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Just a bit rambling about my ocs
okay so I have some of thoughts inside my head about my sibling OCs (Raafa and Mei Hua), it was nice for me when I thought about them and I just want to talk about it now. this might be changed due to how my story can get develop around them and how their background story about their childhood but here was the thought.
TW: mentioning child abuse
I always like to make siblings' stories since it was played a crucial part in whatever story I ever made before this one. Most of my story was about how both siblings cared about each other because of circumstances. Well, I do have another sibling relationship that has a love-hate relationship but never got that development as far as Mei Hua and Raafa but it is almost the same I guess.
I was thinking about how rough both relationships were especially when it came to Raafa and Mei Hua. Mei Hua really didn't want to open up or let people go into her life while Raafa wanted to make a connection with a sister. Since kid Raafa was excited after his mother told him that he actually had a big sister, what came into his mind was "Finally I wasn't alone! I'm not an only child." But at some point, he doesn't understand why he never sees her around or even why his mother never brought Mei Hua with her.
Raafa tends to expect that he wants something to be exactly like what he imagines, like a loving big sister who cares about him. A friend who can understand him, a person who can share the same weight of ability to see the nonmaterial world, or maybe a friend to play with since he was the only child. Grew up as someone who did not have many friends made him feel lonely because he saw himself as different from others and had a hard time connecting with the other kids since they would find him weird and call him crazy when he talked to a spirit and they can't see it or have a deep connection with it like how raafa have a deep connection with spirit.
He even keeps asking about his sister's story like what she looks like? what was the thing that she liked? what were her favorite things? What game that she possibly play? and so on. That feeling never gone until he met Mei Hua for REAL this time and those feelings that he kept had already been shattered apart by how his own sister reacted to him when she saw him, when she even tried to kill him.
Why does Mei Hua want to kill him?
Well, it's not like she wants to kill because it was fun to see him die or anything. It's more to anger that she has had since she was childhood, and when it took control she end up doing something horible. She has a completely different lifestyle with Raafa, really. When Raafa grew up with love from both parents Mei Hua ended up with her father who actually never loved her, and she always sought her father's attention even by doing something that was not normal since she was a kid. Yeah, she does have Lian Hua but her relationship with her mother was never going well as most of the time she rarely saw her around. She has been taken away from her mother since she was 4. And when she left Mei Hua it break something inside of her. Because of this, she developed the thought that her own mother didn't love her. she hates it of course, she though that Lian Hua leave her alone to suffer was something that leave a permanent mindset.
And with her father, he and Mei Hua have a hard relationship, his love for Mei Hua is conditional he loves her only when he sees that Mei Hua is useful to him, nothing more and nothing less. As a child Mei Hua was smart, reading all the books that were not for her age and even planning a military attack as a thought of playing a little game with her father. All the credit had never been given to her, all the idea that she blurt it was just been taken away from her. Mei Hua realize it as a kid, that her father never truely love her if she was not being usefull. She loved that her father gave her a compliment, she loved that her father encouraged her even when she did was wrong things, she even dressed as a boy just to get the attention that she seeks pretending to be something that was not her at all, she would do anything that her father say to her and its bit disturbing.
She learned everything that her father did until the day she made a mistake, that's was the horrible things that she ever experience in her childhood. she never forget the day that she almost die in the progress. She hates it, hates the reality that her own father just using her, hates that in reality her father never loved her. She already sacrifice manythings just for her father attention and it end up pretty bad for her.
Because of this when she saw Raafa, a person that got love from both parent, grew up as normal person, someone that really get their mother love make her angry. And the anger that was still there bubbling inside toward since childhood was never gone. she even think that her own mother replacing her with someone new.
their relationship was not always full of hater, sometimes they do bond in a way or another. Mei Hua really did care in some point of their life but well she just denies it and sometimes she even didn't realized it. Raafa was never give up on their relationship of course and when Raafa was gone in the end of the war it did make her break her, and make her completely realized that she have lost something that was indeed precious.
This though may change after a while or after some writing adjustment but yeah I think I'm done in here