Personally My Parents Have Always Been Great Abt My Arfid And Have Never Forced Me To Eat But The Same Cant Be Said For Others - Tumblr Posts

personally my parents have always been great abt my arfid and have never forced me to eat but the same cant be said for others i was forcefed in daycare. 'hernekeittoa' (pea soup??). whenever we had that at school i couldnt even look at it. and when i was 6 in my first year of school i couldnt eat my food. my plate was untouched. i just couldnt. the lunch lady made me sit in the kitchen. my plate was on the 'table' and i remember the chair was high. i wasn't allowed to leave until i ate i cried and i cried and i hyperventilated and i cried and i couldnt eat. and i was in full view of the other students. they could see me crying in the kitchen. i couldnt eat. no teacher did anything. i couldnt eat it idk how it ended. i probably didnt eat akd my teacher collected me when everyone else had left. i didnt even realize this was such a traumatic event untiö a couple weeks ago. i always knew it was fucked up but. it was just another fucked up thing someone did to me bc of my ED. it didnt stans out. but then recently i told my mom abt it. and when i finished her face went completely blank and i'd never heard her talk so calmly as when she said she was gonna murder her. she was gonna murder that lunch lady. i never realized just how honestly fucked up that situation was before. bc im fucking used to it. im used to being treated like fucking TRASH for my ed. fuck. its so fucked up. what the fuck.