist + jjk masterlist
When you were little, all the strange and peculiar things that happened to you, such as Ms. Bromsely, the awful maths teacher's desk going up in flames, or Patricia Gallaghers rings disintegrating after she teased your dress, were chalked up to chance or just something else.
Your mother was too busy covering extra shifts down at the pub to worry about it, so she rarely made an occurrence to the meetings your headmaster had scheduled, resulting in very awkward meetings with just you as you were explained how peculiar it was that you always seemed to be in the middle of all these weird occurrences.
So when that brown spotted owl almost crashed into your bedroom window at the ripe age of eleven, explaining that you were chosen to attend Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry, you suspected that one of your classmates was playing a cruel joke on you, but alas, it turned out to be very real.Â
You were whisked away soon enough, stumbling your way in some sort of haze through Diagon Alley, and then in a blink of your eyes, you found yourself waving goodbye to your mother from that red train, on your way to a life you may have only imagined when you were younger, dreaming of a place far away from where you were.
And you loved it.
The feasts, the history-soken steps that you walked on every day to get to class, the little town that was within walking distance that you could go to every weekend.Â
While most of the students here had been introduced to this early on in their lives, you hadnât. Your mother was just as shocked and as bewildered as you were all those years ago, and given your special circumstances, sometimes you wondered if you were yet to see the thick of it, wondering if some things were hidden from you given your upbringing, given your blood.
But you blinked out of your stupor, being brought down from your daydream to the sound of quills scratching, the smell of faint smoke burning in the background, and the quiet sounds of different animals in their cages. All of these tall-tell signs of the transfiguration classroom.Â
After years of spending time in this classroom, it slowly became one that youâd look forward to, and despite most Slytherins having an aptitude for potions or defense against the dark arts, transfiguration was where you shined the best.
The light that carded through the high arching windows illuminated the desks, and you were glad seeing how the back of the classrooms was usually the most poorly lit place. Unfortunately, theyâre the only places you found yourself sitting throughout the years, which is just another reason why this specific classroom in itself brought you a slight sense of comfort.Â
â...cross-species and inter-species transfiguration is one of the most difficult, if not the most difficult, sort of transfiguration to achieve. Even the most accomplished witches and wizards find themselves struggling with it,â you watched as Professor McGonagall walked around the front of the classroom, her graying hair pulled into a tight bun behind her head, her emerald robes swaying behind her like green waves, âThe only way we were able to replicate this form of magic is through ancient runes.âÂ
Her eyes raked over all the students of the class, to make sure that everybody was understanding the weight of her words. As seventh years it was expected that you all would be ready to face the challenges of such a high-level class. But especially with Professor McGonagall, seeing just how difficult her classes usually were.Â
âOf course, this was all covered during your fourth years, so I hope that some of you,â she gave a knowing look over her glasses, âRemember your lessons.âÂ
You momentarily caught her eyes.
You squirmed in your seat, knowing that her displeased look was directed to the Gryffindorâs sitting next to you. The boy to your left had his mouth open in a large yawn, promptly shutting it when McGonagall looked at him, and the girl to your right was busily finicking with a piece of parchment, trying to figure out how to enchant it so that it could turn into a swan to send to her boyfriend who was sitting across the class.Â
You loved Hogwarts. Most of the time.Â
The reason why you usually found yourself at the back of class, sitting with people you barely knew, and the reason why you were yet to experience most of the core memories other witches and wizards your age experienced was because you werenât welcomed the way other would be by their assorted houses.Â
Nearly six years ago, when Professor McGonagall placed that sorting hat on your head, you didnât know what to expect.Â
You had heard from some of the people that you sat near on the train that Gryffindor was best. Of course, the boy who said it came from a family of Gryffindors, but his friends seemed to agree with him. Ravenclaw was only for the smart people, which you hoped you might be sorted into and Huffelpuffs were known for their loyalty, which, judging by your mother's statement about how you dared to leave home, you didnât have much of.Â
But the Slytherin house seemedâŚforbidden.Â
At least for you, anyways.Â
âAnd what about that girl we saw?â One of the boys pointed outside the carriage window into the little hall outside, pointing to a much older girl wearing green robes, walking with some other friends who wore adorning colors, âWhat house is she in?âÂ
The other boy, who seemed to have the most knowledge out of anyone, scoffed, shaking his head.Â
âNot for you, sorry,â he leaned in closer as if he were telling a secret. You tried to listen in, not making it obvious seeing how you werenât any of their friends and how this was the only cart available with space, âThatâs the Slytherin house.âÂ
âWhyâs it not for me?â The other boy argued, his face pulled into a scowl.
âWell, Slytherins are many things. Ambitious, cunning,â the other boy said but shook his head disapprovingly, âBut above all else, theyâre all purebloods. Some are half-bloods, but even thatâs rare. Youâre coming from a muggle family. My father works at the ministry, and he says that some of the people in his department who were Slytherin still despise muggle-borns and muggles even long after theyâve left.â
So you had a basic understanding of what to expect. Ravenclaw, Hufflepuff, or Gryffindor.
But when the hat cried out âSlytherin!â you almost jumped in your seat, looking behind you at the professor, your face of hesitancy surely mirroring hers.Â
And you soon found out that the boy on the train (who was sorted into Gryffindor, big shock), was right. Word spread quickly that a muggle-born was sorted into Slytherin, the first in centuries, and that it surely mustâve been a mistake.Â
But the sorting hat doesnât go back on its word, and what was said was done. So six and a bit years later you found yourself as the pariah of your own house and were forced to fade into the background to avoid any further trouble.Â
â...and this is the one project in which Iâm having you work with partners, picked by me, of course. The research that is needed to go into this is too much to be done alone.â Professor McGonagall continued, and you perked up in your seat a little bit, your brows furrowing at her words.Â
You felt a part of your heart race at the thought. Normally when professors assigned partners, it either left you with a fellow Slyhterin who hated your existence and forced you to do the project on your own, or somebody from another house who didnât know you and forced you to do the project on your own.Â
Your tongue felt heavy as she began reading off the paired names on her list, your hands becoming clammy.Â
âMiss Finnegan and Mister Belton. Miss OâShea and Miss Adan,â The girl next to you, who you quickly pieced together was Leila OâShea groaned, her face depleted as she realized she wasnât going to be paired with her boyfriend, and you watched as she sulkily went to the other girl's desk.Â
You listened in anticipation as she went down the list, your heart beating loudly and comically in your chest the closer it seemed that she was getting to the end.Â
âMister Reeve and Mister Thompson,â she paused momentarily as she watched the two boys clap each other on the back, her lips threatening to quirk up into a smile, just waiting to read what foolishness they were going to write, âMiss Ward and Mister Green,â you felt like you might be getting off the hook, that maybe she took pity on you but it all came crashing down when she looked at you, a knowing look in her eyes far worse than pity as she read your name along with perhaps the singular person you wouldâve paid all your money to not be paired with,Â
ââŚwill be with Mister Gojo,â you heard some of your housemates laugh out loud, some of them pushing at the boy and ruffling his hair as if he were the one that was going to face the brute of everything. He sat near the front, and you could see a flash of his white hair as he begrudgingly began to pack his things up, having no choice but to sit next to you seeing how the seats next to him were filled up.Â
You watched as she rolled the piece of parchment back up as if she hadnât just sentenced your public execution, and she raised a singular thin brow at the faces that were looking back at her, âWell? Get a move on. This essay is due in a month.â
You tried to take in a deep breath, your eyes trained on the blank piece of parchment in front of you as if you couldnât hear his footsteps getting closer and closer to you, as if you didnât just feel his robes brush up against your legs as he sunk into his seat.
