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Sanji cooks. He cooks and he buys more food to cook more. That’s his job on the Straw Hats. His meals dictate life and death on the open sea- he dictates life and death on the open sea.

Everyone on board respects this, and trusts their lives in Sanji’s delicate hands. After all, he’d rather lose his legs than let anyone starve on his account.

However, there’s one man he needs to go above and beyond to keep alive.

Lately, Sanji has been having recurring nightmares of Zoro sacrificing himself. Sometimes it’s a replay of his memories of Zoro refusing to explain why he was standing in a pool of his own blood, and other times it was new scenarios of him jumping in front of a stray arrow or giving himself up to the enemy. The worst part is even when he’s awake he knows Zoro absolutely would die in order to ensure the safety of anyone on the crew.

And so, Sanji tries to entice Zoro into wanting to stay alive longer.

“I bet I can come out of this fight with less cuts than you, mosshead. Unlike you, I know how to defend myself,” he challenges Zoro while fighting a fleet of marines. Everyone rolls their eyes at the ignition of another challenge between the two. However, Zoro was much more meticulous in protecting himself to prove he could come out unscathed.

“If you don’t make it back to the ship before me, that just proves that you’re just a directionless idiot,” he mocks, as everyone is fleeing a wild beast they encountered. Zoro scowls as he sheathes his swords and starts running ahead of Sanji. Of course, he got lost and was the last to the ship, but he returned without fighting the beast alone.

Sanji was running out of “challenges” that hid his true intentions. He couldn’t let Zoro out of sight, but he refused to let Zoro know that he worried about him more than anyone else, because at the end of the day, he’s the most probable to stay behind in a fight out of sight to save everyone but himself.

One night while chopping up vegetables and prepping some meals, his mind began wandering into dangerous territory. What if Zoro was in fact looking for a place to die? Maybe he promised to be Luffy’s wings until they both achieved their dreams, but what about afterwards? What if he was just testing the waters to see what kind of death suited him the best? Sanji felt sick.

The door swung opened and Sanji almost jumped out of his skin.

He turned and almost breathless, he said, “Zoro.”

Zoro stood at the doorway, a mocking comment at the tip of his tongue, but he realized that the look on Sanji’s face wasn’t one to make fun of. The cook was genuinely distressed about something. He just didn’t know it was about him.

Sanji took a breath and looked back at his knife. “Came for more alcohol?”

Zoro took a seat at the table and said, “No, I’m hungry. Make me something.”

Sanji clicked his tongue, “Not even a please, huh?” But regardless, he made some onigiri.

Sanji made some tea to go with it, and poured a cup for himself as well to find a reason to sit down with Zoro. The creaking of the planks as the boat rocked back and forth kept the room from being too silent.

Sanji figured this was the time, since nobody was around.

“When I die…” “What?” “Just listen!”

Zoro scowled but remained silent.

Sanji looked down at his hands on the table and continued, “When I die, I’d prefer to die either by old age or in battle.”

He looked up at Zoro, bashful now, “And I need someone around who can kill me in battle, if I can’t grow old.”

Zoro sighed and took a bite of his onigiri. While chewing, he chuckled, “Is this what your sulky attitude has been about? Yeah, I’ll kill you if you’re still alive by the time you turn fifty.”

“Fif- that’s not even that old!” Sanji screamed, shocked by Zoro’s nonchalant attitude.

Zoro shook his head, “Fine. Sixty.”

Sanji shook his head in disbelief, “Are you joking around right now? You know what? Never mind, I never should have brought this up.”

He stood up abruptly, and Zoro grabbed his wrist. He was leaning over the table uncomfortably, so Sanji took his seat again, and so did Zoro. He let go of Sanji’s wrist, the one not looking him in the eye this time.

“I’m sorry. I promise I won’t die before we grow old. I know what your little competitions have been about, and I know I shouldn’t be worrying you when we all have our-“

Sanji snapped, “I want to worry Zoro! I just don’t want you dead! How can I worry about a dead person? I want to be able to wake up every morning forever and think of new recipes that you might like and go to bed every night knowing your stomach is full!”

Sanji buried his head into his hands, embarrassed. He realized how he sounded, and that was probably why Zoro was staying silent.

“Cook- no, Sanji. Look at me.”

Sanji slowly moved his hands away, and met eyes with Zoro who had never looked so red before.

Zoro spoke much more seriously, “I already promised you. That I won’t die before you. That I’ll live.”

Sanji lowered his eyes and nodded, not wanting Zoro to see the tears. That’s what he wanted to hear all this time.

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yearning | jjk one shot

the one that finds you in Jungkook's doorstep after a night out...

Description: idol!jungkook x reader, fwb 

Content: porn with loads of plot!

Word Count: 7.5k

Warnings: oc smokes 1 cigarette lol, they’re so flirty ouch, so much kissing, cutest little dynamic, dry humping (a personal fave in this house), fingering, protected sex (they’re so smart!!), loads of spanking, jaykay ass man forever. 

Author’s Note: i once sworn to never write idol aus because… i know nothing about this man ok? i do not claim to know what he’s like in a relationship or a situationship or in his personal life!! so please thread carefully when reading <3333 that being said, his lives last year and these first couple of episodes of “are you sure?” have me feeling very delulu so here u go!! hope you enjoy xo

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This is a work of fiction. Please respect the members and their privacy. x

The moment you exit the club, a gust of summer breeze engulfs you. It makes you wrap your arms around your body, but it amounts to nothing, the little black dress that you’d made the executive decision to wear, in the name of fashion, betraying you. The tequila shots you'd downed before leaving the house sure had deceived your senses, too.

Needless to say, you regret said decision, a shiver running down your spine all the way to your legs, making you jump a little in place as you tipsily look around you. You’d cut the night short. Your friends had found another lonely pair they’d quickly gotten cozy with, leaving you to drink one too many gin & tonics all by yourself. You hadn’t minded it for the first two hours, enjoying the music, sparking conversation with the bartender from time to time and entertaining the occasional stranger. Eventually though, it became boring, predictable, and you’d be lying if you said it didn’t make you feel a little shitty about yourself. 

It was all getting repetitive. Friday nights, the same faces, small talk, ice breakers. Even the strangers you met had a similar M.O., making it all seem predictable. It made it feel like a waste of self, more than a waste of time, and it ate at you in moments like these, where it was strange to feel lonely amongst a sea of people, unable to shake the feeling.

The bright city lights illuminate the night, lacing it with something livelier than your mood and you smile. At least the scenery is always pretty. Pretty places. You hear the laughter of a group of people that stand a couple of feet away from you, they seem happy in that genuine way that reflects in pure, unadulterated beauty. Pretty people. 

You think of him. 

It’s rather instant. Or perhaps instinctive. The very own butterfly effect of your thoughts because to you, he’s the prettiest of them all. He’d been since the very first day, and as you lose focus of the pretty sights the more you stare into the city lights with him on your mind, you can’t help but think nothing will ever stand close. 

A girl stands next to you, audibly shivering as she exits the club and the air greets her with the same fate it did you. She holds a cigarette between her red lips, the fire from her pink lighter shining on her red hair. It makes you crave one, too, rummaging through your bag for your own. You smile when you remember how he would tease you for smoking “the skinny kind” as he would call them. Calling you a bit of a snob, but all in lighthearted nature. After all, he could. He knew you enough to let your closeness turn into inside jokes, banter. 

Perhaps giving into a vice could prevent you from falling into another. 

“Can I borrow your lighter?” she smiles at you before she’s handing it over. Her nails are pink, too. 

The fire feels pleasant for all of five seconds, warm against your face as you take the first drag. You give into one instinct so as to distract yourself from the one that’s tugging at your heart and senses, begging you to make a reckless call. 

You check the time. 

2:32 A.M.

~

Jungkook scrolls through the endless list of channels aimlessly. Small snippets from whatever’s playing that he cuts short, not really giving it much thought. He settles on one, solely so he can stop putting exertion on his thumb and go back to leaning against his couch – fully relaxed. He sighs. On the screen, some drama he hasn’t gotten around to watching plays, and the story seems to be developing quickly. He doesn’t care for it, if he’s honest, simply content with the white noise it fills the room with. 

Bam leaves his dog house, standing right in front of him and they seem to start an unspoken staring contest. He smiles, patting the spot right next to him on the couch and the pup rushes to take the place excitedly. He gets cuddles and kisses simply for existing. For keeping him company – his presence giving Jungkook more peace than he’ll ever know. 

“Hey, Bam, should we, like, meet up in our next life as well? Perhaps I’ll be the dog in that one and you’ll be my owner.”

Bam simply stares and Jungkook swears if he could, he’d let out a deep sigh right now. This makes him laugh. 

“Hey, don’t be jumping of excitement at the idea, man.”

At this, he attacks. With kisses, that is – wet, sloppy kisses that have Jungkook giggling and pushing back, though it is no use, his dog is that determined to give him love.

“Alright, you win. Let’s go get a beer. For me, not for you. You’re still too young. One day, son.” His voice takes on a lower tone, imitating his father. Or maybe Yoongi’s, he can’t tell anymore. 

He retrieves a cold beer mug from his freezer and cracks the can open, nodding his head at the sound it makes, the fizziness bubbling up before he pours it in the cold glass. He takes a sip as he walks back to the couch, blissed out in leisure.

He doesn’t mind being alone, specially not on nights like this when sleep leaves him and everything but seems more tempting. He likes the way everything slows down at this time of day, the ease of it all. No one to see, no texts to reply to. As for what the world is concerned for, he’s asleep. It’s peaceful, just being. 

