Its A Bit Silly .................................... - Tumblr Posts

here's a maybe; just a small piece of thought i found as i walked past my shoe rack last night.

a pair of new balance shoes my mom loves, but insisted i have them anyway. a pair of slightly oversized crocs, a birthday gift from a friend i don't really talk to these days — not that i really talk to anyone these days. and a pair of high top converse. dusty. they're sat at the very top, my favourite pair of sneakers. i haven't worn them in a while. pretty sure i haven't been outside in a while either.

but then catching even a glimpse of them made me think. of wearing them. and it made me feel the urge to get out of my room and walk around in them and finally live life and act like i function again, instead of continuously spiralling and drowning in my self pity because i've been brushing my friends off for weeks and i haven't replied to my family's texts and calls either. because i've been too busy rotting away.

so maybe, just maybe, that's what life is about.

meaningful, albeit small items that we love. they're meaningful because they give meaning to life. they keep us going, when nothing else does.

currently the world is ending for me (aka i have no recent lore ideas for the au where UI gets the rot (RC au)) and i am exploding and bawling and throwing myself down on the floor and swimming in the void soup and disappearing forever (aka just trying to come up with ideas... and failing smh)