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I'm very normal about Ren
plagued with the realisation that people think i am bubbly and outgoing?? even though i have severe anxiety?? suspect i'm autistic/adhd and also am just a literally walking disaster, why would people ever think i am sane let alone, outgoing?? i spend my weekends asleep, in bed, not talking to anyone except scrolling through my dash and giggling at people that live in my screen and watching tv shows and writing about said tv shows.
help?
You know how Moa bark for txt in the ‘cat and dog’ song, that’s how I felt reading this chapter
'*•.¸♡𝘍𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨♡¸.•*'
TW : 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘥 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬 ; 𝘵𝘸𝘰 𝘶𝘴𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘥 𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘵 ; 𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘏𝘺𝘶𝘯𝘫𝘪𝘯𝘴 𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 ; Word Count : 1.2𝘬 ✼ ҉ ✼ ҉ ✼✼ ҉ ✼ ҉ ✼✼ ҉ ✼ ҉ ✼✼ ҉ ✼ ҉ ✼✼ ҉
Everyone always said that you would trip over something or someone if you kept trying to look at your phone while walking, but then again, your listening skills were subpar when it came to taking helpful advice from those who were just trying to look out for you. That’s why you had gone back to Hyunjin so many damn times.
You were barely even focused on the stream that was going on right now, simply listening to Jisungs voice to try to keep your mind from wandering too far off. To be truthful, your thoughts were clouded by Hyunjin, which you couldn’t even voice to your bestest friends because they simply wouldn’t understand, and why should they? Hyunjin had emotionally destroyed you so many times, but you were foolish enough to constantly want to go back to him. It was a hard habit to kick, especially when there was some sick, sadistic part of you that still loved him, or at least the idea of him. Maybe it was an addiction to the constant game of cat and mouse that it seemed the two of you were playing. He’d fuck up and you’d run away from him, but you thrived off the chase, being chased by him, the most wanted man in school… It gave you some sort of rush, it brought you joy… And you wondered if he felt the same way about it.
You were barely even focused on the stream that was going on right now, simply listening to Jisungs voice to try to keep your mind from wandering too far off. To be truthful, your thoughts were clouded by Hyunjin, which you couldn’t even voice to your bestest friends because they simply wouldn’t understand, and why should they? Hyunjin had emotionally destroyed you so many times, but you were foolish enough to constantly want to go back to him. It was a hard habit to kick, especially when there was some sick, sadistic part of you that still loved him, or at least the idea of him. Maybe it was an addiction to the constant game of cat and mouse that it seemed the two of you were playing. He’d fuck up and you’d run away from him, but you thrived off the chase, being chased by him, the most wanted man in school… It gave you some sort of rush, it brought you joy… And you wondered if he felt the same way about it.
Was it even love anymore or was it just a love for the game? You weren’t sure. You knew that as a person, you hated who he was, how narcissistic and conceited he was, how he thought that he was good enough to do what he kept doing and still assume he could get back with you. It’s not like you were any help though, you continued to feed into his egotistic nonsense. Maybe you just still held onto who you loved before… College had changed him, and you knew that there was no way he’d go back to who he once was before he had stepped foot onto campus. All of the attention he had gotten from the girls there had gone to his head, his ego inflated to such a size that you were sure it would burst soon. It was only a matter of time before he got knocked back down to size. The question was whether you’d still be there for him once that happened…
“Shit…!” You squealed as your foot got caught in the crack in the sidewalk, a crack that had been complained about so many times that you thought that by now the dean would have someone out to fix it. Clearly that wasn’t the case, and there wasn’t much that you could do now as your body seemed to fall forward in slow motion. There was the option of dropping your phone and throwing out your arms to brace yourself, but your hands simply couldn’t let go of the device, instead holding it in a vice grip as you squeezed your eyes shut, prepared to hit the ground.
The pain that you assumed would come from the crash into the concrete never came though. Strong arms wrapped around your waist and pulled you upright, back to your feet before you could hit the ground, and the sigh of relief was gasped out in a small squeak. “Hope whatever you’re watching is super important… That could’ve been a nasty spill there.”
You knew the voice, you had heard it in the voice chat rooms many times when you were gaming with the guys, but after what Seungmin had told you before, you and all of your friends had cut ties with him completely. “It is…” You stated back flatly, finally realizing the awkward position you were in with his arms wrapped around you still, quickly wiggling out of them and turning to face him. It had been a good bit since you had actually seen him, Hyunjins jealousy had kept you from being around any of his friends since you had foolishly once said that they were all very attractive when he asked if you thought they were cute. Your answer still stands though, looking at Felix now, he was just as attractive as ever, maybe even more than before.