Plopping down on the couch, he rests against the pillows, making himself comfortable. He must’ve spoken too soon, he thinks, because it’s not thirty seconds after this that his phone buzzes on the coffee table in front of him. He ponders on the possibility of simply ignoring it, let it sit there, facing down. But something tells him he should check the message. It could be important, or not. The pull isn’t necessarily violent, just a quiet voice that tells him so, like a little nudge. He leans forward, setting his beer on the table before he’s taking a hold of his phone. 

He gets it now – the pull. 

From ___: jungkookie, u awake?

To ___: no

From ___: can I call?

He smiles – so fucking big he almost hates that he does, slightly flustered and embarrassed you have this quick of an effect on him. And before he can talk himself out of it, he calls you. 

~

Seeing his name flash on your phone screen does more to you than anything you’ve deemed exhilarating tonight. The simple prospect of hearing his voice rushes more excitement through your body than any of the mindless conversations you had this evening. Than any of the conversations you’ve had all week perhaps. You smile and there’s no doubt that he can hear it in your voice when you say,

“Hey.”

“Hey.”

There’s a moment of silence and you can hear the smile on his face, too. It’s warmth – he’s warmth, even far. How far is he, you wonder. Did you happen to demand of him at a bad time? Will the end of this call find you disappointed?

You cut to the chase. 

“What are you up to?”

There’s a pause and you can hear the way he sinks into his couch. “Can’t sleep so I’m having a beer and watching some TV with Bamie.”

He’s home and a giddy giggle escapes you. “Ahh,” you say.

“You? It sounds busy in there.”

“Yeah, I’m outside the club.”

“Fun night?”

“No.” You don’t lie, you never lie to him. Don’t have the need to, or the want to. Everything about Jungkook is comfort – the kind that welcomes. 

“Yeah, had a feeling. It’s not really your scene, is it?”

Your head leans to the side, eyes closing for a moment. He knows you in ways most people don’t, and it’s a simple remark but it gets to you. The fact that he doesn’t see you for the parts of you that feel the emptiest settles on your heart. It’s good, you think, to be seen by someone who observes.

“I want to see you.” There’s all the point in the world to be honest right now. 

“Come over. I’ll make you ramen.”

“Will you show me your cat?”

There’s a pause. You picture him smiling, biting his lip, running a hand through his hair. 

“Yeah, that too.”

~

You sway from side to side, a little drunkenly and a whole lot excited, as you stand in front of his door. It’s brief, but as you wait you make a little reflection on your emotions. What exactly do you feel right now? It’s been so long – probably not that long – but long enough to make you happier than usual to be seeing his face. Anyone else would make you nervous, and perhaps he does, too, if only a little. But it’s a different kind of nervous. It’s laced with sweetness, as opposed to anxiety. And the minute he opens his front door, it’s replaced by something sweeter. 

Yearning. 

He stands there, glasses and black sweatpants on, signature oversized shirt – something so very home about him. Your eyes widen as you take in his hair, it’s grown significantly, giving you a rough idea of when it was you last saw him. Two, three months ago. He looks good; rested, fresh, beautiful. You can smell him before you even touch him and it makes you smile. He returns it. 

Yeah – yearning. 

“I like your hair,” you say, because anything else would give you away. 

“Yeah?” he runs a hand through it. “I like you.”

“I like you, too.” Let it give you away, you think. Who cares?

“Alright, well- it was nice seeing you.” He says, closing the door in a too casual, yet dramatic manner and you laugh, simply standing there – a little flustered because, oh does it feel good when Jeon Jungkook flirts with you in that boyish, teasing way only he knows how. 

He doesn’t close the door all the way. Instead, he leaves it open far enough for you to see the way he peeks his head out, nose scrunch and toothy smile to signal just how proud he is of himself right now. 

“Come here,” he tells you, reaching his hand out from the little gap and pulling you closer as you yelp, squeezing through the nearly closed door. “I missed you.”

You’re in his arms again, and the moment he closes the door behind you, his lips are on yours. It’s a soft kiss, one that says I missed you because you know him well enough by now to understand the things he says with his lips, and his eyes. With his hands, too.

“Mm,-“ you don’t want to pull back to get your words out, so you don’t. “Me more.”

Jungkook was always a happy coincidence – or at least that’s what you told yourself in a futile attempt to tame the feelings down. But the truth was that being back in his arms felt like fate, in that gentle way that doesn’t come in a movie-like encounter or in some sort of catastrophe bringing you together. Just being here. Anywhere, with him, felt fateful. You opt to believe in angels right this second just to thank them. 

“How are you,” his hand cups your cheek, pecking your lips before you can answer. 

“Good- better now.” His kisses muffle your words and you think you could live with this interruption for the rest of your life. 

“Yeah, me too.”

You wrap your arms around his neck, bringing him closer as he circles his around your middle. You take him in, not one for big displays of affection yet this one you could never deny, could never not welcome. 

It’s a sweet moment but the pull turns hasty soon enough the more your lips become familiar with one another yet again. You run your fingers through his long hair, rejoicing in its softness and length. His hand travels down, slowly but a bit desperately, squeezing when they meet your ass. 

What has a promising ending is cut short by none other than your rumbling stomach. It’s rather loudly and you both hear it, laughing in the middle of the kiss you two seem to refuse parting from. 

“You hungry, baby?”

“You promised ramen. And something about a cat.” Your lips part and you look at him, a pretty smile on his equally pretty face. 

“Mm, yeah. I did. I’m all stocked up on ramen but the cat…,”

“I prefer Bamie anyways.” 

You leave his arms, a smile on your face as you walk towards his beloved child’s crate. The moment he sees you, he hesitates for a moment, not yet having Jungkook’s command to leave his space but he’s excited – you can even make up his little tail wagging from side to side. 

“Come here, baby.”

He runs to you and nearly tackles you, settling into the floor to give him the proper cuddles he deserves. He steps on you the way he did when he was a puppy, sitting down on your knees as you scratch under his ears. 

“No one’s allowed to tell him he’s grown up. He’s little forever.”

Jungkook laughs. “He’s Jiminie’s height.” 

You sneer at him, shaking your head at his joke. He stands there, staring at you with a fondness he reserves for certain things that bring him that kind of comfort that’s gotten rarer over the years. He’s grown up, matured and gotten real about a lot of things but not you.

Never you. 

You’re still the innocence he kissed you with that very first time and the little bit of fear it wouldn’t go further than that. You’re the excitement he had when it did. You’re the flirty teasing and the falling in trust, opening himself little by little. You’re still something he once dreamt about – he still does. You’re the thing he has and doesn’t at the same time. You’re you. 

Your loud giggles as Bam licks your cheek wake him up from his little daydream and he winces at the sloppy kisses he’s leaving. You don’t seem to mind though and he knows that if it were up to you, you’d stay there til dawn. No ramen, no cat. 

“Alright, alright. Daddy’s getting jealous now. You can’t have her all to yourself.”

Your cheeky smile tells him you’re up to no good. “Daddy, huh? Have we ever tried that?”

“What haven’t we tried?” He genuinely ponders on his own question. 

“Pegging!” You say, a little too quickly and excitedly for his liking. 

“Absolutely not.”

“Mean.”

“Come on, let’s feed you.”

You smile. “Okay, daddy.”

~

It’s a chaos in the kitchen in between distracting kisses and your tipsy antics, munching on Jungkook’s leftover fried chicken as you scavenger hunt his cupboards for anything that could satisfy your alcohol induced need for sweets and carbs. You’d begged for pancakes, but he didn’t have any honey, and what’s pancakes without honey, really? 

“Ramen. Enoki and spring onions.” He says, convincing himself more than he convinces you.

“Okayyyyy. Ramen, enoki- what else did you say?”

His thumb and pointer finger rest at his temples in mock exasperation, making you giggle. “Hey, why don’t you go shower? This’ll be ready when you’re done.”

“Will you be able to work a knife with the thought of me all wet and naked in your shower?” 

“I’ll get you wet and naked later. Go sober up. Quick, quick!”

You laugh, kissing his cheek loudly and ruffling his hair before you leave the kitchen, making your way to his bedroom with familiarity - like you’ve done it hundreds of times and perhaps you have if you were to count. 

You know where he keeps the towels, that it’s the left tap that opens the hot water, the way his soap smells and what brand of shampoo he uses. His face wash and moisturizer are familiar to you because it’s the same brand you use. You’d left them here once and never got the bottles back. He began purchasing them after they ran out. 

You put on the same black Carhartt shirt you always do. It feels and smells the same. It makes you yearn and when you miss him, you smile in the comfort of knowing he’s in the kitchen, probably eating ramen from the pot as you take your sweet time in the bathroom. 

All clean and cozy, his house always being the perfect temperature with the add on warmth that swarms your insides at knowing you’re with him, you make your way back to the kitchen. He’s reaching for bowls, back to you and your voice startles him when you say,

“Don’t get dishes dirty, let’s eat from the pot.”

He turns to you, a boyish smile forming on his lips at the sight of you in his comfy, oversized shirt. He’s seen you in it more times than he can count but it still makes his insides tingle. Butterflies, dare he say, is what the sight gives him. 

“You sure?”

“Aren’t you? Afraid of exchanging saliva?” You poke your tongue at him and he grabs your wrist, pulling you swiftly towards him. 

“Not the funnest way we’ve exchanged juices, but it’ll do for now.”

“Juices.” Your nose scrunches at his words.

“Mm.”

He kisses you, ramen getting cold in the pot as your lips make him forget all about his hunger in the first place. Your stomach doesn’t, though. Interrupting your heated little moment yet again. 

“Feed me.”

