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Twitchcon LGBTQIA+ Panel ( <3 )

Got around to watching Twitchcon finally. LOVE it.

I just. Scott explaining that sexualities are a spectrum and etc etc [go watch it yourself I'm not gonna repeat him]

I've just come with a realization.

Cause. So. I'm Pansexual but I kinda used to think of myself as more of Straight since I found myself more with an attraction to males than females, but Scott pointed out that it doesn't have to be a 50/50 and I just

woah. I mean the answer was probably right in front of my face and I kinda just didn't notice until someone pointed it out and I appreciate that.

Although I now know that I'm Pan even if I have more of an attraction towards males than females, I didn't really had that then and kinda just thought it was one way or another.

Because then I thought 'I mean I don't think I'd mind being in a relationship with a girl', but then it felt kinda wrong to label myself as Bisexual and so on if I like boys more, and I just kind of struggled with that for awhile.

I think that it might've been better if there were more representation over this kind of thing in a positive way and explaining it, because honestly I think I misunderstood the labels and took it way more seriously than I should've.

Like even when debating my gender, if I was nonbinary, but that was no gender and I was leaning more towards being male, but it's more like you don't have to fit an expectation for a specific label, because it's your own thing and there's kind of a spectrum. While there is technically I believe some sort of term for where I am on the gender side of things, I think that honestly, I fit more with the term nonbinary despite my pronouns being He/They when I think the common thought is that nonbinaries are They/Them.

Honestly it was because of that that I kinda just felt uncomfortable including it in my bios that I was nonbinary if I went by He/They, because then technically I wouldn't be nonbinary if I was going by he, because then I would be male since that's kinda how people think of pronouns, and I don't think pronouns have to reflect what gender you are though. You could be a female but go by they/them, he/him, she/they, etc etc. Atleast that's what I'd like to think?

I do struggle with that still though so I usually just settle on either referring to myself as nonbinary (they/them), or just he/they without the nonbinary label.

Honestly a lot of this has been about myself, but I do appreciate that there are a lot of creators nowadays who are in the community or are allys that are willing to help with the confusion, and able to explain in a way that just kinda makes you realize something.

It's done in such a positive and casual way that it's not like a big deal, and I think that's what a lot of us need in our lives.

I have also only just realized that sexualities and assumedly gender stuff is on like a spectrum, and you don't have to strictly fit the label to actually be it. Like you could label yourself as gay but you're bisexual or something. Technically you would still be gay, but a lot of people like to think that if you label yourself gay, then you are only gay and nothing else.

I like the freedom that you can be able to express yourself without having to worry about if it's accurate to you, and if other people see that as accurate. I do also like that so many people have spread information about this kind of thing around the internet so that if anyones having these questions or need to be more informed can easily find a website or something that talks about it and helps them get a better understanding of their own.

I love this community and I loved the panel. Sorry for pouring my heart out on this and getting a bit personal, and this also isn't actually fiction, but this is the blog where I kinda post my thoughts over things, and this is a better place for me to honestly put it, because in a way it kind of fits still. Or at least I hope it does.