Jesus Yall Can't Handle A Little Angst - Tumblr Posts
Aziraphale's got 6000 years of indoctrination to overcome, he's not just suddenly going to get over it! And Crowley isn't in the right either- they can't run away forever, heaven and hell will still be after them and they can't ignore that completely, but aziraphale thinks that he can /fix/ it, can make it better, so they don't have to worry about heaven and hell and can be free, he's doing this for THEM, you see? He doesn't see himself as betraying Crowley, he sees Crowley as betraying him. And if Crowley came with him, then they could be together AND they could work to fix things, and he's just devastated when Crowley can't see it his way.
And- Crowley can't be an angel again, he doesn't WANT to be an angel again, because he's CHANGED and he's not that person anymore. And aziraphale doesn't realize that. Aziraphale has good intentions, fixing the system from the inside, and he sacrificed love for the greater good, but he doesn't realize that he's being manipulated because the indoctrination is still too strong
i’m obsessed with aziraphale’s ending. how can someone as clever as you be so stupid. because the clutches of good are so much more dangerous than the clutches of evil. being too attached to a good ideology can so easily push you to do evil to uphold it. belief in your own goodness can so easily blind you to the evil you’re doing. aziraphale wasn’t drugged and he doesn’t love heaven more than crowley, he simply values goodness over evil and believes his idealistic view of goodness to be innocent. he’s been indoctrinated by heaven into this black and white view of it. he thinks goodness is this perfect ideal that can be fought for and achieved. he will turn into fucking robespierre. he will become so obsessed with his goodness and so convinced that he’s right that he will guillotine anyone who tries to stop him. he already is robespierre. he guillotined crowley. not because he didn’t love him but because he’s blinded by an obsession to goodness that isn’t goodness. he can’t bare to see someone he loves go against what he believes is the point of the universe. it’s a mercy killing. and he doubted it so strongly. because subconsciously he knows it all. but he believes he’s good and he wants to be so he will do anything to prove it. it’s so difficult for him to abandon the primary principle of his universe. and i think only when he realises that goodness as he believes it does not exist that he’ll realise. at the guillotine himself he’ll understand. goodness can be just as evil as evil. if heaven destroys the earth it will be just as dead as if hell did it. i highly doubt the moral nuance of this will be continued into season three but boy would i love to see it