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I won’t come back to you broken, I won’t stay away too long. Even if words I’ve spoken seem to still come out wrong, I’ll get my shit back together, get right where I belong.
@yellowjacketsnetwork event 02: reunions ━ TAISSA TURNER & VAN PALMER
JUST FELL TO MY KNEES AND STARTED EATING DIRT
Theories On Other Tai and Van Dynamic…
We know that Tai and Other Tai compartmentalize memories and information and also that Other Tai acts as a dissociative outlet for Tai when necessary.
I think Tai seems so capable of moving forward and succeeding because she often feels so separate from her memories (often memories are being relayed to her) above them even (this contributes to and inspires disbanding relationships with those who survived the wilderness including Van).
Van is the only emotional component in Tai’s psyche that is shared with Other Tai. After the wolf attack, Other Tai accepts Van’s presence and encourages it. Ironically, Tai shows little respect for Van’s belief in her counterpart while Other Tai exhibits full respect for Van’s dedication to it. This is definitely a recipe for disaster because in her denial, Tai cannot even allow Van to love her. And it’s devastating to her adult life because she’s only willing to accept love that maintains her denial.
I think that even before the first scene in the adult timeline of season 1, Other Tai knows about Van’s cancer (yes, I know that Van was not intended to be a surviving character at that point, but I’m working with the narrative as a whole now whether or not this was the intent of the creators, so go with me).
The information was given to Tai by Jessica Roberts. Tai dissociates the information as she does with all of her triggers, but this one prompts Other Tai to remerge because Van is their only source of connection to one another shattering Tai’s tight control (along this same vein, I do think that when Other Tai remerges in the wilderness after season 2, it has something to do with Van’s safety).
Other Tai tells Sammy about Van (the red head by a heart in his drawings which he has drawn smiling, healthy, and bright in stark contrast to the frowning, exed-out, dark images). This gives us an intimate portrait of how Other Tai sees Van and that Other Tai will stop at nothing to keep Van as Sammy drew her. These drawings could also be Other Tai’s plans to get to Van.
Sammy begins to exhibit some potential, “Other Sammy”, behaviors. This wouldn’t be surprising considering Tai’s first encounter with, The Man With No Eyes, was at her grandmothers deathbed at a similar age. Sammy’s introduction to this other entity is also at the potential of a deathbed, so to speak (van). It is almost being presented here as a physical manifestation of generational trauma passed on at the coming of a time of death. This is more evidence to the depth of the connectedness between Other Tai and Van.
Tai can refuse to acknowledge this, but Other Tai is quick to share as she recognizes Sammy as kindred. Mutilating his toy and framing him for painting on the door were actions that were almost sibling-like in nature which denotes inherent fondness. This is why Other Tai manipulated a scenario in order to hurt Simone that did not actually involve Sammy. Sammy and Van are now both tied up in Tai and Other Tai’s battle for control over her consciousness because they are both loved by each personality.
Other Tai sacrifices the family dog in order to give Van more time while she finds a way to get to her. I also think that Van has known that Tai would eventually seek her out again when Other Tai remerged. It’s why the visit was tense and fraught but not completely a surprise.
Despite Van’s opposition to any of Tai’s attempts at connecting what’s happening with Other Tai to Van, she keeps Tai around; brushing it off each time Tai says that she shouldn’t have come. Van still believes in the significance of Other Tai.
Even though she has long given up on Tai herself, she is still holding on to Other Tai as the anchor to what once was or could be. As messed up and violent as Other Tai can be, Other Tai wanted, accepted, and let Van in without condition.
The ritual continued at Lottie’s compound because I think Other Tai told Van it needed to (or more likely Van concluded that was Other Tai’s intention from the beginning) and Van said what she had to, to Tai in order to make it happen or in the least to open up the possibility of it. Van knows that Other Tai and Lottie both commune with the same entity and probably didn’t think it was a coincidence they were in that situation. I don’t think it had anything to do with a desire for violence directly, but more a desire to be a part of something bigger than herself especially already being on the brink of death. And also a desire to let happen what happens; to be able to release control one last time of the internal chaos that has had the reigns over her life. Over all their lives. Van didn’t trust expressing this to Tai.
Anyways, moving forward…I don’t think Other Tai is done sabotaging the life Tai built in spite of her especially if Tai attempts to pick up some of the pieces. She will have to tread carefully and I think she will know that she can’t move through it without Van. But Van will not be an easy sell. Van will remind Tai that Tai specifically moved forward without her. There will be such an angsty dynamic with trust and grief here because it took Tai over 20 years to learn what Van knew all along and tried to tell her from the get go and she was stubborn at the expense of everyone she claimed to love. I’m not sure Van will fully trust Tai especially if/when Other Tai is dormant. She will think it is a ploy of Tai’s. And I think Tai will continue to be weary of Van’s propensity to trust Other Tai but not her. She will think it is a ploy of Van’s.
claiming my i was a Yellowjackets fan before it got to Netflix ticket while I can
Major character resurrection next season🗣️ Jackie’s coming back guys I know it, Ella Purnell told me herself‼️
"If you died, I'd just bring you back," Tai says, breezily. Like resurrection is the simplest thing in the world. Van laughs.
"Just like that?"
"Just like that."
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Van dies, and Taissa brings her back. That's not the hard part.