This canât possibly be happening.
Anybody wouldâve been better than him. Even Marley Petterson and her constant poking and teasing about how your clothes were held together by scraps, and how you mustâve lived with mud people before you came to Hogwarts wouldâve been better than him. Being forced to be a partner with the Prince of Slytherin was torture, and you wonder if after all these years Professor McGonagall was just now starting to show her distaste towards you.Â
That day on the train was the first time you heard his name.Â
âYou see that boy? The one with the white hair?â The boy discreetly pointed out the window to one of the kids standing outside your cart. All the other boys hurriedly nodded, each craning their necks to get a better look at him, âHeâs a Gojo. He comes from a line of Slytherins, each one worse than the one before. Theyâre purebloods, obviously. You wouldnât find a speck of anything else in them. Theyâre rich too, filthy rich. They could buy this school if they wanted to.â All the other boys guffawed, but he seemed serious as if this stranger's family was nothing to be taken lightly.Â
âWhen it comes to Slytherins, there are four families to be wary of. Thereâs the Gaunts and the Malfoys. Thereâs the noble house of Black, but lastlyâŚthem. House Gojo is one that every other wizarding family steers away from.â
After the day you were sorted you also quickly realized why most wizarding families stayed away from them. His word seemed to be law, and all the other Slytherins, especially those in his inner circle, held him to it.Â
You peeked from the corner of your eye, watching as he unpacked all his supplies, his face contorted in obvious anger and disgust, and you thickly swallowed. You had done a good job in staying away from him these past couple of months, fortunate enough to only be called a mudblood and an offense to their ancient house a couple of times by him and his posse.Â
His left-hand ring finger almost caught your eye in the sun, the gold ring with his house emblem shining brightly, a clear reminder of your difference with him, and you tried to hide your old school bag, riddled with holes and stains, something you just couldnât replace.Â
When he was done unpacked, he sat there for a couple of seconds, the silence between the two of you thick and heavy. You felt like you could choke on it, your fingers twitching to do something, to leave.
â...this is insulatingâŚâ he was talking to himself, shaking his head in disbelief as you sat awkwardly, not knowing what to do.
Gojo Satoru wasnât one for many words. You had observed him from afar, long enough to see that aside from the occasional words heâd exchange with his closest friends or the few times heâd mutter traitor under his breath when the two of you locked eyes, he was a more brooding type of person.Â
When he was angry, he hid it well. His cheeks mightâve flushed a bit, his nose flaring, but he never made an outburst. Which is why, at this moment, you could tell that he wasnât in a particularly elated mood.Â
âIâŚâ you started, your mouth going dry at the way his eyes snapped to you, cold and cruel, âI can do the essay. Iâll get it done in timeâŚif you want.âÂ
Most times your partners would just tell you to do the work, expecting (and knowing), youâd just say yes and go along with your day. But here, you couldnât afford to let your guard down, rather having your pride be bitten at rather than your overall self.Â
You heard him snort, his nose wrinkling in disgust as he rolled his eyes.Â
âWhat? And have you do everything wrong?â His voice was hushed and clipped as if talking to you a second longer than needed would ruin him and everything he and his family stand for.Â
He unrolled his piece of parchment, opening up his book as he kept his head down.Â
âWell, Iâm fairly decent with transfiguration,â you spoke up, trying for a smile that quickly fell when you felt his eyes burn into yours. For most of your time at Hogwarts, the only times youâve ever really spoken to Gojo was when he was hurling insults at you, his words spurred on by his group of friends behind him.Â
Gojo Satoru knew his worth. He knew that his family name would last through centuries and that the gold his family owned could buy out the entire ministry if they wanted to. Those around him treated him as such; as if his word was law. It also didnât help that he was incredibly charming, growing into his looks over the years.Â
You watched as he grew taller, his lanky figure now filled out with muscles that you could sometimes see through the baggy uniform. His eyes were always a topic of conversation, the infamous Gojo blue. His arctic white hair grew a little longer, sometimes falling in his face when he wasnât aware. He was gorgeous, and you couldnât even lie to yourself that he wasnât.
Aside from his looks, he was also freakishly smart. If he hadnât been sorted into Slytherin you were sure that Ravenclaw wouldâve been fitting for him as well. He was always top of the class with Oâs on every exam.Â
Above all else, he knew his difference from everybody else. Even his closest (pureblooded) friends weren't even near his level. Even before he could walk, heâs been told of this. Not only that but heâs been told of the vileness of muggleborns. How their nature threatens the very fabric of wizarding society, and how muggles who have somehow been blessed with magical abilities are below humans, that they donât deserve the rights every other witch and wizard has.Â
Which means that you, the sole muggle-born in Slytherin, stood against everything Gojo Satoru believed. You were an abnormality, inhuman, somebody that he should resent for even existing.
âWell, we could always divide the workâŚ?â You offered, your feet anxiously bouncing on the ground as you waited for his response. One of the blessings of sitting so far away from everyone else is that sure, they looked over to see how this was going, but at least they couldnât listen in as you embarrassed yourself even further.Â
His eyes darted over to your paper, blinking once, deep in thought.Â
He sighed deeply through his nose, swallowing thickly as he gave you a singular, curt nod.Â
âHm,â he hummed, not even sparing you a glance as he began going to work, his pen scratching against the paper as his eyes began reading over the page, âBut Iâll read what you write,â he said quickly, âI refuse to have my rank tank just because you mudbloods canât do your work properly.âÂ
Mudblood Â
After six years of it, you know you shouldâve gotten used to it, but the stinging in your chest would argue otherwise.Â
Your shoulders sank, eyes falling to the ground as your fingers fidgeted. You murmured something inaudible as you opened your book to the page McGonagall instructed you to.Â
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The days moved on and everything continued as it always did.Â
The essay you had to write with Gojo was a slight hindrance in your usual schedule, but the two of you worked in silence in class and never interacted outside of it. Sometimes when his elbow would accidentally bump into yours as the two of you were busy writing heâd make a sort of noise in the back of his throat, his hand snatching back quickly as if you had somehow burnt him, but that was the most of your interactions.Â
Sometimes when you were in the common rooms, late at night, you could hear him talking with his friends, talking about how heinous and ridiculous it was that McGonagall paired the two of you together, but you tried to ignore it.
That following week you found yourself back in the transfiguration classroom, working away quietly as you tried to understand the scriptures on the pages you had to read. You found yourself lucky that this subject was the one you might have some sort of talent in, seeing that this sort of ancient magic was just as difficult as McGonagall made it out to be.Â
You heard some mumbling next to you, your eyes discreetly looking over at your partner, only to find his head in his hands as his brows furrowed in both annoyance and confusion.Â
â...what does thisâŚ?â You heard him say to himself, watching as he flipped the page back and forth as if he was missing something.Â
You looked back at your work, the talking around the room drowning out whatever it was that Gojo was saying to himself.Â
Or at least you tried to drown out the noise, if not for the fact that your partner made some sort of sudden movement that managed to knock his ink bottle down, spilling ink all over the table. You moved your work to the side, watching as some of the ink soaked into your robes.
