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🪐 — JAMES BARNES​  for  birdie !

she is a balm for the aching, a promise of softness that begins to feel addictive, a hope that builds in his chest. they say he needs to get out, make efforts to expand the life he’s in now, give himself permission to keep on living. her words work wonders, feel heavy in the space between them, weighted with something like promise. air is swallowed thick through his lungs, the seconds mounting up before he finds his voice, hoping it doesn’t crack too greatly when he speaks.          ❛   maybe. ❜       the more he thinks about it, the idea becomes appealing, seems to fill his chest with hot air and leaves him flushed with colour.      ❛   i mean yeah … that would be good. we could make it a date. ❜       how long since anything like that? there’s a plan already forming in his mind, trying to find the parts of him that might have excelled, hoping he hasn’t forgotten everything he’d once known. the nervousness still lingers, draws any confidence back into himself;         ❛   if you’d like that? ❜

      THROUGH HER EYES  he is practically crystalline, wide gaze tracing the facets of his face with a desire to memorize.  she will call this moment to mind while he is away,  &  as long as she does, he is certain to return.  @barnaes​​ may see himself as devoid of all vestiges of life after all the horrors inflicted upon him by cruel hands.  but birdie can see how a flush of color seems to rise from deep within him at the idea that there could be life for him still on the other side of all the violence he has been forced to inflict  &  endure.  what was alive in him once long ago is still there beneath all the blood  &  metal.  of this, she at least has no doubt.  after all, how could she doubt what can be seen so plainly with her own eyes ?  this is no act of faith;  this is mere observation.  ❝ you’re not very good at taking hints, are you james ?  ❞  but in spite of the tease, there’s nothing but happiness in her tone.  &  her smile grows so wide it overwhelms her entire face, nose wrinkling  &  eyes scrunched together at the corners.  ❝ i’d love to, of course ! ❞