I Was Also Incredibly Stressed At The Time And Had An Unusually Long Period Of Not Having A Single Character To Fixate On And Cheer Me Up - Tumblr Posts

marketableplushieenthusiast

5 months ago

1. NEVER apologize for rambling in tags I love reading ppls thoughts

2. Spam for me was extremely... cryptic. He creeped me out, but I also felt he didn't deserve secret boss status. Jevil, to me, felt more interesting. But after giving him a voice (god bless jerma) I realized he was so. Relatable. I constantly felt like shit back then, constantly felt like I was deteriorating either mentally or physically. And I saw this puppet feel the same way and. He made it, didn't he? He was popular, he was loved. The more I studied what he (and other characters) said, the more I realized we weren't so different.

It took a week. A week of treating him like some pest. Unworthy of my attention or love. But. When I finally let the wall crumble, accepted he was here to stay, I fell. Hard. I can't love myself, I hate what I am. But I can love him, with all my heart and soul I can love him. And if it helps me accept I'm not perfect either? Well. I think I'll be happier that way.

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it took me abt a week or so to get attached too i had his boss fight spoiled before I could play in the most hilarious way if you've ever seen that comic of Mettaton catching him stealing NEO and putting it together with duct tape and then pulling out the MTT brand chainsaw it was that one but then I didn't really get why people liked him THAT MUCH until i saw people illustrating the backstory dialog the addisons give and his projecting rant at the end of his Snowgrave boss and it hit me that in this world of silly magic creatures who can be befriended by simply acting and wishing he had no one. he lost everyone. he called But Nobody Came. and the BEST you were allowed to do in game is break him. and accept his help as a pair of glasses. and then i looked at my pencil. and i looked at my ability to type. and i looked at every form of creation available to me. and i decided LIKE HELL I'M LETTING IT END LIKE THAT FOR HIM and that was kinda it i was also incredibly stressed at the time and had an unusually long period of not having a single character to fixate on and cheer me up so that was probably part of it too and now he won't leave my brain he just lives here now and i love him very much ♡ reblog ♡ you said you like hearing peoples thoughts so YOU ASKED FOR IT but here's the tag yapper on topic because spamton

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