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Stop

Y'all need to stop harming yourself that's all

Logan fields x GN reader

Friends to lovers

Angst to fluff

Warnings: self harming, attempt suicide, harsh words

✨as always i don't know much English so if something is wrong correct me✨

"What the hell are you doing"

You look back at Logan

He looked at you with widen eyes as you were stepping at the edge of the building he only stared at me before speaking again

"do you want to kill yourself?"

The words coming out of his mouth was speechless

"why?"

At this point you can't say anything else you just turned around again and looked down

'why?' the words won't disappear, you began to question yourself aswell, why?, why do you want to jump, why do you want to kill yourself?, why... He isn't stoping you

My head and body are already ripping apart my head is telling me to stop yet my body is telling me to jump my head is full of thoughts i close my eyes for a minute till

"i wouldn't let you do that" my eyes open and looked at him

"you.. won't leave me.. right?" His voice breaks as he started to kneel down now his tears were visible

"you need to be here" that was his edge till you can hear him sobbing and sniffing

Your eyes are widen as you watch him cry from afar

You were shock when your own body is walking towards him and just stand there looking at him

You watch him cry as he kept mumbling something, you kneel down and hugged his back

"im sorry" was the only thing that came out of your mouth, why were you saying sorry for?, you didn't do anything wrong right?

"please don't leave me, im not ready for you to die yet"

'why don't you just kill yourself you little brat'

' seriously?! You think cutting your arm is gonna make me feel guilty to you?!'

' your such a worthless child! You know your cousin is way! More better than you!'

' you know when i was a child my family were poor and i work hard everyday i never got to finish school and i wasn't depressed WHILE you're here crying over some shitty tiny problems!'

That was it you remember all of the things those harsh comments that you forgot that theres still someone for you and that someone is

Him

Now that you realize why your sorry, you know now why your sorry

Because you forgot about him

'you look beautiful today'

'there now you won't feel insecure about your scars'

' hey! Did you eat today?! Or drink? C'mon my treat!'

' here let me help you don't pressure you're m'kay?'

You remembered his soft voice were now breaking

"im sorry" "please don't be sorry"

When he raised his face he quickly wipe his tears but you stopped him

"don't be insecure about how you cry" you said cupping his face now that you both have teary eyes look into each other

He raised his hand to cup your face

"please don't leave me, im always here for you no matter what, out of all the colors there are your my favorite one, out of ALL the students in school i chose you"

What was he talking about but his words

He took your hand and kissed the fresh cuts

You hiss in pain but you quickly forget it when the butterflys in the jar flew to your body

"I'll stay longer by your side than your scars"

"i love you too"

Please stop this self harm i know its hard but you can survive this mkay take care of yourself and drink lots of water and eat don't starve yourself

I need a hug