(in An Irresponsible Way) - Tumblr Posts

Yes!! Thank you for putting it in words better than I could! I have a friend since childhood whom I adore i would die for her I say this with a feeling of finality in my bones that makes me think I might just and while I am 100% sure that if she and I put my mind to it we'd not only be romantically involved we'd be romantically responsible (in an irresponsible way) but I personally am not in a situation and/or mindset for anything actually romantic right now and she also has her own woes to tackle So we just remain as we are which I suppose is exactly what you wrote but some of our friends (I am thinking of exactly one and he knows who he is)((I just remembered he doesn't have tumblr so he doesn't)) just don't get that this can exist without sex or romantic love being the inevitable outcome?? And at this point we just treat it as a joke and say the two of us are married (and divorce at every slightest inconvenience for fun) But sometimes I get so uncontrollably angry at his mindset that I can barely hold myself together The times I have tried (and failed) to explain this I was brushed off ESPECIALLY since I have previously been extremely conflicted about my feelings towards her and couldn't put a name on them because it was love! Unmistakable and unspeakable Love! Love that scorches my heart in ways I can only describe as heavenly! And so I said it as it is i love her And because of that I was repeatedly told I had a crush on her and I just accepted it because honestly My last two crushes were a very complicated case of falling for them both at the same time and also very hard And since then anything I say is ignored and the only thing people hear is I have a crush on her There are so many forms of love and Romance is not the strongest of them necessarily! Every single nuance of love can burn just as brightly just as deadly and most importantly just as fucking intense Ahem. Sorry for this rant over