âFuck,â he snapped, moving suddenly from his chair so that the ink would drip onto his clothes, âdamn it,â he looked around almost helplessly, his hands clenching in anger after seeing all his hard work soaked up in black.Â
âWait,â you suddenly say, your arm outstretching over his body, watching as his head snaps over to you, âStop moving for a second.â
He didnât have much time to bite back at how dare you order him around because you had already begun to pull out your wand, flicking it on a quick movement as you murmured âtergeo,â watching as the ink slowly yet surely began clumping up in the middle of the table, going back with snake-like movements into its bottle.Â
There was a beat of silence.Â
Gojo sat still in his seat, his lips pursing as he finally let out a deep breath. He pinched the bridge of his nose, rubbing at his eyes.Â
âThanks,â he said, but it seemed like he had to bite the word out, choking on it as if thanking you was taking too much of his mental willpower to do.Â
You nodded briefly, still watching him as he settled back into his seat.Â
âUh,â you scratched at the back of your neck, knowing that youâd probably regret asking this in a matter of seconds, but somehow not able to stop yourself as you continue talking, âI donât mean to be rude, or intrude, but is everything alright?â
You hold your breath as you watch Gojo sigh, his eyes shutting briefly. You braced yourself to be snapped at, to be victim to yet another reminder of how much youâve tarnished the Slytherin name, but he just shakes his head.Â
âNo,â he seethes, but when he peeks over at you he licks his lips, gnawing on the inside of his cheek as he grabs his papers, moving it over to the middle of you two as he motions to it, âEverything is not alright. Somethingâs wrong with the bookâŚand I have no idea what. Iâve read this page at least twenty times and it makes no bloody sense to me,âÂ
You try to hide your surprise.Â
Thatâs probably the most heâs ever spoken to you without any mention of your muggle heritage.Â
You move in a little closer to look at what heâs pointing to. You try not to heat up under his stare, squinting your eyes as you try to make sense of what it was he was writing, trying to hide your reactions when you realize that he was doing most of it wrong.Â
The point of this essay was to learn about the origins of cross-species transfiguration, and eventually an animagus transformation and how it even came to be.Â
You had to reference at least five other books and scrolls to piece together the correct herbs and spells needed to even begin the process. McGonagall honestly probably told everybody to reference the textbook because there was nothing in it. This essay was a testament to how many people went out of their way to learn about the true nature of transfiguration.Â
What Gojo had written was something you were sure almost everybody else was writing as well, a mistake you almost made. His research was simple and black and white, and he was getting everything wrong because he was missing at least ten different very important points.Â
âSo,â you swallowed nervously, chewing on your already chapped lips, âYou have the main ideas down,â which was a lie, âBut there are just some things-â Before you could even finish your sentence the bell tower chimed once, twice, and then a final time, telling everybody that their class was over.Â
All around you people began hurriedly packing up, surely excited for lunch, the chatter of conversations growing in volume, and you didnât have to look at Professor McGonagall to know that she was irked by her student's sudden enthusiasm to leave.Â
Gojo sat motionless, still looking over at you, waiting impatiently for you to finish.Â
âIâŚâ you scratched at your hands, âI canât go over everything right now, but tomorrow Iâll bring in the other-â He raised his hand, packing up his bag as he cut you off.Â
âNo, not tomorrow, Iâm already behind,â you watched as he shoved his papers into his leather bag, âJust explain it now.âÂ
You wanted to laugh, not knowing how long it might take to explain your twisted thinking process to him and you doubted he wanted to stay in this classroom with you for a minute longer.Â
âWell, thereâs quite a bit of things,â you searched for the right word, âMissing. I have to study for the potions exam right now, but Iâm going to be in the library tonight anyway. I could show you thenâŚ?âÂ
You stood at your chair, your eyes looking up into his, wavering.Â
What did you just do? Surely heâd laugh now in your face, roll his eyes at how absurd it was that you could even suggest such a thing, just as he usually does.
Instead, he looks at you, then at his paper, and then at yours, which is at least three pages long at this point. Heâd never admit it out loud, but you were understanding this assignment better than him and nobody in his group seemed to understand it as well as you were.Â
âFine,â he runs a hand through his hair, the white sticking out between his fingers like snow perched on grass.
Your brows furrow, your lips pursing together in sudden confusion.Â
âWhat, okay,â you fiddle with your fingers, tugging on them in that anxious way you always do, watching him tighten the straps on his bag, âBut wait, what timeâŚâ You try to call out but he has already left, his robes swaying behind him as you stand alone at your seat.
You slowly begin to pack up, your thoughts running at what you have just done.
â
The potions exam went well enough, but you couldnât stress out about it too much right now.Â
After dinner (which you ate earlier than most, too anxious to be late), you made your way to the library, found a table near the back, somewhere that didnât get a lot of foot traffic, and set up your workstation for the time being.Â
Amongst many of the amenities Hogwarts had, the library was one of them you loved dearly.Â
It wasnât usually too busy, but it filled up quickly the night before some exams. But you didnât mind it, you liked being surrounded by people. In the Slytherin common rooms, you usually had to wait until everybody had filtered out or had gone to bed before you could make your way down, not wanting to face their icy looks or the way theyâd talk behind their hands when you were near, so you opted to be in the library above anything else.Â
The muted sounds of pages turning, of people talking in hushed whispers, and the books that would sometimes rearrange themselves were calming. You liked the candles that were lit carefully around the large room, illuminating it deep into the night.Â
You made sure that the work you had already written was set out, your quill resting straightly adjacent to it, your ink pot above it. Your pile of books sat neatly to the left. You wanted to seem as organized and as composed as you could, this might be your one chance to show the prince of Slytherin that you werenât the slob he must imagine you as.Â
The clock on the wall ticks, and you note that itâs nearly ten minutes till five. You chew on your lips, cracking your fingers as you keep your eyes trained on the door, waiting for the familiar mop of white hair to appear.Â
After the first ten minutes, you begin fidgeting again, moving your papers centimeters above where they were as if they could appear any straighter. You werenât wearing the usual house robes, and you hoped that your decision didnât cause him to walk in, scan the area, and leave because he didnât see what he expected to see.Â
But you pushed those worries aside, just doing your best to watch the people who filed in and out of the large double doors.Â
After the clock struck six, you began to stop looking at the doors, instead choosing to just get some work done while you were here, and opened up one of the books. Of course, he probably just lied just because he wanted to. There might be some of his friends standing outside, snickering as they watched you wait stupidly.Â
You felt your cheeks heat up in embarrassment, feeling like an idiot.