“Mm… okay…” He hummed out, clearly feeling just as awkward as you did, shoving his hands in his pockets and rocking on his heels as he stared at you. “How uhm… How are you feeling? How are you doing?” He asked, his head tilted to the side, and the look would have been cute to you if you weren’t so suspicious of him.
“Why do you want to know? Hmm? So you can go back and tell Hyunjin?” You accused, finally turning off your phone and slipping it into the pocket of your jacket. “I’m not falling for that shit again, and I’m not getting back with him, so you can just stop trying. Don’t you have a girlfriend to meet up with or something?”
His eyes widened in shock at your sudden attitude, his hands flying out his pockets to hold them up as if to block your words from hitting him. “Woah, woah woah… I genuinely wanted to know.” He retorted, running his fingers through his hair before letting them drop at his sides. “Seungmin talks a lot, doesn’t he…” Your eyes narrowed at the off handed insult at the expense of one of your best friends, a look that he quickly realized and shook his head to. “I didn’t mean it in a bad way… He’s a really good friend… For you.” He huffed, his head falling back as he let out the heavy breath of air. “I… Personally, just wanted to make sure you were alright. I’m not doing it for Hyunjin… Honestly, I think you’d be better off without him in your life. Clearly he’s just… Not willing to change. I don’t know what’s wrong with him…”
“There’s a lot wrong with him.” You mumbled, rolling your eyes as you thought once more about the man that broke your heart so many times that it had become numb. “But I’m fine. I feel like an idiot for letting it go on this long, but… I’m fine now…”
Felix nodded his head slowly, maybe he didn’t believe you, at least not fully… Which would just mean he’s much more intuitive than everyone else. You weren’t fine, at least not 100% fine, getting to that place would take a lot more time than just a couple days, but you would get there. “Good… That’s good.”
The awkwardness was slowly seeping back into the space between the two of you, and you hated the feeling so you started to step back, making sure to check the ground as you did so as to avoid a repeat of what caused this moment to happen in the first place. “Thanks uh… Thanks for catching me…”
“Yeah… Anytime… Watch the ground from now on, yeah?” You hummed in agreement to his request, finally turning on your heel to walk away… Or more like speed walk away from him, trying to get as far away from him as possible, as far away from the bubble of nervous tension that had surrounded the two of you.
As you walked back to your dorms, you couldn’t help but think… Your mind cleared of Hyunjin and now filled with only Felix. It felt wrong, especially knowing that he had a girlfriend of his own, but there was something about the moment, about his arms being wrapped around you. You felt safe there, even if it had only lasted for a couple seconds. You couldn’t keep thinking like that though, it wasn’t good for you, it wasn’t good at all.
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I am once again offering up my other socials that I use a lot, there’s also some unhinged silliness on my twt @Babygirl_Doppio and my ao3, it would me a whole lot to me as you see me act like a damn dog for Doppio’s cute chubby tight pussy🥹🫶💕
Like take this for example “Doppio falling head over pussy in love with some people in her life and she’s this shy little thing.”
This is good but what about “Everyone else getting pussy whipped and kissing Doppio’s delicate ankles, calves and freckled thighs…whimpering that they’ll do absolutely anything to make Doppio happy.”
DELICIOUS FUCKING DELICIOUS IT HAS THE RIGHT FUCKING FLAVOR WE DESPERATELY NEED LIKE PLEASE GANG LETS GET TO 330+ FOLLOWERS ON TWT FOR THE DOPPIO PUSSY SO WE CAN BE BROUGHT TO THE PROMISE LAND😭🙏
Temporary post: if you guys want, I can drop the links to my twt and ao3 so you can see the extra silliness
This is my ao3, I have a ton of content on there!
My Twitter is @Babygirl_Doppio, it’s private but if you want to experience the extra silliness from here to there, please hit me up!
HAN JISUNG in every STRAY KIDS MV 🕷 거미줄 (VENOM) — 2022
#THAT IS HAYDEN CHRISTENSEN'S VOICE #THAT IS NEW DIALOGUE BETWEEN ANAKIN AND AHSOKA IN HAYDEN CHRISTENSEN'S VOICE #ANAKIN TEACHING AHSOKA AND SAYING HE KNOWS SHE CAN DO THIS #I AM NOT GOING TO SURVIVE THIS SHOW!!!!
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GUYS ISTG IF SILKSONG RELEASES THIS FUCKING MONTH I WILL GET UNHINGED AND MAYBE KILL SOMEONE