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need to sit in sam winchesters lap and run my fingers through his hair while leaving little braids
just doing girly things like having a mental crisis over the hand size difference between sam&jo
he is HUGE what do i do
angel!reader heacanons — sam winchester
cw : gn!reader, fluff, reader really really loves cats, sort of naive/super adorable reader, little bit of disillusionment, not proofread, 2.4K words. requested !
prompt : simply just sam x angel!reader <3
✶.◟ sometimes, sam still thinks about how disappointing it was to find out the reality of heaven and angels and god
✶.◟ of course, there’s the occasionally kind angel, and of course, there’s cas
✶.◟ but when you come along, he’s certainly still suspicious of you and your intentions
✶.◟ you’ve never been to earth before, and that often means a firm indoctrination in the skewed perspective of many angels
✶.◟ cas didn’t know much about you when you came along, just that you’re a low ranking angel whom he’s never heard anything bad about
✶.◟ you’re there on orders, of course, and it doesn’t take long before you run into cas and the winchesters
✶.◟ the encounter isn’t necessarily pleasant, as heaven usually isn’t working in tandem with the brothers
✶.◟ but it’s not to unpleasant either; the shorter seems sort of rude to you, you don’t have the best impression of castiel based on heaven’s word, and the third isn’t thrilled to see you either
✶.◟ but you’re not unkind, just blunt and maybe a little awkward like all angels who are unused to the human way of speaking
✶.◟ so they don’t jump to judge or hurt you, or at least, sam doesn’t
✶.◟ he gets dean to back down and listen to you when the elder gets upset about something you say regarding heaven
✶.◟ it’s stange to you, these humans that know of heaven and angels but don’t seem to care for them much
✶.◟ you thought humans found comfort in the thought of you, but these ones don’t seem to like the real thing and that intrigues
✶.◟ in fact, now that you’re here on earth, everything intrigues you
✶.◟ kindness and lying and holding hands and eating and falling asleep
✶.◟ stray cats and crispy leaves on the ground that make a nice sound against the concrete when it’s windy
✶.◟ then next time you meet cas and the boys, you ask these questions that make them think you might not be so bad, that they might be able to get through to you
✶.◟ you only ask them because your superior angels won’t answer, and you can’t really ask regular humans
✶.◟ it’s sweet, the way you interrupt the tense conversation, seeking permission to ask them a few questions about humans
✶.◟ sam sees your earnesty and says of course
✶.◟ why don’t humans like rain? we don’t have it in heaven, and i find it so pleasant to experience.
✶.◟ and, how does one procure a pet cat? i want one.
✶.◟ and also, why don’t you like angels? the other’s won’t answer any of my questions.
✶.◟ they answer the last question first, and your concern grows
✶.◟ you understand prioritizing the orders one receives from heaven, but despite lacking a natural empathy as an angel, you don’t carry the disdain for humans that many angels too
✶.◟ and that makes you confused over the actions of angels that cas and the brothers describe to you
✶.◟ and it leaves you much more open minded, much more sympathetic; cas doesn’t seem nearly as bad as other angels describe him, he’s generally kind and passionate
✶.◟ the brothers don’t seem to bad to you either, especially sam
✶.◟ he’s nice to you and appeals to what cas says are your better senses, your kinder senses
✶.◟ to you, kind seems like a good thing, and the way that angels generally don’t care for individual humans seems opposing to your purpose as their protectors
✶.◟ so, as conflicted as you feel about it, you lend help to cas when he calls upon you
✶.◟ and one day, you lend a hand to sam. just sam
✶.◟ he prays to you, injured but trying to sound dignified still; cas won’t answer, and dean’s too far
✶.◟ he’s unsure that you’ll answer, but you do, and readily
✶.◟ he’s barely said your name, barely explained the situation before there’s a flutter of wings, then you
✶.◟ it doesn’t take much effort on your part to deal with whatever monsters he was fighting, then you kneel at his side and heal his wounds without a second thought
✶.◟ he thanks you, and you follow him to his motel, unaware that he didn’t really invite you
✶.◟ he certainly doesn’t tell you to go, though
✶.◟ it’s just that he never answered your questions about rain or cats, and honestly you have so many more
✶.◟ he stays up almost all night explaining everything he can to you, as best as he can, until he yawns and you remember that humans need sleep
✶.◟ so you turn off the lights and send him to bed before settling onto the couch
✶.◟ “may i read this?” you ask while he’s brushing his teeth
✶.◟ “of course,” he says, taking a few moments to study your form, already intently studying the first page
✶.◟ “are you staying here?” he asks, voice muffled around the toothbrush
✶.◟ “yes. is that alright?”
