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camille is very much aware that she should have never gone back to julien . anyone in their right mind wouldn't , but that's the thing , she wasn't in her right mind when she came back crawling to him . it's a bold move , shameless even , because while the public already had a target on her back , she went and did the only one thing that she shouldn't have —— her reputation has already been tainted anyways , but it gets worse every time julien grimaldi is involved . still , she finds herself enjoying every second of it . maybe deep down this is what she wants : the push and pull , the never - ending cycle of fighting and making up , the intense hatred mixed with desire . she knows he's no good for her , and yet she couldn't seem to find a way to leave ( she already did once , but is it considered leaving if she still comes back around like this ? ) , and now that she and darius are already broken up , there's nothing stopping her from falling back into old habits . maybe she's a little fucked in the head , but she loves the idea of being with julien , how he always bring out the worst in her . it makes her feel alive in a way , and it doesn't help that he knows just the right ways to keep her around either . but things with julien are just that , something she clings to for some sort of relevancy , something that makes playing the villain a little more tolerable . after all two is better than one , right ?
it's all fun and games between them , but she couldn't deny that every time he calls her name in that stupidly sexy french accent of his , it makes her feel giddy for all the wrong reasons . sure , he's got a fucking point . “ well , if you put it that way , ” she lets her words trail instead . julien definitely has the upper hand in this situation , but maybe it's about time she puts him back in his place . “ wait , did you hear that ? ” a brief pause for dramatic effect , “ that's the sound of me not giving a single fuck about what you think . but you know what ? i'll give you that —— it's true that you make it so fucking hard for me to leave sometimes , but don't get it twisted , yeah ? you're not that special to me . ” this time camille drops the smile on her face , gaze still on his , “ if you still didn't get the fucking hint , i'm dumping your ass , jules . and please , keep his name out of your fucking mouth . you have no rights to talk about him like that . ” it's almost laughable how she still wants to protect darius when she was the one who hurt him the most , but really , she could tell that julien probably brings him up on purpose , knows that she'd get all worked up over the mention of her ex .
julien isn’t some shining example of a good guy . no , far from it . he’s selfish , oozing ego and packed with a substantial dose of narcissism . so damn convinced he’s the center of the universe , so damn sure that anyone who’s ever heard of him wants him . and honestly , he’s not entirely wrong . plenty of people would kill to be camille right now , would act like the perfect little partner for the perfect little prince . but that’s the thing , julien doesn’t want that . he wants the drama , the thrill of the chase , that intense heat . and camille delivers just that — she brings the fire , the passion , the intensity , and gives him just enough of that ‘ love to hate you ’ energy to get him completely hooked . he loves the way her eyes practically roll into the back of her head but still betray desire . loves the way she yells at him in public , making them the talk of every tabloid website . and he absolutely loves explosive shouting matches that only wind down when they’re both naked , spent , and blissfully satisfied . but does he love her ? no . he loves that she’s his , that she brings something thrilling to a life that’s supposed to be so dull and boring . and that’s the reason , ( and he’ll swear it’s the only reason ) , why he’s never gonna walk away .
maybe this was his plan all along — to bring out this side of her . then again , maybe he actually thought she had a shred of loyalty to him . who really knows with this guy ? “ ooooh , now that’s the feisty camille i know and love . ” a smirk appears to lips as index finger traces her jawline , a gentle mockery of affection . “ you forget , chérie — the last time your loyalty slipped , wasn’t it my name on your lips ? you say you don’t do loyalty , i say you’ve been mine , all mine , since you cheated on that little boyfriend of yours . ” the real message here boils down to the fact that julien is a horrible human being . he couldn’t care less about loyalty or who she’s with , at least as long as he fits into the picture somehow . but , oh , if she ever considers revisiting things with her ex , that’s where he draws a line . hits a nerve on his fragile ego , maybe ? “ enough with this ‘ shoo , bad boy ’ act . weren’t you saying the same just last week ? and the week before ? and yet , here you are . seems you cannot resist , eh ? oh , but suddenly , you’re turning a new leaf for your oh - so - bland ex - boyfriend , just because he’s made his grand retour ? mon dieu , that’s truly … fuckin’ disappointing . ”