“On your knees, then.” He teases, lips still on yours. 

“That sounds more like a treat than a threat.”

He smiles, passing you the chopsticks. “I knew you’d say that.”

“Am I that predictable?”

“With me. Yes. Just me.”

His words are selfish, of this much he’s aware. He knows exclusivity is too much to ask for. He knows the baggage he comes with and the hesitation that shines through your eyes whenever you find yourselves slipping into comfort and familiarity a little too much. How he can almost tell he’s about to go a season without you, just by this comfort alone. But he can’t help but want you, all to himself. He can’t help but say you’re his even if he’s just saying it. And when the smile on your lips meet your eyes in an almost nostalgic way, he knows you feel the same. 

“Yeah. I am.”

“I am with you, too.”

“I’d say I tried to talk myself out of texting you tonight, but I’d be lying.” Your chopsticks play with the noodles, eyes not meeting his. 

“Why would you talk yourself out of texting me?”

You shrug. 

“Don’t.” His voice is firm and your eyes finally look at his. “I’m always- I always want to see you, ___.”

“I know, it’s just- you know.” You say, and he does. He knows what you mean and he’s glad you don’t voice it because he doesn’t think he can bear the words that would only add insult to injury to the way your gaze falls, that spark threatening to dim its light.

“Yeah,” he gets closer, but it’s almost careful. His thumb caresses your cheek and you lean into his touch. “But you’re here now. I want you here now. Come back to me.”

You stare into his big eyes, smiling at him not because your heart isn’t breaking but because you wouldn’t dare break his with the reality of the situation. So you lie, but it holds truth. “I’m always with you.” 

As you two eat, in bursts of comfortable silences and mindless yet meaningful conversations, you start to get used to him again. You’re too tired to fight it, and when you welcome it, it’s sweet. 

~

The pot is empty, your bellies full. You lean against the counter as he puts you to date, catches you up on what his life has looked like for the past two months or so. Trips to L.A., New York, photoshoots, late nights in the recording studio, music videos, long flights and a Calvin Klein campaign you shamelessly admit to swoon over every time you pass by it. He asks about you and you keep your updates mostly work related. Long flights, long meetings, long days. Short bursts of inspiration and even shorter waves of motivation. You omit to tell him about the things you’re maybe not so proud of. The partying, the drinking on a wednesday night, the way your friends don’t feel like your friends anymore, more like acquaintances that keep you around when they deem convenient. You think his words could help, provide comfort and advice, but at the same time you fear the reality of the situation could burst the bubble of bliss you find yourself in right this moment. 

So you talk. You catch up. You play friends for a while, feel real mature when he shares snippets of his life that involve other people, other girls. People in his radar, his line of work, the love interest in his music video. Jungkook does, too. Feels like perhaps he’s come a long way when you tell him about trips you’ve taken with friends, new restaurants you’ve tried, galas he knows you haven’t attended alone. It’s all fine, it’s good. Total control of your feelings as you take each other in. 

Bam interrupts him mid-sentence, a sleepy whine in half protest he lets out as he walks inside the kitchen. 

“Aw, Jungkook,” you coo, “he’s sleepy.”

“Time for bed, Bamie?” He smiles, reaching down to scratch under his ears. “I’ll be right back.” 

“I’ll be here.” 

You smile, well aware that he keeps his dog bed in a cozy room in his house, quite literally puts him to bed every night. It makes you think about how good of a dad he’ll make one day, how much love is stored inside of him, how he likes to be needed and shows affection through acts of service. Your smile drops a bit, a feeling taking over you that you don’t like but have grown used to over the years. 

You snap out of it, busying yourself as you begin to tidy up the kitchen, sliding his pink rubber gloves over your hands before you start washing the single pot, knife and chopsticks he’d used to make you dinner. It doesn’t take him long to be back, though, walking back inside the kitchen and smiling at the sight before him. You hum a song he can’t make up, hips shimmying to the beat as you scrub the pot. Your shirt rides up a little and he cocks his head to the side, smiling at the way your underwear peeks from underneath the fabric. A black and lacy thong that has him nodding his head in boyish satisfaction. 

“You don’t have to do that,” he tells you, making you jump in place a bit at the sound of his voice.

You turn around, bringing a gloved finger to your lips as you shush him before you’re pointing it at the couch and shooing him away. “I’ll only be a second. Wait for me there.”

“‘Kay, boss.” He army salutes you, turning around and walking back to the couch, sitting down and sinking further into the cushions, legs spreading as he scrolls through his phone, a bit impatiently, missing you even though you’re so close. 

And to Jungkook’s great fortune, he doesn’t have to wait for much longer. Wrapping it up in the kitchen, you give it one last glance to make sure it’s back to its pristine state before you’re making your way towards him. He looks up at you, throwing his phone to the side and following you with his eyes, smiling when you’re in front of him.

“Thank you for dinner,” you say, voice sweet and low, eyes a bit hazy.

“Come here.” He takes your hand in his, pulling you closer to him, bottom lip getting caught between his teeth as you throw your legs at either side of him, straddling him. 

“I needed this,” you admit.

“Me too,” he breathes. “I’m glad you called.”

You pout, eyes looking up for a second as you ponder. “You called me.”

He chuckles, not a single ounce of desire to deny you. “I’m glad I called.”

You giggle, arms wrapping around his neck and fingers getting lost in his long hair. His head draws back as your nails massage his scalp gently and he relaxes at your touch, goosebumps adorning his skin. His hands travel under your shirt, promptly finding your hips, waist, and then threatening to go higher but Jungkook wants to take his time tonight. He wants to stay in the sweet state of wanting you for a bit longer. When his eyes are back on yours, you kiss him. He sighs against your lips, bringing you closer to him by the waist, letting his tongue taste your bottom lip before he’s tasting your mouth. It’s slow, a bit sloppy and lazy, holds the quality of anything that happens in the middle of the night, when no one’s watching and time stills for the two of you. 

“Your skin is so soft,” he says, lips still on yours. 

“It’s your body lotion.” You roll your hips over his, smiling when you pull a low groan straight out of him. 

“Yeah,” he says, hands traveling down before he’s squeezing your ass, guiding your hips into his. “You smell like me. I like it.”

“I like it, too.” Your words get caught up in a moan as the outline of his cock parts your slit perfectly. 

You pull away a bit hesitantly, hands coming to rest at his shoulders as your hips pick up the pace. You go slow but sink deeper into him with every roll of your lips, eyes never parting from his as you take in the way his face starts to contort in pleasure, mouth parting slightly as his breathing grows heavier, little grunts leaving his lips with every push and pull. His hands travel back down to your hips, squeezing a little at the soft flesh, guiding them as you move over his cock. He’s so hard, can feel you through the layers, can bet on the fact that you’re wet and pulsing for him right now. 

“That feels good,” he sighs, gaze dropping as he rides your shirt up a bit at the front. His eyes fixate on the way the thin, lacy fabric of your panties bunches up every time you throw your hips back. 

“Brings back memories,” you say, voice a bit shaky when a particular roll of your hips has the tip of his cock hitting right against your clit. 

Jungkook smiles, mind hazy but perfectly able to picture the memories you refer to. “Mhm,” he sighs, so entrapped by the feeling he swears he can feel you pulse against him. He likes the way you consume his senses. The way everything around him stills and all he can think about is you. His hands squeeze at the flesh on your hips before he says, “turn around, baby.”

“‘Kay.”

Jungkook feels the loss of your warmth as you stand up before him once again, smiling at him before you’re turning around and sitting on his lap. You press your back to his chest, letting your head fall to his shoulder, your lips meeting his cheek in an open mouth kiss. His hands travel up your body, palms closing around your tits, thumbs playing with your nipples over the thick fabric of your shirt. You circle your hips, chasing the same friction from before but it’s not enough in this position. You bring your body forward, hands resting on his thighs as you throw your ass back at him, your pussy perfectly aligned on top of his cock, making you both moan at the same time. Jungkook’s gaze drops to your ass, enthralled by the way he feels, by the way you look. He rides your shirt up your back, exposes you to him and it only eggs you on, moving against his cock at the perfect rhythm. 

He hooks a finger down the side of your panties, letting it travel down, smiling lazily at the way you trap his knuckles between your pussy and his cock, moaning as you grind on them. He can feel how wet you are, dripping for him already even though he hasn’t touched you yet. “Want my fingers, baby?”

“Yes, please,” you plead, voice shaky as you look back at him. 

He’d usually tease you, make you beg for it a little longer, but tonight Jungkook obliges. It’s been long – too long – and all he can think about is being inside you, feeling you around him, making you feel good. He takes his time simply so he can savor the moment. So he can memorize it well enough to store it somewhere inside of him, just in case it’s another three months until he sees you again. 

He pushes his middle and ring finger inside of you, hissing at your warmth, cock jumping inside his sweatpants in anticipation and a little big of neglect. You close your eyes, pleasure taking over you as he begins to thrust his fingers inside of you slowly, arching expertly every time they hit your g-spot. His free hand squeezes around your ass cheek, groaning when the hand that fucks into you pushes down on his cock, aiding at giving him some much needed friction. You feel lightheaded already, all-consumed in his hold as he takes over your every sense. Your body relaxes and you can feel the way your tummy tenses right away. 

“Fuck, I think I’m gonna cum,” your voice is faint but he hears you well enough. 

“Already? That was fast, baby.” You don’t miss the cocky tone his words hint at. 

“Shut up and don’t stop,” you say, looking back at him playfully. 