Chapters: 1/2 Fandom: Yellowjackets (TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Van Palmer/Taissa Turner Characters: Taissa Turner, Vanessa "Van" Palmer Additional Tags: Character Study, Canon Compliant, Implied/Referenced Character Death, Dissociation, Starvation, Frostbite, Briefly Referenced Abuse and Bullying, canon-typical suffering, taivan are so orpheus and eurydice coded it's insane (or maybe it's just me who's insane) Summary:
"If you died, I'd just bring you back," Tai says, breezily. Like resurrection is the simplest thing in the world. Van laughs.
"Just like that?"
"Just like that."
--
Van dies, and Taissa brings her back. That's not the hard part.
The fires are out by now. There's no more chaos or burning or death rattles. Nothing but metal and ash and corpses. You don't know how you're going to bury them all.
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Van Palmer is the sole survivor of the crash. It starts bad and gets worse.
Van has opinions about the most romantic part of a movie.
It’s kind of an accident, starting this conversation. Just something she’s been thinking about lately, a thought her mouth has decided to unleash without her full consent. Maybe because she needs to get it out, to be understood. Maybe just to see what’ll happen.
It’s just one of those things, she guesses. Happens all the time, but never more so than around Taissa Turner.
"If you died, I'd just bring you back," Tai says, breezily. Like resurrection is the simplest thing in the world. Van laughs.
"Just like that?"
"Just like that."
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Van dies, and Taissa brings her back. That's not the hard part.
Part two is done. Please enjoy some bittersweet love and metaphorical (?) resurrection.
Chapters: 1/4 Fandom: Yellowjackets (TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Van Palmer/Taissa Turner, Shauna Shipman & Taissa Turner, background lottielee and jackieshauna Characters: Taissa Turner, Shauna Shipman, Van Palmer, Lottie Matthews, Misty Quigley, Natalie Scatorccio, Laura Lee (Yellowjackets), Jackie Taylor (Yellowjackets) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Psychological Horror, tfw you're haunted by a monstrous alternate version of you, and that version might be the real one, mirages and visions and nightmares oh my!, Tai PoV, the soccer players actually play soccer, Canon Typical Horror, technically a no plane crash au but not. uh. a nice one. Summary:
The nightmares come first. Then the pain. Then the hunger.
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The team lands safe and sound, only to be haunted by a forest they've never seen, and monstrous girls wearing their faces.
new fic live!!
nothing gets me high-
Hazily, she sees herself the last time she broke down a door to escape somewhere, the last time she coughed up her guts into the snow. The last time she left Van behind her in the flames. Tai’s vision blurs as she tries to struggle to her feet, her throat burning as she calls her name- But just like that, she’s there, she’s there with her hands on Tai’s arms, pulling her to her feet, pulling them both away from the wreckage. They cling to each other with fingers and nails and stumble towards where the others have gathered, their bodies like one breathing mass haphazardly lit by the blaze. It’s like that that they all stand and watch, frozen and gaping, as what was something becomes nothing, what was wood becomes air, what was theirs becomes the wilderness’s again.
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Their shelter burns. It gets worse before it gets better. Tai moves into her own head and daydreams her and Van from Before, and meanwhile Van gets Worse.
a not admitting of the wound - chapter 2 ; tai x van and also everyone else makes appearances. a different ending w less men.
‘what’s the plan?’ tai says; you feel so, so tender towards her for an instant that you want to drive into the guardrail.
Chapters: 2/5 Fandom: Yellowjackets (TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Van Palmer/Taissa Turner, Shauna Shipman & Taissa Turner, background lottielee and jackieshauna Characters: Taissa Turner, Shauna Shipman, Van Palmer, Lottie Matthews, Misty Quigley, Natalie Scatorccio, Laura Lee (Yellowjackets), Jackie Taylor (Yellowjackets) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Psychological Horror, tfw you're haunted by a monstrous alternate version of you, and that version might be the real one, mirages and visions and nightmares oh my!, Tai PoV, the soccer players actually play soccer, Canon Typical Horror, technically a no plane crash au but not. uh. a nice one. Summary:
The nightmares come first. Then the pain. Then the hunger.
--
The team lands safe and sound, only to be haunted by a forest they've never seen, and monstrous girls wearing their faces.
Chapter two is up.
A Tumblr prompt fill (anon): bittersweet Taivan with the sentence "are you real?"
The rope yanks her back to the world. She’s been dreaming deep, dreaming the way she hasn’t since she was a kid—tiny, the blankets pulled over her head, her hair a static-sweat cling against her forehead. Dreaming of summer camp, she thinks, which is funny, because she never went to camp. Mom couldn’t afford it. Soccer camp’s the closest she ever got, and only because she’d sold all that chocolate, all that wrapping paper, all that—
The rope tugs and Van hisses awake.
Chapters: 3/5 Fandom: Yellowjackets (TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Van Palmer/Taissa Turner, Shauna Shipman & Taissa Turner, background lottielee and jackieshauna Characters: Taissa Turner, Shauna Shipman, Van Palmer, Lottie Matthews, Misty Quigley, Natalie Scatorccio, Laura Lee (Yellowjackets), Jackie Taylor (Yellowjackets) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Psychological Horror, tfw you're haunted by a monstrous alternate version of you, and that version might be the real one, mirages and visions and nightmares oh my!, Tai PoV, the soccer players actually play soccer, Canon Typical Horror, Hallucinations, Body Horror, technically a no plane crash au but not. uh. a nice one. Summary:
The nightmares come first. Then the pain. Then the hunger.
--
The team lands safe and sound, only to be haunted by a forest they've never seen, and monstrous girls wearing their faces.
Chapter three is up.