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@lostinthe-jojos IM COMING FOR YOUR ASS FOR MAKING ME CRY THIS UGLY WAY IM CHOKING AND IM SCREAMIGN AND IM SO PISSED AND IM DEPRESSED BUT I LOVE HIM SO MUCH IT HURTS THANK YOU FOR THE TAG I LOVE YOU

i actually have something similar on my drafts, but it's more messed up. so get ready cause it's your time to suffer mf

One week

@notsocoolnana @wakasagurl @shinichirosgirl

❥ Shinichiro x Afab!Reader

❥A/N: Um I apologize in advance. This is just angst.

Kneeling before his bed, you reached under for the boxes he kept there. You would rather not do this but couldn't have someone else do it. His friends had offered to, but you asked them to come by two hours later. You felt like you needed some time alone, surrounded by all of his things and flooding your heart with memories of you together.

Sighing, you opened the first box. You found theatre tickets, train and bus tickets, a few different rocks, some dried flowers, and a bunch of photo booth pictures. They were mementos from your first month dating. And then you found it. To the eyes of anyone else it would have been something insignificant, but to you and Shinichiro, it meant the beginning of your story.

You remembered how nervously confident Shinichiro was when he had asked you out. When you smiled and said yes, his eyes lit up in an adorable way and he held both of your hands in his, thanking you for giving him a chance and telling you when and where you would meet. He made sure it was somewhere near your house, he wanted to look cool by riding on his bike.

You had decided to try and match his hairstyle, doing on yourself a little 50's style updo, which took you a lot longer than you had initially thought. Not liking your final result, you ditched the hairstyle and simply used some bobby pins to shape it a bit until you liked how you looked and headed to the spot Shinichiro had called you to.

By the time you were arriving, he was already there, helmet in hand and leaning on his bike. When he spotted you he couldn't stop tear his eyes off of you, a silly smile spreading on his lips. He'd tell you years later, that it was in that moment when he decided that he wanted to be with you and would do his best everyday to keep you by his side. The date went even better than he had expected, and by the end of it, you were sitting on a bench having a drink and some snacks, talking like you had known each other forever.

"There's this game," you said, grabbing the empty can of Coca-Cola from his hands, "that kids play, where you say the alphabet as you over and backwards the ring pull, you explained looking at him, "they say the letter where the ring comes off, if the initial of the person you'll marry," you said and started to play the game, both you and Shinichiro saying each letter.

"Ess" you both said as the ring came off.

He smiled at you, but said nothing, only looking at your flustered expression.

Later that night, when he took you home, you felt bold and pulled him into a kiss, surprising him. Still kissing him, you held his hand and placed the ring pull in his palm, him immediately reacting by holding whatever you had given him.

"You should keep it," you said once you pulled away and disappeared into your house, a mischievous smile grazing your features.

You clutched the little object in your hand, holding it close to your chest.

"Y/N?" Mikey called you, eyes red and puffy, as he peeked inside his brother's room. You had barely seen him all week, busy helping hidms grandfather with the funeral.

You sniffed and wiped off your tears.

"Manjiro, come here," you said and let the boy sit between your legs.

"I miss my brother," he said, leaning into your chest. He looked so small, so vulnerable and defenseless. He acted so tough all the time you sometimes forgot he was still just thirteen years old.

"I know you do, baby," you said and kissed the crown of his head, "I miss him too"

The moment you had been introduced to Shinichiro's siblings, they had immediately loved you. Mikey loved to spend time with you and loved pulling pranks on his brother teaming up with you. He didn't understand why it had to happen, why his brother was gone now.

"What is that?" He asked, pointing at the ring pull you held in your hand.

"A memory and a promise," you responded with a sad smile. You then told him the story behind it and he smiled.

"Can I still call you big sister?" He asked as he played with your fingers, not daring to look up at you.

You hugged him tight and kissed his head again.

"Of course you can, baby," you said, "you can always count on me, no matter what. You and Emma"

He moved to wrap his arms around you, still sitting between your legs. Both of you stayed like that for a few moments, in silence, just hugging each other.

"Can I help you clean up?"

"I would love that, thanks Jiro"

The boy helped you check out the rest of the boxes, occasionally asking you about certain items he'd find and asking to keep some of the photos, no mater if they were just you and Shinichiro or if you were hanging out with his friends or with him and Emma.

Somehow, cleaning up with Manjiro and sharing memories of Shinichiro helped you with the process. The two of you would tear up every now and then, but the other would quickly make a comment, something Shinichiro would say and the two would burst into laughter.

"Are we interrupting?" Takeomi asked standing on the door, Imaushi behind him and Keizo holding Emma in his arms.

You smiled and shook your head.

"Come in, Jiro has helped me a lot," you said ruffling the kid's hair as he smiled up at you.

"What's left to clean up?" Imaushi asked.

You pointed at the two shelves and the three friends got to working. While Takeomi and Imaushi went through his clothes, Benkei and Emma looked through the other shelf, where he kept a somehow organized mess, only making sense in Shinichiro's head.

"Shit," Imaushi suddenly said, standing in place and holding something.

"What? What's wrong? What's that?" Takeomi asked, making everyone else turn their head to look at Imaushi.

"It's uh— Y/N?" he looked at you, not really wanting to finish the sentence, "you should look at this"

You felt bile going up your esophagus, leaving a disgusting, burning feeling behind, a nervous wreck and trembling limbs.

"It's nothing bad," he said after he sensed your discomfort, "see?" He lifted a little platinum ring, "I was just surprised to find it" he said and walked to you, to give you the ring.

He was going to propose to you?

You held the ring and stared at it, thinking back at all the times you had talked about your future together. You had already found an apartment to live with him and were in the process of moving in together.

"Don't cry, Y/N," Emma's sweet voice said, as the girl hugged you.

"Yeah, sorry, Emma," you said with a smile, "I'm just happy he had thought of marrying me someday"

You felt Manjiro throw himself at you, hiding his face in the crook of your neck and hugged both kids back, smiling.

"Alright, let's get this done with," you announced after a while.

Two hours, and many shared memories later, you were finally done and invited everyone to grab something for dinner.

As you ate, you continued talking about Shinichiro, sharing stories about him, some were sweet, some were embarrassing, some were inspiring, just like he was.

"We'll take the kids home," Takeomi, said, referring to him and Imaushi, "Keizo can ride you home"

"Okay, see you soon guys," you said and walked with Keizo.

He always insisted on you sitting in front of him, rather than behind him. He felt like it was easier for you to hold onto him and safer for him to drive, not having to worry about you falling off the bike.

"When are you gonna tell them?" He asked when he stopped at a red light.

"When it's safe," you responded.

"But you will, right?"

"Of course I will," you said, "I just need some more time, maybe one week or two more"

"Alright," he said.

You stayed in silence until you arrived at your house.

"Thank you for everything, Keizo," you said, "you've always been there for me and you don't know how much I appreciate that"

"It's what friends are for," he said with a small smile, "but promise me you won't run away from this. You gotta know this is what you really want"

"I do! It's the last thing I have left of him," you said, "you know, I was gonna tell him as soon as I found out. I was waiting for him that night with his favorite dinner and had a whole speech and everything," you said with a sad smile, "but he never came," you said with a strained voice that broke Keizo's heart.

He hugged you and comforted you, letting you cry your eyes out.

"Can you be there when I tell them that I'm pregnant?" you mumbled, your head still pressed against him.

"Of course I can," he said, "but don't be so scared, they're gonna love the news and help you in everything they can," he assured you, "everyone loved Shinichiro and everyone loves you too"

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