You see the way he smiles at you before his gaze is dropping back down, fingers moving expertly inside of you at the same pace, applying a bit more force as he pushes in, massaging that spot with the tip of his fingers. The added pressure has you mewling in no time, nails digging into his thighs, teeth biting at your bottom lip to ground you back into the moment as you let go. 

“Fuck,” he says as he feels you cum around his fingers, sweet moans filling the space around you and he so badly wishes he could look at your face right now. “Yeah, baby, that’s it.” He feels the way you contract around him, hips circling over his hand as you ride the waves of pleasure. 

You come down after a minute, mind still hazy as you fall back into him, lips finding his the moment he turns his head to the side. You kiss him, breathing into his mouth, smiling in your fucked out bliss. “That was so good.”

“Yeah?”

“Mhm,” you say, pressing your forehead to his. “I need you to fuck me now.”

“Want it?” he asks, and you nod your head. “You can have it.” 

“Yeah, want it so bad, Jungkook.” Your voice is needy, holds a dreaminess to it that Jungkook doesn’t miss – one that makes him melt into your words, your touch, your lips as you kiss him again. 

Jungkook presses his hips into you, raising them a bit as he pushes his sweatpants down. You help him take them off, hand reaching back before you’re wrapping it around his cock. He’s hard and pulsing for you and if you weren’t pulsing for him, too, you’d probably want him in your mouth right this second. He feels heavy, big and thick in your hold, a grunt leaving his lips when your thumb circles around the head. You love how sensitive he is, how receptive. 

“Condom,” he says, before he runs out of blood in his brain and it all falls down to his cock. 

“In my bag,” you say, reaching to the side and pulling it towards you. You rummage around it for a second too long – a second that has Jungkook’s mind betraying him. He shouldn’t. He knows he shouldn’t. But nonetheless he can’t help but wonder where you’d be right now if he’d been asleep and hadn’t seen your text. Perhaps in the same position but with a stranger. Or maybe a stranger only to Jungkook. Perhaps he hadn’t been the only person you texted tonight. “Here you go, baby.” 

Your voice dismantles his worries and he’s warm again, all thoughts vanishing and it’s back to you and him. He leans forward, kissing your lips as he takes the condom from your hand. It makes you blush slightly, biting your lip in anticipation as you watch as he rips the foil of the packaging with his teeth. You watch the way he smirks as he rolls the condom on. 

“Why are you smiling?”

“Just thinking,” he says, smile growing wider, cheek dimples making him look cute but something about his voice begs to differ. 

You hum. “Thinking about what?”

He smiles. “July 14th, 2021.”

You both crack up, laughter filling the air the moment the words leave his mouth because of course you know what July 14th, 2021 meant. You’d been in a position very similar to this one, perhaps a bit more hazy minded, the true meaning of the heat of the moment finding you the minute you’d realized neither of you had a condom. You’d looked into each other’s eyes and made the silent agreement to be a little reckless and put a whole lot of trust on birth control and Jungkook’s pull out game. 

He said he’d never forget that day. 

“Long live, July 14th, 2021,” you say. 

“Shhh,” he says, squinting his eyes and bringing a finger to his mouth. “Don’t remind me.”

“You reminded yourself,” you bite back. “Now, can you fuck me? Pretty please.”

“Yeah, baby, come here.”

You push your ass back at him, looking at him from over your shoulder, biting your lip in anticipation as he strokes his cock once, twice, before he’s lining himself against your entrance. His hand comes to your hip, pulling you down towards him as you push him inside of you. You both sigh, moaning as he bottoms out, so deep and warm it has Jungkook throwing his head back against the couch, sinking further into it and pushing impossibly deeper into you. 

“Fuck, Jungkook,” you whimper, nails digging into his flesh. 

“Fuck me, baby,” he says, running a hand through his long hair. You nod, circling your hips a couple of times as you adjust to his size before you start moving your hips into him, ass bouncing with every push and pull. He hisses at the sight alone, bringing his hand down as he delivers a hard slap against your cheek, making you moan. “Shit, just like that. You’re so hot, ___.”

“Jungkook,” you whisper.

“Yeah, baby?” His eyes are back on yours, threatening to close in pleasure at the way your pussy feels around him. 

“I missed you.”

“I missed you, baby. So much.”

You fall into his chest, kissing him as he wraps his hand around your throat, not applying any pressure, just simply holding you. You gasp into his mouth when his other hand travels down and finds your clit, drawing lazy circles against the sensitive bundle of nerves. You whine and he moans when you move your hips to the rhythm of his touch.

“I don’t wanna be on top anymore,” you say, pouting into his lips, frowning when you feel his chest shake in laughter. 

“Of course you don’t.”

“I’m an awful top.”

“You’re not a top.”

“Hey, I was a good top that one time,” you protest.

“Mm, yeah, that was hot. You got all bossy on me.”

“Oh, but that’s regardless,” you tell him, pushing your lips into his once more and straightening your back, smiling as you look back at him. He wipes said smile off your face in a second, hand meeting your ass in another hard slap. 

“Stay there,” he says, holding firmly onto your hips. 

“Okay, daddy.” That earns you another slap, though you can’t say it wasn’t exactly the goal in mind. 

“Behave.”

Your face grows pliant as you nod at him and Jungkook has to fight to keep up the front because if he’s being honest, the sight alone drives him crazy, threatens to break him down completely and leave him a needy, whiny mess. He holds you in place, legs raising you up a bit before he starts pistoling his hips against you, fucking you hard and fast and even though you saw it coming, it still takes you by surprise. The force of his thrusts, how good he feels as the pain translates into pleasure, the noises he makes – it’s all too much but fuck, you don’t want him to ever stop. Your mouth parts in a silent moan, eyes closing as your face contorts in pleasure before the sensation ripples through you and you’re crying out. Your hand holds onto his arm and the firm grasp you have on it let’s him know.

“Fuck, I’m cummin,” you breathe out.

“Fuck yeah, baby. Cum all over my cock.”

“Oh my God,” you say, voice shaky and faint as you throw your body back into his. 

“Fuck, I love your pussy.”

“I love your cock,” you say, fucked out giggles escaping your lips. 

It takes you both a minute to steady your breathing and regain your strength. Jungkook kisses your neck, snaking a hand inside your shirt and squeezing your boob as you arch your back at the feel. “Let’s get you to bed, princess.”

“Music to my ears,” you say, giddy and excited. 

Your knees buckle a bit when your feet touch the floor, the both of you laughing at your loss of balance, Jungkook a bit more cockily than you. He slaps your ass softly once, then twice as you begin to walk towards his bedroom. Once inside he takes his shirt off and when you turn around, your eyes scan over his body, metaphorically and possibly physically drooling over him. Your hands find the hem of your t-shirt before you’re pulling it off your body and tossing it aside until it’s landing on top of his. Your tits bounce as you do, and he nods his head at you, a satisfied pout adorning his lips. The pout turns sour the moment you turn around but is soon enough replaced with a smile when you start to crawl on top of his big mattress, finding the perfect spot over his pillows and laying down comfortably. 

“You’re so perfect.” Jungkook says, because anything else would downplay it and he’s not in the mood to run away from the truth. You giggle, soft and sweet and he feels the way his heart aches for you inside his chest. 

“Come to me,” you say, arms outstretched towards him. He makes his way to you, letting himself hover over you for a minute as he takes you in before he’s falling perfectly between your legs. You kiss him, letting your fingers get lost in his hair, breathing into the kiss and you swear this moment is laced in pure, unadulterated bliss. “Want to feel you inside me.”

“I’ll give it to you, baby. I’ll give you anything you want.”

There it is, yet again, and without a fail. It’s so common you nearly miss it – the way the moment turns tender. It’s mostly soft, this unspoken agreement you’ve fallen into with Jungkook. It’s friendship and attraction, good sex and years of exploring each other. It’s trust and communication. It’s understanding. It’s soft at the beginning and tender halfway through. It’s so tender it feels tangible, like the moment itself could fit inside the palm of your hand and feel ripe to the touch as you hold onto it. It’s tender when he looks into your eyes, it’s tender when his voice says your name, when you kiss his lips. It’s tender when the lust borders on something else. It’s tender when it lingers, when it threatens to fall. 

He fucks you, hips moving against yours slowly, pulling moans out of your lips that get caught between his own when he kisses you. 

“You feel so good,” you whisper into his mouth, words that only he could hear even if it weren’t just the two of you. 

“Fuck, baby, so do you,” he whines, supple and yours, even if for that moment. “I’m not gonna last much longer.”

You smile, hand running through his hair before your fingers are pushing a strand behind his hear. “Cum for me, Kookie. Wanna feel you cum for me.”

Your words throw him over the edge, falling blissfully into you. It feels so fucking good. Your fingers running through his hair, down his neck and then back up again. The way your pussy clenches around him, cock throbbing for you at the wake of his release. Your lips are soft and the rise and fall of your chest falls into perfect sync with his. His hand squeezes at your breast before it’s traveling down your body, squeezing at your thigh before you’re wrapping your legs around his waist, flushed to him. Every little thing you do heightens his senses until all he can breathe, think and feel is you. His face falls down the crook of your neck and you breathe out a moan into his ear, unraveling him completely.

“Fuck, I’m gonna cum, baby.” His hips slow down before they still completely, a moan passing his lips as he releases into the condom, your nails softly running down his spine. His body feels spent but he doesn’t miss the way it relaxes on top of you, blissful and peaceful, growing sleepy right away. 

“Feel good?” you ask, your fingertips running down his back in what feels like a feathery whisper. 

“So fucking good,” he mumbles against the skin of your shoulder before his eyes are finding yours again. He kisses you. He kisses you because in moments like this he wants to say something else, something that makes more sense to his heart than anything his brain could say.

