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୨୧ — downpour (sjy)
pairing. ex bf! sim jaeyun x fem! reader genre. angst + hurt n comfort (?) wc. 1440 notes. mentions of danielle (nwjns) library.
🗯️ extra peng note. this was originally for hee and then i accidentally started writing jake LOL (´∀｀*) this is not proofread like at all...
synopsis. after another failed date, the rain leads you to your ex-boyfriend’s house
droplets of water trickled from your head, neck, and shirt. the flimsy fabric on your shirt now uncomfortably clung to your skin.
the downpour had only started minutes before but you were drenched. nowhere near your house or any bus stops.
you felt miserable.
the sky felt the same. those gray clouds covering all the remnants of the moonlight. the angry tears of the floating clumps of vapor all coming down at once.
just as the tears from your eyes streamed down your face as you walked away from your date.
you had been on yet another date set up by your dearest best friend. her long list of single male acquaintances was never-ending. danielle hated seeing you only leave your room for academic purposes, so she gathered a list of boys that could help take your mind off of your ex-boyfriend of 2 years.
jake and you had broken up almost two months ago now.
it was a ‘mutual break up’. neither of you wanted to break up but feared the other would suggest it first. resulting in you both calling for a break during your last argument.
after going on countless dates with boys hand-picked by danielle, you couldn’t shake off the thoughts in your head.
not one date had you not spent the whole time spacing out and nit-picking every single thing about him to see if he was anything like jake.
knowing it wouldn’t help you in the long run but you needed him to have something that reminded you of your ex to keep the dating going.
but here you were, walking up to jake’s doorstep.
his house was the closest in the area to your date. after playfully bantering with tonight’s guy about him refusing to let you go home alone you snapped at him.
saying some pretty rude things, but it’s not like a second date was in the air anyway.
lying that your friend was around the corner, you started the thirty-minute walk home. it was a long walk but an easy one, no uphill or downhill, no boys.
that was until not even five minutes in the clouds erupted in anger and rain began pouring down.
with no umbrella and no signs of finding a dry way home, your eyes scanned the area and your legs started walking towards jake’s house.
“baby- ____?” he corrected himself, staring at your drenched and sobbing figure in disbelief it was really you.
“hi,” you cleared your throat, unsure of what to say.
jake’s shoulders fell as he reached for your wrist and brought you inside. closing the door and taking one final look at you.
“i’ll get you something dry to wear,” he spoke before disappearing into the hallway.
minutes later he came back with a towel and a shirt of his, handing them over to you who hadn’t moved since he left.
“let’s get you upstairs,” you let him drag you along upstairs into his bedroom.
finding yourself in the bathroom the break up had taken place in. staring at your disheveled reflection in the mirror you couldn’t help but feel pathetic.
why didn’t you just continue walking home in the rain? it’s not normal to show up to your ex's house silently begging for help.
“are you almost done?” his soft voice asked from the other side of the doorway.
“almost!” you squeaked, patting your face dry as you had to wash off all the makeup the rain and tears had ruined.
opening the door to see him sitting at the edge of his bed immersed in whatever was on his phone. he offered a rather forced-looking smile when he lifted his head due to the bathroom door opening.
jake patted the spot next to him.
“do you want to tell me what happened?” his voice overwhelmingly gentle.
“i don’t want to make my problems your problems too,” you shakily responded, staring at his floor.
“if i didn’t want to know i wouldn’t have let you in.”
inhaling deeply, you lifted your chin up slightly. moving to face him more by just a smidge.
“i was walking back from another date dani sent me on and it started raining,” you flushed with embarrassment.
it felt wrong telling jake you went on a date.
“he didn’t even bother to drive you home?” jake scoffed, staring at the side of your face.
“no i told him i could get home by myself,” whispering to him.
“____, you live a 30 minute walk from this side of town.”
“i know,” the frown on your face becoming more visible. “i just needed to clear my head.”
“you should have called someone, me even-"
“we don’t talk anymore jake.” you bit back.
the boy frustratedly ran a hand through his newly dyed hair.
“you know i still would have come to get you.”
you sniffled slightly at his words. remembering how when you were dating he would drop everything if you said you needed him. the memories of the happier times you spent together came rushing back. tears spilled from your closed eyes.
“i shouldn’t be here,” you stood up from the bed, wiping your face with the back of your hand. onky to be pulled back down.
“i don’t want you to leave,” his grip on your forearm was tight but not enough to be uncomfortable.
“that’s exactly why i want to go!” you tried to release yourself from his grasp, he didn’t fight you and dropped his arm back to his side. “you make everything so hard.”
“what are you saying?” jake looked at you, a small piece of hope emerging from his chest.
“every guy i go out with i compare to you,” you sobbed. “then when there’s nothing similar to you i make an excuse to leave.”
jake felt his heart melt. hearing the words he constantly dreamed about you saying for months in real-time. he cautiously brought his hand to rest over yours and rubbed the back with his thumb, trying to calm you down.
after minutes the sobbing turned into soft sniffles as you grounded yourself.
“i’m sorry for coming to your house and messing up your night,” you tell jake, keeping distance between you both when you take a pillow into your lap and hug it tightly.
“you’re not even doing anything?” jake let out a soft chuckle.
“i tend to ruin a lot of things for you, jake,” you frown. “i mean you could have been in australia if i didn’t beg you to stay and now we’re broken up.”
“don’t say that-”
“let’s just go to sleep,” you lay down and pulled the covers over yourself.
placing the pillow you had been holding in the center of the bed to make a barrier as if you hadn’t been longing to sleep next to him. you haven’t been able to get a full night's sleep since the two of you split.
you heard jake let out a loud sigh before he reached over and turned the lamp off.
“goodnight,” he whispers, only to be met with silence and shuffling from your side of the bed.
later in the night when you finally hear jake’s soft snores you decide to make a run for it. you were going to use the little amount of money in your bank account to call an uber and get out of there.
you quietly got up from the bed and tiptoed down the hallway to the laundry room to get your clothes that were now dried. you took the garments back to jake’s room and went into his bathroom to change. removing his shirt that he had given you earlier and setting it on the counter while you got into your own.
while you were looking at the shirt on the counter you realized it was one of the many shirts you had gifted him throughout your relationship. it happened to be your favorite shirt to borrow.
everything caught up to you once and again, finding yourself crying on jake’s bathroom floor.
unfortunately for you he had heard you and bursted through the door with no warning. he dropped down beside you as you tried to quickly wipe all your tears and pull yourself together.
“____,” he said softly, reaching to grab your hand.
you stayed staring at him with your teary eyes as you watched him intertwine your hands.
“i’m sorry,” you sob, clutching his hand tightly.
jake pulls your hand that he’s holding to bring you closer to him. letting your hand fall as he wraps his arms around you in a hug.
“you’re okay,” he whispers into your hair. “we’re okay.”
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