For the next half hour, you busied yourself with reading about the start of the animagus process, about the mandrake leaf, and the strenuous process of keeping it on your tongue for an entire month.Â
Around you, you could hear the scrapping of chairs on the floor, and how most of the people were beginning to leave seeing that it was getting pretty late. The library closes promptly at eight, and although it was an hour till that happened, most people left till then.Â
Your eyes flitted to the door, not seeing anybody, and deflated.Â
Stupid, you repeated in your head.Â
So you began shutting the books strewn out in front of you, packing them all up in your bag as you rubbed at your tired eyes. Madam Pince also made a deal if you left any ink splotches on the table, so you cast a quick tergeo charm to clean up any spots you mightâve missed.Â
âYouâre leaving?âÂ
You looked up from the table, eyes squinting to see his tall figure standing in front of you, his face flushed red, sweat dotting on his brow bone as a bit of his hair stuck to his face. Gojo was panting, his chest heaving up and down as if he had just run across the entire castle, and his brows were creasing in the middle, looking down at you as you seized your packing.Â
You note his green quidditch robes and muddy boots.Â
âI, um,â you looked at the nearly empty table in front of you, and you shook your head, giving him a small smile, âNo, no, I just got here.âÂ
He looked at your bag, as if not believing you, but not caring too much as he hummed in the back of throat, rounding the table, and plopped himself down in the seat in front of you.Â
Wordlessly, Gojo began taking out his supplies, and you figured you might as well, setting everything back up to where you initially had it. You watched as he slyly looked around the two of you, his shoulder becoming less tense when he realized it truly was just the two of you left in the library.Â
âPractice took up too much time,â he mindlessly explains, a clear explanation for why he looked so different from the put-together self he usually is. He pushed some of his hair out of his face, his breathing still a little erratic.Â
You nod, swallowing thickly as you pretend to understand the ins and outs of quidditch.Â
You were aware that amongst one of the many things Gojo could do, on his long lists of talents (which if there was a list would consist of his ability to speak five languages or his incredible ability to calm any creature down), was that he was an amazing seeker.Â
While you werenât very familiar with how quidditch worked, despite trying to best to follow along with others' conversations as you listened in, you could understand that his forte on a broomstick wasnât talked about just because he was Gojo Satoru.Â
He was fast on his broomstick, and thought it could be chalked up to the fact that every year he came to practice with the newest model, he could whize past anybody. He was nimble as well. With how large his hands were, larger than the other house seekers, he was able to secure a win for almost every single match ever since he got recruited. Last year he was named captain of the Slytherin quidditch team, so you were able to piece together that he got held up with the recent tryouts.
âThatâs um,â you scratch at your arm awkwardly, âThatâs alrightâŚokay so Iâll try to be as quick as I can, but thereâs a lot that McGonagall wants us to do,â you start slowly, letting his get situated as you push forward the first book that helped you out, âOh, that textbook doesnât helpâŚright now,â you quickly said as you saw him pull out the assigned reading, saw how he looked at you for a second, his face scrunching up in an unreadable emotion.Â
âThis one is good, though,â you motion to the one in front of you.Â
Gojoâs movements are slow as he takes it, eyes scanning over the title until he looks back at you.Â
He doesnât do much talking, you decide.Â
âThis book covers cross-species transfiguration, but it briefly mentions inter-species transfiguration. But the author referenced this one,â you pull out the other hefty textbook, sliding it over to him, âAnd this covers all things related to inter-species transfiguration and then goes into animagus transfigurations.âÂ
You pause, biting your cheek to stop you from rambling on. Transfiguration was something that you could talk about forever and ever, and youâd never really talked about out loud to anybody else up until now.Â
âMcGonagall said that the essay was on inter-species, she never mentioned animagus transfiguration,â Gojo said suddenly, pushing the two textbooks back, letting out a heavy sigh as if this was all a waste of his time.
You nod slowly, picking at some of the skin around your nails.
âR-right, and youâre right,â you quickly sputter, nodding, âBut because cross-species and inter-species transfiguration are so close together, I doubt that this was what she wanted our month-long essay to be about. Which is why,â you pull out some old essays you had done earlier in the year, âI referenced back to these animagus essayâs we had done. I mean, she wouldnât introduce us to the topic and then drop it for no particular reason, right? I suspect she wanted us to piece the two and two together.â
Gojo gently took the papers from your outstretched hand, his eyes raking over your words, and then back to the textbooks. He seemed to read it intently as if things were slowly starting to click for him.Â
âWhich is why the textbook she gave us isnât really helpful, because it resembles more of an herbology textbook rather than transfiguration. So I think that this textbook, if anything, should be referenced at the end of the essay, seeing how it mentions the mandrake leaf and the properties of the chrysalis of a Deathâs-head Hawk Moth. Itâs all instructions on how to become an animagus without saying it.â
His eyes, a different shade of blue in the candlelight, watched your every moment. He listened carefully as you eventually did end up rambling, watching the way your face, on its own accord, twisted into a proud smile at your clever handiwork.Â
You abruptly stop to catch a breath and glance up at him apologetically.Â
âIâm sorry, I went too fast,â you shake your head, rubbing your temple in your hands, tired from staring at textbooks for as long as youâve had.Â
âNoâŚit made sense,â Gojo murmurs suddenly, his lips pulled into a thin line as he quickly looks away from you, back down to his work which was now surely long after your in-depth analysis, twisting and turning that gold ring on his finger, the one he always wore, the symbol of his family crest as he looked through the books you had offered him.Â
You stay silent, not knowing what to do, resting back in your seat, picking your nails.Â
âWell, thatâs all of it,â you rub your hands against your pants, your dry eyes blinking a couple of times, yearning for sleep.
âYou couldâve said this during class,â he said, still reading, his attention preoccupied, as if this was a hindrance to him.Â
You wet your lips, trying not to clench your hand in anger, frustration, and years of pent-up emotions, as you slowly nod, pulling the leather strap of your bag over your shoulders as you begin to stand up.Â
âRight, sorry,â you apologize quietly, taken aback when he suddenly looks up at you, as if startled but you didnât feel like spending any more in the presence of someone who despised you anyways, âgoodnight,â you bid farewell, not noticing how he had opened his mouth to say something, scurrying out of the library as you make your way back to the common rooms before he could.
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The next day at transfigurations, the two of you didnât speak to one another at the beginning of class, like normal.Â
You took out your books like normal, as did he, and began writing silently, like normal. Everything was going normally until he suddenly paused, his hand wavering above his essay as he set his quill down, turning his head over to you.
âCan I see what youâve written?âÂ
You stop writing, eyes darting to the side as if you had misheard him.
Gojo points to the papers youâve been working on as if you didnât understand his first command.Â
Wordlessly, you pass it over to him.Â
He reads it over a couple of times, flipping through your endless pages, muttering some words to himself now and then. You would wager that compared to other people you had made far more progress in terms of how much youâd compiled, so you werenât necessarily worried about the time restraint on this essay.Â
You couldnât say the same for him, however.Â
Youâve never seen him look so intense, his brows furrowed and his lips pursed in clear concentration. He almost seemed frustrated, and it was a strange thing to see from somebody so usually put together.Â
âOur work together is too divided, it looks like we havenât been working with each other,â Gojo says as if that wasnât purely what was the issue.Â
You didnât say anything, wanting to see what idea heâd propose.