✶.◟ he nods, “sure. you don’t have somewhere else to be, though?”
✶.◟ you think he sounds funny with a mouth full of toothpaste and spit
✶.◟ “not anymore,” you answer simply, “i think i’ll be like cas.”
✶.◟ sam smiles, unbeknownst to you because you’ve already resumed reading this book, it’s fiction, and fascinating to you
✶.◟ when sam wakes, you’re still on the couch, reading a new book, and the second you hear him stir you turn around in the couch, leaning over the cushions to watch him
✶.◟ “sam?” you ask with no regard to the fact that he’s barely just opened his eyes, then rattles off several questions about the content of the books you’ve been reading all night
✶.◟ the poor man barely catches any of it, stretching and groaning before trying to answer something in a slightly coherent way
✶.◟ but what he says to you doesn’t make much sense, nor does it really apply to any of the seven questions you’ve asked
✶.◟ you scrunch up your nose and suddenly sam thinks that you’re very cute
✶.◟ he tells you he’s too disoriented to answer, but that he’ll tell you what he thinks properly after getting up and having a cup of coffee
✶.◟ sam shows you your first coffee shop, which you’re decently delighted with, though the dirty chai latte he’s ordered for you tastes like nothing but molecules to you, as per usual
✶.◟ but he keeps his promise, telling you everything he can about the things in the books that confused you or made you curious
✶.◟ it’s all why would she lie to them or why do you humans… and sam finds himself explaining deeply some of the most complicated parts of the human condition to you
✶.◟ you find it all a bit strange, but a bit endearing too
✶.◟ you’re blunt and don’t intend to be mean when you tell sam that it seems like cas is closer to dean, but you like him better
✶.◟ sam blushes a little, though he feels like he shouldn’t be surprised by your honesty
✶.◟ you become closer to all three of them in time, and grow to understand the nuances of humans better
✶.◟ you’re not quite as awkward, but sam thinks you still talk a little funny, and is quite endeared with it
✶.◟ he spends time explaining lots to you, sharing all of his knowledge of humans things, and listening intently when you share about your abundant knowledge of the divine and supernatural
✶.◟ it doesn’t take long at all to find that he really could talk to you all day and night
✶.◟ and though he’s careful with his heart, it doesn’t take long to fall for you either
✶.◟ you’ve quickly turned into a very genuine and empathetic angel, and sam admires you for it greatly
✶.◟ you still struggle with some things and some aspects of empathy, but to him you really do feel good
✶.◟ you feel like what an angel should be, at least in this messed up world
✶.◟ and he’s hesitant; you’ll live practically forever unless you get killed, and it certainly scares him that you can be killed, he scared of anyone he loves dying… he’s scared that everyone he loves will die because of it
✶.◟ and you don’t know too well about love, but you figure out that you have it
✶.◟ for many things, like rain and cats and books and sam
✶.◟ sam likes to indulge the things that you love
✶.◟ he shares his favorite books with you and shows you how to use the internet
✶.◟ one day he wakes to you on his computer, a wide smile on your face and soft cooing escaping your lips
✶.◟ when you sense his presence, you look up at himfrom your seat with the widest, most excited eyes and he nearly melts into the floor
✶.◟ “did you know that you can look at endless pictures of cats on this computer?” you ask him
✶.◟ he says yes, and that you can look at them on any computer, and that you can watch videos too
✶.◟ he almost regrets telling you that, because now you’re constantly approaching him with cat videos you found in your free time
✶.◟ but he’d never regret doing something that makes you smile so often, so he doesn’t complain
✶.◟ instead, he researches about cats and all the other earthly things that interest you in his free time so he can tell you random facts about them