You kiss him back, afraid your heart will betray you, too. 

~

You stare at him as you make your way back to his bed. He lays on his tummy, cheek pressed against the soft pillow, his pretty hair framing his face in a way that makes him look dreamlike. He doesn’t move an inch when you pull back the covers, if only for a second, to get back in bed with him. You lay on your side, eyes still fixed on him and your heart grows a new kind of tender at the sight of his sleeping form. He’s pouty and soft and so, so peaceful. Something sinks in your tummy, but it’s not in a way that signals bad news. Perhaps it’s the butterflies settling, perhaps the heat of the moment has began to cool down. 

Your hand comes to his face, fingers gently pushing his hair out of his eyes before you let them wander down his face. His cheeks are soft, his ears cold and when it tickles, he frowns. Your thumb travels up again, smoothing his brow bone and he relaxes. Your eyes follow your touch as you trace the bridge of his nose, slowly, softly, as if you were being quizzed on it later. Wanting to take everything in, afraid that even blinking could take away from the moment. And when your finger lands on his lips, you trace that too the way your own did only minutes prior. 

His eyes begin to flutter, a failed attempt to open them but you know he’s partially awake from the smile that pulls at his lips. You feel it on your finger before your eyes meet his gesture and when they do, you close them instinctively, leaning over and kissing him. His body can’t respond to his brain right now, exhausted and more asleep than he is awake, but he hums in satisfaction, lips puckering as he tries to give into his instincts. 

“Let’s have breakfast together tomorrow,” he mumbles against your lips. “I’ll go buy honey and make you pancakes.” 

You smile, though he can’t see, and perhaps it’s for the best. Your voice is a whisper when you say, “deal.”

His smile is the last thing you see before you fall asleep.

~

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ateez as lana del rey songs - hyung line

-> pairing : ateez hyung line x fem!reader

-> words count : 3.7k words

-> genre : angst, toxic relationships, break-up stories

-> warnings : a loooot of angst under many forms, mentions of complicated childhood, self-depreciating thoughts

-> sorry for any mistakes, english is not my first language.

-> reblogs and feedbacks are appreciated !

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KIM HONGJOONG - HOPE IS A DANGEROUS THING FOR A WOMAN LIKE ME TO HAVE

Being the eldest of a big family that was always short on money taught you some sense of responsibility a little too early. You spend your whole childhood taking care of your siblings rather than going out to play with the few friends you managed to keep. And as you grew up, your parents relied on you more and more. Instead of hanging out with your friends when you were in high school, you had to pick up your younger siblings at school and bring them home, you had to do all the chores your parents supposedly couldn’t do. When you were still too naive to understand, you thought it was normal, that it was your duty as the eldest. But you later discovered that they spent their days getting drunk, that they quitted their jobs often, that they were the reason you had to cut your own hair and that you couldn’t have your bike repaired by a professional. 

The more you matured, the more you realized how unfair the situation was. The day when your youngest sister called you “mom”, it was like everything finally clicked, like the puzzle’s pieces finally came into place. You felt so much guilt for letting them down, but your brother was now old enough to take care of everyone for you while you studied and maybe have the chance to finally help them get out of the hell they were raised into. 

And you succeeded. You became an editor like you always dreamt about when you were a kid. But the feeling of not belonging anywhere was still there. You felt like an imposter, like you had no right to be where you were now. It all changed when you met Hongjoong at a party your company organized for the release of a new book from one of your star authors. He was charming, outgoing and he made you feel at ease, he made you feel like you belonged with all these people you usually felt so distant from. 

And it was always like that with him, even when he invited you to some fancy restaurant for your dates, he made you feel safe and accepted you just as you were. It was all a dream, you were living the life you wanted when you were a little girl. Hongjoong gave you everything you wanted, even when you didn’t ask for anything. You were showered with gifts, you were wearing brand clothes, had your nails and hair done all the time, and you felt like a princess. Hongjoong gave you everything you needed, and more. He loved you, and you thought that nothing could ever separate the two of you.

But just like when you were a child, the fairytale didn’t last. When you were with him, everything was right, but the second he left your side, it was like everything was back to normal, as if people saw you like you were : a girl who never had money, a girl who didn’t fit in this rich’s man world, a girl who smiled for miles in pink dresses and high heels on white yachts, but you were not. Most of the time, you just felt like a trophy wife, and everyone saw you as a gold digger. And you ended up believing all of that. Despite Hongjoong trying his best to reassure you, you couldn’t believe him. It was impossible when you were remembered of your status everywhere you went, when everyone made sure to remind you where you were coming from. 

“- I just… I can’t keep pretending Joong, it’s too hard for me.”

You had tears in your eyes as you tried not to look at him too much, afraid that your resolve would crumble as soon as you crossed his gaze. 

“- But it’s not pretending, baby. You have every right to be a part of their world, of my world. I don’t want to break up with you over some dumbass that can’t see how incredible you are.”

What you always loved about Hongjoong was also what you hated the most in this instant ; his ability to give you hope in every situation. But hope was a dangerous thing for a woman like you to have, a dangerous thing for a girl that never had anything to have. But you had it, he gave it to you and you had to force yourself to let it go to stay sane.

“- You know that they’ll never learn their lessons, they will always see me like some intruders that infiltrated their circle. And I just can’t take it anymore.”

Hongjoong took one step ahead, his hands finding yours and like a reflex, you intertwined your fingers with his. Everything with him felt so natural, but the rest of the world, of his world wasn’t ready to accept it, and you couldn’t put yourself through another mentally draining relationship. You were already seeing all the arguments, all the doubts, and the tragic end of it all. And you’d rather leave him with only good memories rather than after months of fights, tears and screams. 

“- I don’t understand where all this is coming from. You seemed so at ease. Weren’t you happy ?

- Don’t ask if I was happy, ‘cause you know that I was not. You understand me better than anybody else Joong, you knew it was a mask all along right ?”

And he only nodded. He tried to convince himself that you were sincerely alright, but he couldn’t deny the truth when you were telling him face to face.

“- But at best I can say I’m not sad. I’ve never been sad by your side. You deserve better than me.

- I don’t want anybody else, Y/N.”

And you didn’t want anybody other than him, your heart was yelling at you to stay in his arms forever, but your brain couldn’t accept it yet. Maybe that one day, you will be able to disregard all the critics. Maybe that one day, you will be able to face your problems and not run away from them. Maybe that one day, you will stop pushing away your happiness and the people that brought you joy only because you were scared. Maybe. But for now, you had to leave and hope that you made the best decision - even if right now, seeing Hongjoong begging you to stay with him, it felt like anything but a good choice.

PARK SEONGHWA - 13 BEACHES

Seonghwa had always been a part of your life. When you were in middle school, you would spend every break together even if you weren’t in the same class. When you were in high school, you spent all your weekends at each other’s house and skipped the classes you found boring together. When you went away to college, he became your roommate and your only focal point. So you weren’t surprised when you realized that you had fallen in love with him one day. It had been slow, but your affection for him only developed and bloomed with the years, growing from an innocent crush to a real attraction that you couldn’t ignore anymore. 

You tried to get past your feelings anyway, pushing back your revelation to the back of your mind, and acting like you usually did before this epiphany. You even tried to go on more dates with other guys in hopes it would be enough to tone down everything you felt for Seonghwa, but it obviously didn’t work. When you were only happy to have someone to hug a week before, the cuddle sessions had suddenly turned into something a lot more meaningful, a lot more intimate. And even if you didn’t want it, everything had in fact changed and there was only one thing you could do about it : confess.

You were afraid to break your ten years long friendship, of course, but you had to tell him for the sake of your mental health and because you didn’t want to lie to him. You still remembered every word your pronounced to this day, and you also remembered clearly the tears that fell down his cheeks as he held you tight, telling you that he was the happiest man on earth, that he couldn’t have asked for a better gift and that he was ready to do everything for you and your well-being. 

And it honestly all felt like a dream. Seonghwa was caring, treated you like a princess and he was your number one supporter. Your family loved him, and his loved you too. You thought that you were going to marry him, that you were going to grow old with him, that you were going to spend your whole life with him. And at that time, it was all you wanted, it was all you needed to be happy.

The downhill came in slowly, unexpectedly. One day, the sun was shining, birds were singing and Seonghwa loved you. And the next day, the sky was covered in gray clouds, rain was pouring and you were only able to communicate by screaming at each other’s faces. But you tried to make it work, you made up each and every time. And you believed everyone around you telling you that it took some arguments and efforts to make a couple stronger. So despite all the signs telling you to leave him, that it clearly wasn’t good for either of you anymore, you still stayed, and Seonghwa did the same. You didn’t want to waste all these years together, you didn’t want to simply let go of the most important person of your life. 

But in the end, you realized you had to, that it did more wrong than good to stay with someone you couldn’t live with anymore. Because the issue was not that you stopped loving him, on the contrary, it was that you weren’t compatible anymore. It hurt to love him, but you still loved him, it was just the way you felt and you couldn’t change it. And when you talked about it, Seonghwa felt the same way. It didn’t surprise you ; you’ve always been on the same page. But it still was difficult - so fucking difficult - to leave each other, to leave the person you had grown up with, to leave the person that literally knew all of you, to leave the person you had loved for you entire life and still didn’t stop loving. 

It was scary to suddenly be on your own, but it was even scarier to notice that everywhere you went, Seonghwa was always there too. Could you really let go and let his memories dance in the ballroom of your mind ? Every little thing reminded you of him. All the things he liked were engraved in your mind and you thought about him every time you saw one of them. You wanted to text him everyday, you wanted to call him and tell him about the silliest details of your life before having to remind yourself that he was not there anymore, that he was gone. 