âI need to finish the rest of these texts,â he jutted his chin to the textbooks you had given him last night, âWe can work on the essay after classes are over, in the common room.âÂ
A part of you wanted to laugh at him as if he had just joked.Â
But Gojo Satoru was not a joking sort of person. You rarely saw him smiling, even when with his friends, and it was even rarer for him to say something of any comedic value. Which could only mean that he was being serious and that he truly was proposing to work in the common rooms withâŚyou.
A little snort escapes your lips, looking at him as if he were crazy. He looked at you as if you were the crazy one.
âI donât go to the common rooms after class, itâs too busy,â you explained slowly to him, wondering if he was daft and even after all this time didnât take the time to understand your situation.Â
He blinked, eyes narrowing.Â
â...and?âÂ
Your head tilted to the side, confused.Â
âWellâŚthereâs people there,â you explain even further.Â
He scoffs, rolling his eyes as if you were stupid.Â
âIronically, that is the point of a common room.â Gojo looks back to his essay, picking up his quill as if he were done with this conversation, but you pushed.
âRight,â you say more curtly, nose flaring, âFor you, it might be. But people donât want me there.â You say, a truth that you had to stomach, something that you grew used to after too many unsavory encounters with other Slytherins when you tried to come down to the common rooms during social hours.Â
âSo during the hours of two to eight, you donât go to the common room?â He didnât even look up, his voice sarcastic, not believing such an insane thing.
âNo.â You reply as if it was obvious as if he should at least know that this is why you rarely ever make an occurrence unless itâs early in the morning or late at night.Â
That finally gets him to stop and look at you, confusion woven into his expression.Â
âWhat?â He set his pen down again, and you noted that his eyes seemed a different shade of blue when he was confused, a little bit lighter than usual, he seemed like he was the only one not in on some sort of joke, âSo from two to eight you just stay in your room?âÂ
You shake your head, playing with your fingers.Â
âIâm not always in my room,â ignominy clear in your tone, âMost days I either go outside and do my homework or go to the library.âÂ
You hate the attention this brings to you from him. Youâve never had such a long conversation with somebody in your own house, let alone Gojo. You hated the way he looked at you as if you were either lying your arse off or even worseâŚpity?
But you almost shook your head at that thought. The great Gojo Saotru pitying you?Â
âWhat if itâs raining?â He asked, pushing you to see if you were telling him the truth.Â
âThen I go to the library,â you said as if it was obvious, mainly because to you it was. This was the usual schedule that youâve become used to over the years, something youâve just forced yourself to become used to despite wanting everything in your soul to go to the common rooms like everybody else, to laugh at their stories, to talk about your lives, like you were supposed to.Â
âWhat if the libraries closed?âÂ
You squirm under his heavy gaze, wondering how the topic of transfiguration got turned around to him interrogating you.Â
âUm, well, right now, because of the weather, Iâd probably just go up to the astronomy tower if the library was closed. They donât have lessons during the day. Or Iâd probably just find a broom closet and do my work in there.âÂ
His head tilts just a bit, his lips quirking up into a disbelieving smile as if he just caught you in your lie.Â
âIn the dark?â Gojo presses, and you can hear the people around you already beginning to pack up their supplies, the class nearing its end. Had you spent this much time talking that you wasted nearly half an hour?
âIâd cast a lumos spell,â you argue, packing up your things as you break eye contact with him. You take your paper back, making sure the ink has dried before putting it in your bag.Â
âIâll be in the library,â you say finally, making sure that was the end of it, âSee you there.â
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In some strange way, meeting up with Gojo in the library became part of your routine.Â
Every night at seven, after his quidditch practice would end, heâd run all across the entirety of campus to work on your transfigurations essay together.Â
The two of you still didnât talk much, but it was different nonetheless.Â
âIâm tired,â Gojo suddenly announced, the candlelight flickering on and off from his face.Â
You could visibly see the dark circles that were under his eyes, how he slouched (which was uncommon for him, seeing how he usually sat as straight as a ruler wherever he was), and how he couldnât go four minutes without letting out an exhausted sigh.Â
âYou should take a break,â you muttered, not paying attention, head still stuck in your book as you continued to read the rest of the paragraph you were reading.Â
Gojo snorted, rolling his eyes at the prospect.Â
âI canât take a break,â he dragged his hands across his face, âI need to finish this essay, the quidditch games in two days, and Snapes up my arse about that potion exam.âÂ
Your eyes flickered up to his, startled at how much he had spoken, but then tried to mask your surprise by looking back down to your book.
âPotions wasnât too bad,â you offer, âAnd I can finish the last bits you have,â you look back up, putting your hand out, a silent ask for him to give you whatever it was that he had written so far.Â
He clicked his tongue against his teeth, silently passing over his stack of parchment, and you scanned through it quietly, shrugging as you nodded once more.Â
To be honest, the two of you were far ahead of the other students in your class. He had eventually concluded on his own that youâd be wasting more time not working together, so you guessed that he just had to suck up a bit and bite back on his pride and work with a muggle-born.
His rush to finish the essay was spurred on by the plethora of other things he needed to do, a drawback of being the prime and perfect Slytherin prince everybody made him out to be.Â
âYou donât have much left,â you deduce, âI can just write about the Scalivier trials,â the trial in which a man refused to register with the ministry that he was an animagus, âIâll have it done by Saturday, Iâm nearly done with my bit.â
You slide his essay back to him, but stop when you see the perplexed look on his face.Â
âSaturdayâs the quidditch game?â.Â
Your eyes dart to the side, squinting a bit as you try for a laugh.Â
ââŚand?âÂ
He scratches at his temple, tilting his head to the side. After these past couple of days working with you, heâd be wrong to say that he became more and more increasingly perplexed with you. Six years he spent watching from afar, muttering words to his friends about the absurdity of your existence, but now that he was able to see you from up close, a part of him has to agree that youâre an enigma heâs never been able to crack.Â
You donât say much during class, you donât talk to many people, and if he was being honest, in that sense, you mirrored him. You were reserved, but the times he picked and prodded at you, you seemed to open up. You donât have any friends from what he could tell, often eating at the end of the table during the meals. He watched sometimes to see you during the common rooms during the times in which you said you never came, a part of him thinking heâd be able to catch you.Â
Gojo Satoru would never admit it, but in a way, he had become interested in you.
âWell,â Gojo didnât like to be the one confused, hating being perceived as if he didnât know everything, which is something he prided himself on most of the time, âAfter the game, thereâs the usualâŚparty,â he bit out, hating the word, because it was so unruly from the usual balls and galas he was forced attend, too many people sweaty and jumping, âIn the common room.âÂ
You blink owlishly at him, fidgeting with your quill, twisting and turning it around in your hand.Â
âRightâŚso Iâll be here.âÂ
Now it was his turn to blink slowly.Â
Was this really that hard to understand?