✶.◟ and for a being who’s been alive for so long and knows so much, you find it beautiful that there’s so much more to learn on earth
✶.◟ and sam loves your thirst for knowledge, he loves being the person you always ask about things first
✶.◟ he feels proud to tell you the things he does know, and grateful that you also ask questions that make him really think or that he doesn’t know the answer to yet
✶.◟ you’ve also taken to stealing his phone to take pictures
✶.◟ you have an incredible memory, but the internet has made you keen on images
✶.◟ it of course started when you saw a stray cat and wished aloud to him that you could take a picture like the ones you look at on his computer
✶.◟ and he gladly informs you that you can, showing you how to use his camera
✶.◟ his camera roll ends up filled with every little thing one could think of; so many cats and clouds and sunsets and buildings and people you see on the street, plants and trees and bugs, and apparently, him
✶.◟ you keep taking pictures of him, and it makes him shy
✶.◟ he asks why and you tell him it’s because you take pictures of all the things you like, all the things you think are pretty
✶.◟ sure, there’s photos of dean and cas sprinkled in, but you must like sam a lot and find him very pretty to have taken so many pictures of him
✶.◟ he blushes and says you should take pictures of yourself too
✶.◟ you wonder if he’s implying that he thinks you’re pretty, but you’re not really sure; the sentiment ends up flying over your head like many of his attempts at flirting, but he always finds it as endearing as it is frustrating, so he can’t complain much
✶.◟ you do take photos of yourself like he’s suggested, only for that reason, though you’re not really sure how and most of them look awkward or generally unsuccessful in actually capturing your whole face with the camera
✶.◟ sam doesn’t show you how to use the front camera for a long while because he likes the silly photos of you
✶.◟ eventually, you find it yourself, and sam’s relieved that you still look awkward in your selfies
✶.◟ most likely, you end up taking up all of his storage, but he doesn’t have the heart to delete anything, so he downloads them onto his computer and saves them there (he’s self indulgent and keeps much more of the pictures of you than he really needs)
✶.◟ then he buys you a simple camera of your own, and ends up missing all the times you ask to borrow his phone to take a picture of the clouds in the sky
✶.◟ that always made him stop and look more, see the world and its beauty through your eyes
✶.◟ so instead, he looks for things you might like when you’re apart and takes pictures to show you when he sees you next
✶.◟ there’s also probably a time where you accidentally took his phone with you somewhere, and he has to pray to you to get it back
✶.◟ sam also likes to pray to you, though
✶.◟ it’s infinitely comforting that he can talk to you wherever you are and know that you’ll hear him
✶.◟ and he tends to miss you a lot, so he likes to at least have one way to feel close to you, even if you can’t always visit him right then or even reply at all
✶.◟ but of all the things that sam teaches you, of all the things that he’s the first one to show you, it’s the love that his most favorite
✶.◟ one day you ask about hand holding; you’ve seen lots of humans do it, and you’re curious
✶.◟ why do you do it? is it nice? you understand that it’s an expression of affection, but you want to know more
✶.◟ can i hold your hand?
✶.◟ when he says yes, and looks into your eyes while he takes your hand into his, you very easily understand that yes, it’s nice. it’s lovely. it’s perfect. and you’d like to do it with sam all of the time
✶.◟ much more comes after that; you want to feel all of the ways that people express affection; hugs and sweet words and kisses and heads on shoulders. playing with hair and saying i love you
✶.◟ sam shows it all to you