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breaching sanity. final chapter. alys aderyn.

tw: trauma, religion, horror, gore

with the pursuit of freedom, i found you. lost in translation ; the flight you promised me through demands you must execute. gasoline seeps through my fingers, wiping clean any crimson but leaving behind a horrible horrible smell. a type of scent which lingers in the back of your throat, choking any air that attempts to leave my lungs. any tears i create he collects, through darkened clouds that fill the sky my emotions trickle down once more, feeding the ever growing emerald surface i built as a child. the heat that burns up ahead, the amber glow that drowns screams of many familiar with its warmth. i stare into the open flame, something in it has a power, i could barely tear my gaze away. i travel through the heat, its burning me. it hurts. i’m not stopping. on my back there's a weight. i can’t look back, the overwhelming pressure that settles between my shoulders is nothing short of foreboding, its deep, heavy breathing cascading down my neck as my body sways. 

we’re searching, home has been found. but i am not stopping. the trial of fire with burn before you bury me. legs shake as i topple onto the dirt path below, the flames growing around me. vision fades between a bright glow & the comfort of darkness- but i can’t give in now. my fingers grip onto the burnt blades of grass below me, im pushing myself onto my elbows, crimson falls from an unknown part of my body, i watch as it seeps into the ground below, the earth swallowing it instantly. soon after, a flower blooms- a lily. i allow my blurry gaze to wander, down from the heavens more crimson fell, evaporating as it hit the fiery orange glow that surrounded me- more flowers began to bloom - only standing for a moment before the flames consume them. i’m scared. my eyes find a rose that is seconds from being swallowed by the fire, i lunge toward with, reaching into my soul to find any ounce of strength - but i was too late. the petals light up and with it there’s a deep crack within me. i scream. i’m scared. the pain begins inward and travels toward the surface. as with the death of a flower - comes an unbearable pain within me. 

the weight is back, i fall to my knees, dragging my lifeless body through the mud & flames- trying so hard to shake off this feeling. the heaviness, the dread, the weight. the further i travel the more it consumes me, burying me beneath the red hot surface below. although, no mark on my body. the trees that surround me are crying, i pause, i hear them. i listen. i tell them, i say, “i hear you.” i scream. the trees follow. in unison we are crying, wailing, we recognize each others pain.

i am listening.

i pause. a single trickle of red drips down from my eye, falling into my parted tiers. something clicked. everything feels so far away. the deafening screams around me felt silent, i knew they were there, but something far more important was at hand right now. the weight. it had disappeared, i’m cold. i’m shaking. why is it so cold. i watch as the fire continues to burn around me. why am i so cold? the feeling of dread that sat atop of me had diminished, i felt new. above me flew a bird, way above the burning woodland, it seemed so peaceful, i watched it. a small smile curving my lips. 

i wanted you to show me freedom, that pure enigmatic energy of everything holy you promised us.