âComing to the library after a quidditch game seems a bit anticlimactic, donât you think?â He leaned back in his chair, playing with the green and silver tie around his neck. You wondered how he could bear to wear it even after classes were over, that even his most posh friend ditched their formal wear the moment they got back to their dormitories.Â
âThankfully I donât go to quidditch games, so for me, itâs just climatic,â you said, smiling at your little joke, covering your mouth as you yawned, tired and longing for your bed.Â
He sat up in his chair suddenly, looking even more shocked than before. This was the most emotion youâve ever seen him emmett before and you didnât know what to do with it.Â
âWhat? Why not?â He seemed so startled that you almost wanted to laugh. It was strange seeing somebody you had regarded as stoic look like he did now.Â
You shrug, rubbing your fingers across your eyes as you let out another yawn, resting your chin on your palm.Â
âI went once, during my first year, but everybody seemed rather annoyed that I was there, and they crowded in front of me so I couldnât see anything,â you recall back on the memory, one that you could remember vividly, âand I donât know,â youâre suddenly very thirsty, your cheeks heating up the more he stared at you, laughing uncomfortably, âI donât really understandâŚquidditch, so it works out in the end. And I also get to have some time to myself in the common room to do my homework, you know, unlike usual.âÂ
Gojo didnât say anything for a couple of seconds, and you tried to pretend that you had read something interesting to not embarrass yourself any further with your mindless babbling. Sure, he might be willing to work with you now, but that didnât mean that Gojo Satoru was up for a friendly conversation with you.
You looked at him briefly, feeling your stomach churn a bit to see that he hadnât stopped looking at you.
âEverything alright?â You asked.Â
He nodded, biting on the inside of his cheek as he picked up his quill, a wordless agreement that the conversation was over.
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Transfiguration the next day went by oddly silent.Â
Gojo didnât talk to himself now and then, he didnât sigh his exasperated sigh, and he didnât peek up every once in a while to check how much youâd written since the last time he had looked over.Â
You didnât pay it much attention, keeping your head down, your eyes to yourself. Silence was better than being reminded of your muggle heritage, which even then, Gojo had yet to remind you these past weeks.
Briefly, you looked up from what you were doing to see if Professor McGonagall was walking around or sitting at her desk, but in doing so you felt Gojo shuffle a little in his seat as if he had felt your sudden movement.Â
âTonightâŚâ he started and you quickly nodded, waving off any of his worries. Of course, you chided yourself, heâs anxious about the quidditch match, nothing else.
âYes, yes, I know, you have quidditch tomorrow. Iâll finish up what I have left and then start reading about the Scalivier trials tonight,â you finished for him, tracing some of the wood grains of the table with your finger.Â
He shakes his head.Â
âNot that - and Iâll finish up the trials by Sunday,â heâs avoiding eye contact, and if you didnât know any better it seemed like he was trying to find his words, as if they had slipped from his tongue and were dangling in the air for him to grab, âTonightâŚtonight, donât go to the library.âÂ
You purse your lips, trying to smile to see if that was his goal, maybe he was trying to be funny.
âWould you like to meet in one of the broom closets then?â
You felt even more lost after it seemed like he was debating taking up your offer, but his eyes shone a bright shade of aquamarine, and his cheeks twinged a slight shade of pink.Â
Strange.Â
âNo,â he chewed on his lip, as if he were anxious, a preposterous thing to even think, âNo, come down to the common rooms around eight.âÂ
The cursed clock tower chimed, three loud rings, and it cut the two of you off once again.Â
âLook, I told you-â you go to say but he cuts you off.
âI know, just come down.â He was being so cryptic, and he looked so on edge that it was starting to freak you out. He was already beginning to pack up, his eyes snapping to his group of friends that were nearing the two of you, and he quickly looked back down at you, his head dipping down urgently.Â
âEight. Be there.âÂ
â-
You couldnât say you werenât at least a little apprehensive.Â
You were so nervous that you just stayed up in your room, not even coming downstairs for dinner as you waited for the clock on the wall to read eight.Â
Why were you so nervous? You first asked yourself, but then asked the more logical question, what did Gojo want with you?
The minutes on the clock seemed to take hours to pass, and the hours seemed to take days. It was such a slow process, and you knew it would be going faster if you were doing something more productive with your time until it was necessary, but you couldnât.Â
The other girls in your dorms could come in and out, sometimes exchanging glances with their friends when they saw that you hadnât moved from your spot, but they didnât ask any questions, opting to just leave you be.Â
You were picked at your fingers, cracking your knuckles, and finally, finally, the small hand pointed to the eight on that ancient clock.Â
Funnily enough, even though you had been mentally waiting for this to happen, you waited for a couple of seconds, trying to calm yourself down, nodding to yourself that this wasnât anything big and that you were just overreacting.Â
Slowly, you rose from your spot on your bed, a little dent in the mattress from just how long youâd been sitting there. You turn the handle of the door, taking in yet another deep as you take a tentative step outside the safe sanctity of your room.Â
The common rooms are usually more busy on Friday nights, and that mightâve been a blessing in disguise as youâre able to slip past most people, keeping your eyes peeled for a flash of white hair.Â
You scan the couch area, the sitting area, and the large window that looks into the black lake, but you donât see him. Itâs only until you look near the entrance to the common room, the large oak double doors, do you see him.Â
It seems like heâs scanning the area as well, blue eyes looking everywhere until they fall onto yours, and youâre able to sneak past some people watching as he cocks his head in the motion of the doors, and before you could do anything else, he leaves, and you take it as your sig to follow him.
Youâre glad that nobodyâs looking your way as you push the two doors open, looking to your right to see him waiting for you.Â
You go to open your mouth to speak but he beats you to it.Â
âFollow me, and be quick,â heâs already walking and you have to nearly jog to get to him, walking at a much faster pace seeing how his legs were abnormally long, âPut these on over your clothes.âÂ
Gojo throws you a pile of ratty-looking uniforms, but the more you open up the folded mess you come to realize that theyâre old quidditch uniforms. In fact, when youâre finally able to get a good look at him you realize heâs wearing adoring green robes.Â
You donât say anything, multitasking as you walk and shrug over the (huge, it was practically dragging on the floor) robes, buttoning them up as quickly as you could without tripping over your feet, the quidditch uniform, or over the stones.Â
He looks at you briefly, and heâs glad that youâre too busy trying to figure out how the robes are supposed to fit over you to notice the way his lips quirked up slightly at the look of you at the moment.Â
âPut this on too,â he says once you're finally done, handing you another huge helmet, and you take it silently, pulling it over your head.Â
The helmet is way too big for you, as it nearly hangs over your eyes, and you can barely see anything with it on, and you pause, a smile making its way onto your face as you push it up only for it to fall again.
You stop walking for a second, and when Gojo looks back he sees the helmet masking most of your face up until your nose, the only thing he can see is your large grin, the sleeves of the uniform enveloping your hands, reaching to your knees, and for the first time, he hears the softest sound,Â
Youâre giggling as you try to figure out how to tighten the straps on the helmet, not able to see where Gojo is because you have your head tilted down, struggling with the buckle until his boots come into your field of vision.Â
All of a sudden you feel a hand tip your helmet upwards, and your smile falters when you now see his face, the way his eyes are swirling with different hues of blues, something you notice that happened when he was battling multiple emotions at once. You can tell that thereâs a small, barely noticeable smile on his face, surely from how insane you look right now.Â
Youâve never seen him look so at ease. His shoulders seem more relaxed, his jaw not clenched. It helped that he looked like he was smiling for once.Â
But thereâs no time to think as you feel the brush of him on your skin, his slender and swift fingers working fast and expertly at tightening the strap under your chin. He looks focused, his white brows scrunched up the way he always does when heâs trying to figure out a transfiguration rune. You feel your breath lodge in your throat. When heâs satisfied with how it was resting on your face his hands drop to his side, and his eyes slightly widen, as if he just realized what he had just done.Â
He cleared his throat, looking around the hall to make sure that nobody was around, and he turned his back as he began his brisk pace out to wherever it was that he was taking you.