“- But you still can find me if you ask nicely, bunny.”

You smiled at him, but the intensity of his gaze never failed to make your heart skip a beat, even still now.

“- You have a girlfriend Hwa. I don’t think she would like to know that you’re still seeing your ex, you know ? And you seem happy, I don’t want to ruin it all because I’m selfish and I can’t move on when you clearly did.”

Sometimes, you would crack and ask Seonghwa to meet up at the coffee shop where you used to study when you were still in college. Sometimes, it warmed your heart to be able to see him, to be reminded that despite everything that happened, nothing really changed. But sometimes, you walked away even more hurt than when you got there, because you saw everything that you lost and that you were never going to get back. It felt wrong to let him take your hands, but it made you feel alive again.

“- I don’t care about all that. You know what you mean to me, right ? I’m never letting you down, even if you’re my ex. Never. 

- Don’t do that, please…

- Do what ?

- Make me feel like you still love me.”

Tears were prickling your eyes, and you could see Seonghwa’s eyes shining more than usual, you could hear the shaking in his voice and the emotion behind his words when he talked again.

“- That’s because I still love you. I think I’ll love you forever. You’re my soulmate.”

And it was the problem. Soulmates were supposed to stay together forever, but all that he did was leaving. Leaving and leaving again. Maybe you should move on. Surely. But you couldn’t. After all, you loved him too. 

JEONG YUNHO - SUMMERTIME SADNESS

Family vacations had never been your cup of tea : you couldn’t do everything you wanted, you had to watch over all your little cousins and you couldn’t even go out at night. Too many people, too many family members you didn’t even like and not even the opportunity to make friends for the month you had to spend there.

That was your opinion before you met Yunho. You only played volleyball with him and his friends at the beach one day because they were missing one person for their team, and the two of you naturally clicked. It was like you had known him for years, when it only really had been a couple of days. But it didn’t matter because it was summer and that you wanted to have a good time and only that. 

So you started to ditch your family and the group activities to go spend time with Yunho instead. Sometimes his friends were there too, and sometimes you were alone with him. And even if you sincerely appreciated his friends’ company, you preferred when it was only the two of you. He was kind, caring, funny and attentive. He took you out at night, paid for your drinks and complimented you constantly. 

It all felt like a little bubble, far away from your responsibilities and the adult life, far away from all your worries, far away from everything that wasn’t Yunho. He honestly looked too good to be true but you decided to take what he had to give and not think too much about the moment it would have to stop. So when he drunkenly kissed you one night at the bar near the beach, you kissed him back. And when he asked you to spend the night with him, you agreed in the blink of an eye. 

No one had ever made you feel as alive as him, and you knew if you went away, you'd die happy that night - all the memories of your adventures engraved in your mind forever. But when the time came to say goodbye, it felt way more heartbreaking than it should’ve been. Yunho was only supposed to be a fun pass time during your holidays, he was supposed to stay the guy you had met this summer that you would tell your friends about, but he was so much more than that. Yunho was the guy you told your whole life to because you simply felt so at ease, so comfortable with him. Yunho was the guy who healed all the wounds everybody had left on your body. Yunho was the guy who made you believe in love again. 

“- I’m going back home tomorrow.”

It was too hard saying that and looking him straight in the eyes at the same timeç, so you directed your gaze to the waves crashing on the sand instead. The moon was shining in the sky, and you could see a ton of stars illuminating the darkness of the night. 

“- I don’t want you to.

- Me neither.”

And you finally crossed his eyes ; they were glistening with the same sadness, the same melancholy, the same gut wrenching feeling as yours. You just wanted to throw yourself in his arms and never let go. But you couldn’t. 

“- At least, give me your number, please. I can’t let you walk away without even trying.

- We’re literally living in different countries, Yunho. It’s impossible.”

And he knew it too. He knew it from the start but he couldn’t resist you, he couldn’t help being attracted to you. He had to try, he had to show you that you changed the course of his life forever.

“- Then kiss me hard before you go.”

This time, you accepted his request. You cradled his face in your hands, and you let yourself taste him one last time. You’ll probably miss him forever, like the sun misses the stars in the morning sky. And he would miss you forever too. So you were going to hold on to the memory of this night when he told you he loved you, with the sound of the ocean serving as a background noise and the moon casting shadows over his perfect face that you could have recognized even if you were blind. Yunho was the kind of person you could never forget, and it hurt more than what you could’ve imagined. 

KANG YEOSANG - BORN TO DIE

You never planned anything in your life, you loved when things were unexpected and you loved to be surprised. But you never meant to fall in love with Yeosang, and maybe it would’ve been better if you didn’t. It had nothing to do with him, it had to do with his life, with yours, with the timing. When you met him, he was already very busy with his job, and you knew it was gonna be hard but you were willing to support him through whatever it would take. 

These three words were never pronounced, you never had the nerves to actually put a label on what the two of you were because the lines were blurry from the start, and you were too afraid to clear them out. But it was implied : you knew it and he knew it too - or at least you thought. You were not in the best mental state when you first met him, and you knew it was complicated for him too. Usually, you would have never got involved with someone like that, but there was just something about Yeosang that you didn’t understand but that attracted you like crazy. 

So you ignored all the red flags ; you ignored the time he was taking to answer your texts because when you actually talked, it was incredible and it felt like you had known him for years, you ignored all the signs your friends pointed out about his behavior because he made you feel heard during a time when you felt so alone. You ignored everything that went wrong because you didn’t want to lose him, because you didn’t want to let him go despite how distant he became after some time. 

And you let him have that space, you let him go away for a bit because you truly loved him, because you truly wanted to help him. The thing was that Yeosang wouldn’t let you do that. To him, everything was alright, he was doing good - even if everyone around him could tell that he was clearly not. And you couldn’t help someone that didn’t want your help, right ? But you still tried, you still insisted. You kissed him hard in the pouring rain, because he told you that he liked his girls insane. You took an interest in all the things he liked because you wanted to feel closer to him. You did everything you could to be by his side but it never seemed to be enough - you never seemed to be enough. 

But you always tried to find a way to defend him ; he was not in the right mental place, he was only putting on a mask with other people but with you he was different. Deep down, he was a good guy. Because you weren’t the best to be around at that time either ; you were always insecure, always needed reassurance, you couldn’t be left alone or you would sink down the rabbit hole of your thoughts, you needed a reason to wake up in the morning and it was hard to find one most days. But he had became a good reason. Except that it wasn’t the right time. None of you were doing well, none of you were ready to be in a relationship, and it all went down. 

“- I don’t even understand you anymore, Y/N ! What do you want from me ?

- The only thing I’ve ever wanted was you, for fuck’s sake ! Is that too much to ask ?

- Maybe.”

You felt a pang in your chest when you crossed his cold gaze. You knew it was all an act, as always, you knew that he was lying because he wasn’t ready to open his heart to anyone, but it hurt nonetheless. 

“- You don’t mean that, Yeo…

- I do, stop assuming that you know me better than myself.”

You tried to stop the tears from falling down your cheeks, but Yeosang was on the verge of crying too. Despite everything he said, he was perfectly aware that you knew him better than himself, and it broke his heart to let you go but he had to. You were right for him, but it was the wrong time. And you knew it too, so you had to choose your last words - this was the last time, because you and him, you were born to die. 

“- Don’t make me sad, please, don’t make me cry. You know that sometimes love is not enough.”

And that, Yeosang knew for sure. Because if love had been enough, he would’ve never let you go. If love had been enough, he would’ve spent forever by your side. But it was impossible. Right now, he couldn’t stay with you without destroying both of you, but he had some hope that when he would be in a better place, he could find you again and love you like you deserved to be loved, treat you like the queen you were. Yeosang never believed in fate, but you came into his life for a reason, you came to make him realize everything that he ever did wrong. But he did you wrong in the process too. One day, he’ll make this right. Hopefully.

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guess?~

rafayel x fem!reader

warnings: service top!rafayel, role play, oral (fem receiving), face sitting, squirting, food play, your highness and princess used as petnames, you call him god once, rafayel gets blindfolded at a point in the story, grapes ofc lol heavily inspired by gem affection memory 🙂‍↕️ creampie to end it nicely <3

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summary: during your journey with rafayel to binsha ancient city, you decide to stay the night at the most reputed hotel owned by an old couple, not knowing what to expect. <3

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“So… how do I look?” you hear your boyfriend’s voice come from behind you, startling you a little.

You turn around and feel your heart skip a beat at the beautiful sight before you.

Rafayel is wearing the outfit the hotel’s owner lended him. It is an outfit such as you’ve never seen before. Very warm colors, balanced with a peaceful turquoise. His torso is mainly uncovered, with the exception of the chest ornaments going from his neck to his ribcage.

“What a beautiful sweetheart!” the old lady giggles out, making Rafayel smirk proudly.

She then makes you turn around so that he can get a full look at your outfit as well, making him gasp in awe.

“Wow. Miss Bodyguard, you’re clearly looking like a princess now.” he comments, being this close to whistling. But he knows if he were to you’d swat his head.

The hotel’s owner lets out a loud throaty laugh because of your dynamic, walking up to his wife.

“And you wouldn’t be wrong, young lad. Your beloved right here looks like the tyrannical princess who fled the kingdom with her lover, seeking freedom outside of the palace.” you huff, not knowing if you’re supposed to take what the old man said as a compliment.

