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What BTS gave me? You.
Being an admirer of Kim Namjoon has brought me close to so many beautiful people. That’s the true magic of BTS, for me. Their friendship, their music - which is an inextricable part of their music - has created a ripple effect of friendships everywhere. I’m so lucky to have found it when I did. I’m so lucky to have been able to be a part of this beautiful domino chain.
These women, they are all so smart, on their paths to loving themselves every day (because as we all know love yourself is a train, not a station). These women - women I’m so so proud to call my friends. One of them is a straight up warrior raising and teaching her kids and is literally full of life! She lends me a comforting shoulder from far away and I can feel her love and her kindness and her fiery will to love and live fully all the way here, in my heart!
Another is the softest most beautiful shy and tender creature I’ve ever come across... she lives through the everyday without revealing her pain. She takes her feelings and weaves them into wool warmers for the heart. She speaks softly (I imagine) and writes deeply. I cannot begin to explain how she helps caress my heart. I hope she knows her words are basically warm tea for my soul.
Then we have another gorgeous person - she’s a gamer (idc if there’s a strict definition of gamer to me a gamer is one who loves and plays games), she’s a fighter and yet there’s such a beautiful softness, kindness in her strength. She’s been suffering, even if she’s been physically hurting, her spine is straight and her heart is soft. She is healing her own pain and in that process is helping me heal my own.
Yet another talks to me about finding her way to self kindness and she boosts me up with her words. My fangirl sister, I see her be kind, be vigil towards being kind in a way I’ve never seen before. She reminds me to be stepping consciously, conscientiously so as not to repeat the misgivings of our ancestors or of our past selves.
AND all these women write. All their words have brought me such joy and such warmth. Yet, the magical part is all the words I’ve written describing each describes the other too. Some might not be mothers but they are just as fiery, just as nurturing. I’m not taking names because I don’t want to put any of them on the spot (which is sometimes what happens with mentions) but I do want to thank them all. Thank you, you beautiful beautiful people. For helping me make a home here, when I’m yet to find my true home.
Yes BTS has given us all so much comfort and loving through their songs and their words and in general their chaotic antics. Plus, the gorgeous mind and heart that Kim Namjoon is has taught me so so much about myself and about us all. All of these elements together is causing an alchemy within me. BTS have given me is a way to reach people... to make friendships in a way that wasn’t possible for me before. How do I express gratitude for something as vast as this? I don’t know how these two words can contain it all... still, all I can say is Thank You.