You walked, corrected, ran with him for a little more until he brought you to one of the openings of the castle, the one that led directly to the quidditch fields.Â
âWhere,â you were a little out of breath, noticing how the sun was nearly about to set, and also knowing that you sure as hell didnât have a pass to be out this late, âWhereâre we going?âÂ
âTo the field,â he said, which was the answer you were most dreading.Â
âRight, I can see that,â you feel hot under all these layers, despite the fact that it was late October and the weather was biting at best, âWhy are we going out to the fields.â The breeze that was hitting your cheeks was stinging, so you were at least glad in that aspect that the quidditch robe offered you some sort of warmth.Â
âRavenclaws practicing right now,â Gojo said, turning around to look at you for a fleeting second, âI need to see what Nanamiâs strategy is, and you need to learn quidditch.âÂ
You almost trip.Â
And you need to learn quidditch.
His words were ringing in your head, possibly even louder than the blood rushing to your ears. He had to be lying, or have some sort of cruel prank planned out. He must be waiting for his friends to run out from behind one of the stands so that they could tie you to a tree. Not that heâs ever done that, but also not the first time itâd be happening at the hands of other Slytherins.Â
Because sure, while you mightâve offended him in saying you didnât understand how quidditch worked, that wouldnât mean that he, Gojo Satoru, the Prince of Slytherin, hater of all muggle-borns alike, would be taking time out of his life to fix this wrong.
You shouldâve just run the other way, ditched the scratchy uniform somewhere, and ran back to your dormitory, somewhere where youâd at least be safe from experiencing any sort of humiliation.Â
But the closer that the two of you neared the stands, the more you felt confused. Because nowhere could you see any other Slytherins, and he was right, the Ravenclaw team was practicing right now, if the flashes of blue and white from above you meant anything.Â
Which could only mean thatâŚ?Â
Gojo finally stops at the stairs that lead you up the stands, his hand on the wooden railing.Â
âWeâre goingâŚup?âÂ
He snorts, nodding as he ushers you to move.Â
âObviously,â his voice now seems more amplified with his small and cramped winding staircase, âIâm not going to be observing them from the ground.âÂ
Youâre the one thatâs ahead, so you try to go even faster so that he wonât be held up behind you, but everything is moving too fast. Did he give you these robes so that youâd seem like another player? So that you wouldnât be marked up if you were seen out of your dormitory so late at night?
When you finally got to the opening, you were able to hear the yells that the Ravenclaw players were enhancing with one another. You hold the tarp that acted as the door above your head, heading over to one of the seats in the far back, feeling Gojo right on your tail.Â
It had been years since you were here since you looked out into the fields. The stands were high, and the winds were stronger up here. Gojo sat where you were, to your right, and you waited silently to see what he was going to do.Â
Nanami was the Ravenclaw seeker as well as the captain. You could see the flash of blonde hair as he flew by, the other team members either watching him or practicing with their respective posts.Â
Gojo rested his elbow on his thighs, leaning in as he observed intently.Â
Eventually, after a minute or two, he sat back up, leaning in closer to you. You could feel his hair ticking your temple, his nose inches away from your cheek as he began to talk.Â
âIn quidditch, you have seven players on each side. One seeker, one keeper, three chasers, and two beaters.âÂ
You nod, following along.Â
âYou see number seven?â He points to the guy flying around near the three tall hoops, and you nod again, âHeâs a keeper. He makes sure that the other team doesnât get any balls into the hoops.â Gojo is leaning even closer to you now, and you can feel half of his body pressing up against yours. You feel like you're heating up, and not because of the excessive quidditch uniform youâre wearing.Â
âThe beaters, number four and two,â he then points to the boy and the girl flying around, holding wooden bats, âtry to protect their team from the bludgers; which is this black ball that sort of follows around team members, trying to knock them off their brooms. Those bats ward off the bludgers.âÂ
You make a mental note of everything heâs saying, trying not to be distracted by the fact that youâre being given a quidditch lesson from Gojo Satoru.Â
âThe chasers, which are the rest of them, aside from Nanami, throw around the quaffle to each other. Every time they get it through the other team's hoop, they score ten pointsâŚdo you follow?â Gojo pauses, looking at you and you push your helmet up so that you can see him, giving him a confident nod.Â
âAll thatâs left is the seeker-âÂ
âWhich is you, right?â You cut him off, rubbing at your nose which was now freezing at this point.Â
Gojo pauses, eyes flickering to you as he raises a brow.Â
âI may not know quidditch but Iâm not daft,â you tell him.
For a second there, you swear you could see the start of a smile play on his lips.
âYeah,â he says, almost softly, âIâm the seeker.â Youâre too busy looking ahead to notice that heâs busy looking at you, so you continue to talk.Â
â...plus, Kento was telling me about it a while ago. He said you were really good.â
This time, his brow raised even further.Â
âYou know him?âÂ
You shrug, your eyes following the quick and hurried movements of all the players, too focused on their practice to notice the change in Gojoâs voice, or overall, the change in his entire demeanor. You mustâve missed how he slightly tensed up, or the way his eyes narrowed.Â
âWe had potions with Ravenclaw last year, remember?â You turn slightly to look over at Gojo before you go back to watching, âHe helped me with some of my brews, but we talked about other stuff!â You had to raise your voice, the wind was getting stronger, âAnd Quidditch came up!â
Gojoâs nose flared momentarily before he swallowed thickly, his jaw ticking as he tried to focus back on the practice as well.Â
âA-anyways,â he cleared his throat, not remembering that last time he choked on his words, âThe seeker catches the snitch. I canât see where it is now, but once the snitch is caught, the game is over.â He tried to push some of the hair out of his face, getting annoyed at how it kept getting stuck in his eyes.Â
âI need to get something, Iâll be back,â Gojo murmured in your ear, pushing himself off of the seat as he walked in front of you disappearing down the stairs within seconds.Â
You glanced at where he left but found yourself looking back to the players, your face breaking into another excited smile when you began to piece together what Gojo had just told you, finally able to understand quidditch after all these years.
The sun had set and the stars were peeking out through the sky, and you watched the players as they furiously rode around, each one tense and stressed for the match that would be happening tomorrow.Â
You tried to hide yourself in the background as much as you could, now feeling a little more out in the open with Gojo gone.
The minutes ticked by and yet Gojo didnât come back. Now and then you found yourself looking at the stairs, eyes darting back and forth from those on their broomsticks to where you had first entered from.Â
Slowly yet surely, you found yourself in that position the first night you saw him at that library.Â
When the Ravenclaw players slowly began dissenting from the air, running off the fields as they went in from shelter from the old, you felt a part of your stomach twist.Â
This was all part of his plan, you concluded, shivering to yourself as you tried not to feel let down, or even worse, like an idiot for thinking anything had changed, that you had maybe actually begun to have a friend after seven years.