Having been located in Binsha Ancient City for a new job, you’ve had to get accustomed to the local folklore for the past week. Thankfully, Rafayel has traveled there before, making it easier for you to navigate your surroundings. You know those are merely legends and tales, of a kingdom from a long time ago, back when the murals were built around the territory.

But, seriously you? Tyrannical? Rafayel could tease you all he wanted, even he knows you aren’t.

“Now now, dear, don’t listen to him too much. You look like a princess, and your beautiful man right here should consider himself lucky.” The owner’s wife reassures you but you still peek at Rafayel, who harbors a playful look.

You would make sure to set the record straight with him, once you get to the bedroom.

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Rafayel picks up a grape, gently lending it to you.

“How about you feed me cutie? You know… it’s not your first time doing that…” he suggests, making you bite your lip to muffle a moan.

Sure, you’ve had to feed your boyfriend back in the beginning of your relationship, at the hospital, while he pretty much feigned illness.

Nevertheless, the setting is different today; Rafayel looks divine, the atmosphere and environment surrounding you are so otherworldly that you wonder whether you’re gonna wake up if someone pinches you.

You keep the grape in your palm, covering it with your fingers. Rafayel can’t help scooting closer to you, his playful eyes being a huge contrast to his blushy cheeks and ears.

When he pulls out his tongue, you push him back with your other hand.

“Oh? This intense?” As Rafayel hits the headboard of the bed, he smirks and looks you up and down smugly.

You want to protest, placing yourself on top of him, before leaning in to kiss him eagerly.

“Ah…” he moans out, letting your tongue enter his mouth to explore it.

Rafayel starts panting quickly when you keep pushing him further and further down until his head hits the mattress of the bed, leaving him entirely underneath you.

After exchanging a couple more sloppy kisses, you pull away to catch some air.

“Rafayel…” you sigh, starting to feel the neediness kick in.

Your boyfriend moans once more as he feels you softly humping his thigh.

What drives him even crazier is he can already feel the wetness on his skin, despite having those silky pants on, as you keep rubbing your covered cunt against his toned leg.

“Does your Highness need my services?” he eventually asks, making you stop right in your tracks.

A chuckle escapes the Lemurian’s lips, Rafayel clearly enjoys witnessing your embarrassment this time.

You weren’t prepared for the pet-name.

Now is when you two peer at each other, silently agreeing to start playing a game.

He’s always been so eager to please you, sometimes to the point you’re scared he’s neglecting his own needs.

During moments like these though, when he’s teasing you, you can tell Rafayel is having fun as well. Your heart starts bumping louder into your chest.

You feel like a princess, being tended to by the beautiful tribute of a man in front of you.

A shy nod from you and he’s all yours — at your service.

Rafayel props himself up a little with his elbows, before lightly tapping the mattress with his fingers.

“C’mere my love…” he wraps his arms around your waist to lay you on his lap, as he sits back up, letting his back rest against the headboard.

Before you can even think of responding with anything, your boyfriend grabs one of your arms.

He chuckles when he sees your pout.

“Don’t forget princess. Wantcha to feed me. Need something sweet.” he says in a mellow tone, bringing your attention to the grape, concealed by your fingers.

You huff because he is such a little tease. Rafayel smirks, feeling like he won.

However, your neediness takes over you again and you roll your hips against his thigh.

“A-ah… your… Highness…” he moans out, redness rising from his cheeks to his ears in arousal.

Rafayel squeezes his eyes shut for a bit, indulging in the way your, already wet, panties spread pussy juices all over his clothed thigh.

“I-I’m… a princess… your princess… Why won’t you obey me? I need you…” you whine out loud, desperate to reach your climax already.

But you need him for that, need his tongue, his fingers, his…

The Lemurian’s grip on your waist stills you right back, earning a whimper from you as he sighs.

“Yes… your Highness… you’re right…” he obliges, relieving you immediately.

He gets a firmer hold of your arm, bringing it closer to his face.

“Since your Highness wants to spice things up… I’ll do my best to satisfy your every need.” as he proclaims that, you gasp feeling his tongue trail over your forearm.

A long kitten lick, going from there, up to your palm, so close to the grape you’re still holding; you tremble, accidentally dropping the fruit.

It falls on Rafayel’s torso, rolling down, and further down, leaving a red liquid trail on his abs.

You feel your arousal become unbearable while you watch your boyfriend’s tummy rise and fall as he breathes, with the grape still there, so close to his pubic area, if it weren’t for his clothes.

Rafayel pulls away from your hand and looks at you with lust clearly written in his eyes.

“Can’t take it anymore?” he asks you so proudly, making you want to tease him back.

But how?

He looks down to his lower stomach, noticing the fruit resting there.

And the little shit he is feigns innocence.

“It’s so far away… I can’t get it…” he says, looking at you again, before adding; “Your Highness, could you?”

This is the last straw for you.

You need him.

“A-ah…!” your beloved gasps when he feels you violently pull away from his grab, propping yourself up on your knees.

Rafayel lets out a low whimper while you get ahold of his chin — he knows he’s pushed your buttons.

You bring your face closer to his, making him shiver as your hot breath hits his nose.

“Stay still.” you order in a low tone that turns your favorite Lemurian into a good little obedient servant.

All he can do is nod, looking at you with big puppy eyes.

Rafayel whimpers again – you almost don’t want to leave him here on his own.

Yet you merely smile at him, and he remains silent and docile, just as you’ve commanded him to.

Your hand looks for something on the night-table that you quickly find in the drawers – a sleeping mask.

Numerous thoughts and ideas start coming to your mind, you know you could do so many things to him solely using this mask.

“Why’re you smiling like this?” your gaze is redirected to where Rafayel sits with a doubtful look on his face.

You hum in response and smile, swinging the sleeping mask right in front of his face.

“Let’s play a game, baby.” It’s his turn to shiver at the pet-name, making you giggle as you add; “... but you’d have to wear this… that okay?”

Rafayel gulps, feeling a little reluctant since the idea of blocking his sight isn’t what he expected you’d suggest to him.

“Depends…” he drags the word out, remembering to stay in character; “Your Highness… which game would you like to play with me?”

His intense gaze goes up to meet yours, piercing holes into your soul. It’s impossible for you not to look at how pretty he is, just waiting for your answer, eyes shining with curiosity.

You sit back down on his thigh, ears ringing with happiness when you hear him moan again.

“Please princess… tell me…” Rafayel’s sole desire is to know, so he can make you feel good. “What is it, your Highness, I wanna know.” he pleads, lifting his leg to rub against your covered pussy.

The friction between the fabric of cloth and your in between sends jolts down your spine, making you whimper timidly. Rafayel immediately takes note of that, his desire to pleasure you taking over everything else. Unfortunately, regaining your composure becomes difficult as he keeps teasing you with his thigh.

His fingers reach for the sleeping mask and he looks at it with genuine confusion.

“Wonder what your Highness has in store for me hm.~” he purrs, loving the way you desperately try to keep yourself from riding his thigh aggressively.

Frustration coming into you, you snatch the sleeping mask from his hand and let your hands rest on his shoulders for balance.

“Rafayel… I want you…to…” your breathing is still irregular, and said man doesn’t seem to want to stop bucking his leg up to stimulate you.

He hums pleasantly, wondering what you’re about to say next. You grit your teeth, getting off the bed so you could finally speak normally again.

Rafayel pouts at the new distance put between you two meanwhile you’re finally sighing in relief.

“Rafayel, I want you to put this on.” You clear your throat, ignoring your growing arousal, holding out the sleeping mask to him; ”I’ll have you guess a few… flavors.” you smile, not being able to resist his sad puppy face, desperately wanting you back in bed with him.

As you straddle him again, Rafayel looks at you and asks you permission to put the sleeping mask over his eyes. He coos eagerly when you grant it to him, loving the way he cluelessly puts it on.

Once his sight is covered, he just stays there, innocently waiting for the game to begin.

“... Your Highness?” he asks in the void.

Rafayel hears something splash a little before a few droplets of something he can’t make out yet fall onto his naked torso. The liquid already feels sticky on him, thus he manages to guess it is juice.

He tries not to make it evident that he knows the answer before having even tasted what you’re about to give him so that you can still have fun.

Rafayel can’t help thinking you picked the wrong person for this kind of guessing game.

Don’t underestimate us, Lemurians, cutie.

Your lips curve into a smile when you lean in, getting closer to his face with the grape in your hand.

“Open your mouth.” Rafayel obeys right away; “tongue out.”

Giggles fill his ears and he couldn’t be happier that he’s playing this game with you and making you happy.

Tightening your grip on the fruit makes its skin tear and juice immediately comes out in strings of liquid that land on your boyfriend’s awaiting mouth.

You hear Rafayel’s humming sounds of pleasure and grin, wondering how he’s feeling and what’s going on in his mind now.

The Lemurian licks his lips wantonly, letting his mouth rest agape when he’s done.

“Hm… good boy. What flavor do you think this was?” Rafayel tries to pretend that calling him a good boy doesn’t affect him until his voice comes out in a gruff tone.

“Silly girl. At least make it interesting, it’s literally the grape you were supposed to feed me.”

You scoff at his answer, wanting to shut him up for being so cocky, whereas he’s supposed to be letting you take the lead considering his position right now.

“It’s your Highness. Remember your place, Rafayel.” you warn him, lowering your voice in pitch and smirking as you feel the man under you wither.

A thin drop of sweat runs down his cheek, and you can tell he’s trying so hard to keep obeying you and being good.

“Your Highness… forgive my attitude… will be a good boy…” he declares pathetically.

One of your hands reaches for his cheek to wipe the sweat away tenderly.

“Now that’s better hm?” you softly ask, sending heat directly to his groin.