You feel your eyes water, either from the wind or from everything, and you make your way for the stairs, your lips trembling as you suddenly start to feel claustrophobic under all the clothes you're wearing, your fingers slipping and sliding as you try to take that wretched helmet off of your head.
You feel like if you go any faster youâre going to trip and tumble down the stairs, and it doesn't help that youâre already too distracted with trying to take the helmet off. You sniffle, your eyes blurry as you feel your heart beat rapidly in your chest.Â
Stupid, stupid, stupid.Â
You couldnât even tell if you were thinking that in your head or saying it out loud as you neared the end of the never-ending stairs, unbuttoning the buttons of the scratchy uniform as you bundled everything up in your hands, wiping at your wet cheeks with your palm.
Amongst all the things people have done to you over the years, this wasnât the worst. Youâve had your room ransacked, your trunk thrown into the river, your shoes stolen on multiple occasions. Youâve been called a mudblood more times than youâve been called your own name, and none of these things were actually done by Gojo.Â
Perhaps you thought that deep down, maybe he could change. That maybe after all that time spent in the library, talking to you, controlling some of his laughs at your awful jokes, he saw that maybe muggle-borns werenât as bad as he thought they were.Â
And yet tonight you suffered your first prank, if thatâs what this could even be called, at his hands. It didnât hurt because of its nature, but because a naive part of you actually thought that he couldâve been your friend.Â
But none of that mattered now, not that you-
âWhere are you going?âÂ
You stop in your tracks, your head whipping around to the voice.Â
It was now fully dark outside, the moon and the spare candles that were lit around the castle and the stands were the only sources of light. You could see his figure standing a couple feet away from you, his white hair like a beacon in the night.Â
He takes a couple tentative steps closer to you, close enough so that you can see the furrow of his brows and the small pout on his lips. Damn it, you wanted to curse, you could hate him more if he didnât look so pretty.Â
âBack to the castle,â you snap, wiping at the corners of your eyes, throwing down the old uniform and the oversized helmet on the ground near his feet. You sniffle, looking to the side so that you wonât have to see his face.
âWhat?â He steps closer to you and you take a step back, your head still turned, eyes trained on the dewy grass, âWhy?â You try not to think too much about the two sets of brooms in his hands, or how for some strange reason, he actually sounded dejected that you were leaving.
Letting out a shaky breath you laugh curtly, crossing your arms over your chest as you look up to the sky, counting the stars, wondering if that could calm you down.Â
You hear the grass crunch under his feet, the warmth of his body as he comes in close to you.Â
Why does he care?Â
âI brought you a broom,â he holds it to you so you can see the outline of it, âHere,â he bends down to pick up the helmet you had thrown to the ground, âAt least put this on,â heâs already securing it on your head, not noticing the way your lips were trembling, his fingers brushing up against your chin once again but you donât him faster it, smacking his hand to the side as you rip the helmet off your head, throwing it with more force on the ground.Â
âS-stop,â you murmur harshly, wiping at your cheeks, âStop, stop whatever it is youâre doing-âÂ
âIâm not doing anything,â he snarls, his eyes a dark shade of navy blue, âSo stop crying, I donât know what it is you think I did.â
Heâs angry now, good, itâll be easier to yell at him if heâs just as amped up as you are.Â
But when you finally look at him and get to see his face, itâs not the kind of anger youâre feeling. His eyes are narrowed, his eyebrows pulling together down the middle the way they do when heâs confused, the way you often see him looking like when heâs frustrated at your cursed transfigurations essay. Heâs not angry at you because of you, heâs angry because he doesn't understand where your frustrations are coming from.Â
Heâs at least a head taller than you, looking down as his chest heaves slightly, waiting for you to say something, anything, so that he could explain himself for whatever it is heâs done wrong. His cheeks are a little pink, either from the cold orâŚsomething else, and his hair is messy, no longer kept the way it usually is.Â
Gojo looks different.
And you donât know who it was that moved in closer, whose rational mind slowly turned irrational as you two took another step towards the middle, but all you do know is that the two of you didnât care as you roughly grabbed him by his robes, tugging him in as you slammed your lips to his.Â
It happened in an instant, your lips moving against his soft one, your hands gripping onto that fabric for dear life. And for a second, you begin to pull away, your eyes opening in shock, but thereâs no use, because Gojo slams his lips down onto your closed eyes as he pulls you into his chest.Â
Itâs rushed and messy, your teeth clash against one another, your hands going up from his chest as they intertwine around his neck, your fingers tugging on his long white strands and you hear him groan into your mouth.Â
He moves fast, biting at your lips, one hand sprawled on the expanse of your back, the other one behind your neck, tilting your head upwards to meet him. His tongue prods at your lips, and somehow, mindlessly, you part them a little more, moaning quietly at the way his tongue explores your mouth.Â
Gojo leads you a little back, so that youâre up against one of the wooden pillars of the quidditch stands, offering you more stability, a good thing, seeing how you feel like you're becoming lightheaded, soon about to faint.Â
âFuck,â he whispers, heavy on your lips as he dips down again to kiss down your chin tilting your head up to expose the column of your neck, âFuck,â he says once more, diving down as he sucks and bites at your skin, his movements growing faster and more erratic once he hears the soft and sweet mewls that escape your swollen lips.Â
âG-gojo,â you whine, feeling hot as his hands travel across your chest, cupping your tits through your thin sweater as he continues to kiss down your neck, tugging some of the material down so that he could leave even more marks across your collarbone, âG-god, oh my god,âÂ
His pants tighten at your voice, his pupils dilate at the way you're pawing at him, pulling at him, needing him.Â
âSatoru,â he says against your skin, âNot Gojo. Not you.âÂ
Heâs delirious, he kisses you like youâre the air heâs been missing his entire life, and holds you to him as if youâre the only furnace in a land barren with snow. He needs you.Â
Your fingers are lost in his hair, pulling and tugging, hearing the way his breathing stutters when you do so.Â
One of your hands drops down to his chest, feeling at the skin thatâs exposed from where his uniform was pulling up, and when your cold fingers make contact with the skin resting taunt on his stomach you swear you could hear him almost whine, his head momentarily dropping into the crook of your neck as he urges you to continue, holding your wrist tightly, pushing it up further.Â
Your eyes find his, your breathing coming out in short spurts, and he seems so far gone, so transfixed with how you look under him, that the two of you fail to hear the footsteps that come near where the two of you were.
âWhoâs there?âÂ
A voice calls out, and you see somebody behind him standing with a lantern.Â
You push Gojo off of you, but he stays put, looking over his shoulder, shielding your body with his.Â
âOh, fuck off Taylor,â Gojo calls out, anger and irritation laced into his voice.
The boy's eyes widen when he realizes how it is, the blue and white Ravenclaw robes dashing away into the distance, the lantern long gone in a matter of seconds, but itâs no use.Â
When Gojo looks down at you, youâve been given too much time to come back to your senses.Â
You push him away from you, and this time he moves, you take a deep breath, not looking at him as you wipe at your spit-soaked lips, blinking rapidly as you try to make sense of what happened.Â
He didn't say anything, but you could hear the quiet pants that escaped his lips, trying to catch some air.Â
You open your mouth to say something but close it promptly, shaking your head in disbelief.Â
You donât think twice as you make your way back to the castle.
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