Rafayel’s jaw tightens as he tries to hide his arousal, and much to his relief you seem to neither remark it nor take note of it. He starts panting, sticking his tongue out more.

“Ah, Rafayel wants to play some more?” he nods to your rhetorical question, because he could feel it within himself that it is what you wanted too.

You retract yourself a bit, standing on your knees that are cornering Rafayel’s sides.

Darkness is all the Lemurian can witness, but the soft fabric of your outfit rubbing against his obliques tells him you’re preparing to make him taste something… even sweeter than grapes.

Your fingers softly dip under your panties, tracing the outline of your slit. You try to refrain from making any noise so that Rafayel doesn’t guess what you’re about to do immediately. But it is hard to pretend as if your juices weren’t already lewdly coating your fingers.

Another look at Rafayel who appears to be obediently laying there, still with his tongue out. Part of you feels bad for making him wait so long, as you’d never expect him to be a patient one.

Yet here he is, his fingers gripping on the bed sheets, his chest moving up and down as he breathes in anticipation of your next move. Your gaze trails down to his legs and you finally notice the slight tent forming in his pants.

Oh.

You assume now to be the perfect time to give him a new flavor to guess through his taste-buds.

When you’ve gathered enough fluid on your fingers, you remove your hand from your panties, and spread your fingers, watching the strings of your juices link them together.

“Guess this, beloved.” you order, leaning down to let your pussy juices fall on his tongue.

“Shit…” Rafayel curses, instinctively managing to trap your legs in his hands.

You gasp at his sudden reaction, not expecting him to be so affected.

“More… need more, your Highness… this is you right? I need more of you to taste…" His pleas are seriously getting to you.

Your cunt throbs as you feel Rafayel’s cluelessly grab at the silky fabric of your skirt. Wearing such clothes isn’t a habit of yours, thus Rafayel is still having a hard time figuring out if he has his hands in the right places.

“Wanna take the sleeping mask off, baby?” you ask and he pauses for a bit.

He doesn’t care, so long as he gets to make you feel good and make you cum on his tongue at the very least once.

“Whichever way your Highness prefers…” he answers, making you whimper at the mental image that instantly comes into your mind of him eating you out while being blindfolded.

Would he be as good? Would he naturally know how to make you feel good?

A slight wheeze almost gets stuck in your throat as you try to picture the scene you’ve planned in your head.

“Then we’ll be keeping it on.” you admit, and Rafayel doesn’t fail to feel your skirt dropping down on his stomach, around your knees.

“Your Highness sure is a special one…” he murmurs, letting his nose guide him now when your arousal hits his nostrils, your scent directly getting inside his system.

Rafayel whimpers, sticking his tongue out to pant like a dog in heat. You can’t help but chuckle at how down bad and pathetic you have him now, underneath you.

Your legs let your skirt fall onto the floor, your panties following the same path soon enough.

“Please… your Highness…” his whines get louder, and you wonder if it isn’t because your Lemurian boyfriend can smell you.

Rafayel has always done such a great job at pretending to solely be human. A peculiar, ocean-obsessed human maybe, but still appearing to be very human. Therefore, you sometimes forget that he isn’t and his senses are heightened on the regular… So who's to say how he’s utilizing them now that he’s deprived of one of them?

What gives him away is when you lean down again and notice his nostrils flickering while he desperately tries to stay still, saliva pooling out of his hungry mouth.

You smile, feeling like you’ve made him wait more than enough time. You scoot forward, all until your knees are on each side of his ears.

“May I take a seat, Rafayel?” his red ears perk up in excitement and he nods eagerly.

His fingers tap at the sheets, trying to look for your legs.

You notice his struggle and decide to help him, reaching for his wrists, to get his hands wrapped around your waist.

“Your Highness… you feel so soft…” Rafayel squeezes the skin at his disposal before letting his hands roam around a little, to get an idea of your shape despite the dark covering his eyes.

Your pussy is so close to his face that he whines pathetically again.

“Put all your weight on me, your Highness.” he demands, rubbing circles on what seems to be your outer thighs.

A part of you feels worried about his request, mainly because he is blindfolded at the moment and therefore, probably not too conscious of what he’s asking for.

You’ve obviously sat on his face before, this being Rafayel’s absolute favorite way to pleasure you. However maybe you needed to hold yourself back a little and see how he’d react first.

Squatting down on Rafayel’s face, you hear him moan deliriously. His tongue immediately meets your slit, lapping at the juices that are already there, all because of him.

“R-Raf…!” you try to keep your balance so as not to suffocate him but your boyfriend is making it hard as his hands eventually guess where your hips are.

He squeezes the plush of your flesh before trying to force you down even lower on his face.

“Want all your weight on me princess…” the nickname makes you stagger a little, which Rafayel feels instantly.

He chuckles, taking advantage of your muscles giving out to pull you entirely down on his face.

“R-Rafayel… y-you… you’re still blindfolded…” you try to tell him what he deems obvious.

His moans get muffled by your pussy being pressed against his face. Rafayel continues to lap at your entrance, tracing the outline of your outer lips with his tongue. He knows exactly what he’s doing and where he’s going. He knows you and your body by heart.

Rafayel allows his hands to travel and guess where they’re touching some more, one of which lands on your lower back and gives you a light pat to signal he’s just fine.

A smile creeps upon your face as you roll your hips once, feeling your clit press on the tip of his nose.

“B-baby… doing so well…” your encouragement makes him whine, his breath blowing on your cunt.

The vibrations sent down there surprise you, making you cry out.

Rafayel relishes in how wet you are for him, not minding the droplets of your juices running down his chin one bit.

His tongue flattens and delicately caresses your inner lips, always panting directly into your cunt as he becomes breathless.

“O-oh… I’m so close…” you’ve been denying yourself an orgasm for far too long now, but still didn’t expect to reach it so soon.

Rafayel hums in approval, licking all spots he could and you can’t help but look down at him, witnessing the beautiful man under you, so eager to please you.

It’s the sight of him that draws you to the edge, his eyes hidden by the sleeping mask, red cheeks and ears from desire and love for you, while your cum spurts on the lower half of his face.

Like a second nature of his, Rafayel opens his mouth to welcome everything you’re squirting out, loving the way your fluids fill his mouth.

“R-Raf…” you uncontrollably ride out your orgasm on his face, feeling like he could kill you with the obscene sounds he was making.

The disappointed mewl that comes out of his lips when he feels your body elevate makes you pout. Nonetheless, your priority remains to make sure he’s having a good time too.

When you’ve come back to your senses, you let yourself hover over him to untie the sleeping mask off of his eyes.

“Woah…!” he exclaims, not expecting the dim light to hit him so suddenly.

His gaze directly goes to you, who’s on top of him. You notice his pupils moving down, as he witnesses the strings of your cum falling down your thighs. Rafayel licks his lips smugly before looking up at you.

“Is her Highness satisfied with my services?” His ability to keep playing along surprises you.

You nod, reaching for his cheek, sticky from your juices, petting him. He leans into your touch and purrs.

“Hm… but is my dear Rafayel satisfied too?” you ask, tilting your head slightly.

Rafayel looks so pretty with your cum dripping from his chin, pooling out of his lips. His eyes darken with lust as he looks you up and down. You know that glance, when all you can see is the pink of his eyes. Still, it surprises you like it did the first time.

In a loud thumping noise, Rafayel flips the two of you over, wanting to be free to do what he desires to do to you. His hands reach for yours, keeping your wrists immobile and at his mercy.

“I’ll be more satisfied…” he growls, the crimson red not leaving his face as you feel something warm and hard rub against your nude inner thigh.

“When I get to have you all for myself, your Highness.” he finishes, slightly tightening his hold on you.

Despite not having come too long ago, you feel your pussy throb in arousal again, and you spread your legs by instinct.

“But this princess is only waiting for you to make her yours…~” you coo at him, playfully, wanting nothing more than to spur him on further.

Rafayel smirks, releasing you from his hands so that he can rid himself of all fabrics keeping him from making love to you.

The sole thing remaining on him is the chest jewelry that he would find too difficult to remove in a hurry.

You take a look at the uncovered shaft prodding at your entrance. His tip is so red and engorged, reminding you of the grape you’ve fed him earlier.

Rafayel sees you smile fondly while looking at him, he bites his lips when you shake your butt a little to get him even more excited.

“Ah… you’re killing me, your Highness…” his dick brushes against your slit, his tip pressing your clit lovingly.

Rafayel leans down when you giggle to peck your lips and shut you up. He tilts his head a bit to whisper in your ear, breaking out of character; “Is my beloved bride ready?”

The sudden change of nickname weakens you, sending your heartbeat into overdrive as you nod like a lunatic.

“P-please… my God…” the last part is whispered but doesn’t fail to reach said deity’s ears. Rafayel chuckles, pushing his cock slowly into you.

The Lemurian sets a pace right away, going slow at first as to get you used to feeling him inside of you. Albeit considering how drenched your pussy is from your first orgasm, you deem it unnecessary to even have preparation anymore.

“So wet… is your Highness happy? Happy to feel my cock inside?” His soft voice makes you melt, wanting more. You meet his hips with yours, encouraging him to push his dick further in, deeper and deeper, until the tip tickles at your womb.

You nod and sigh in relief, you’ve missed feeling so full like this. Rafayel takes it as your green light to quicken it up, not shying away from hitting your gummy walls roughly.

The two of you feel the mutual arousal rise up as wet skin-slapping sounds fill the room. Your moans and his whimpers follow next, making you wonder if anyone else in the hotel can hear you go at it. Your pussy throbs all the more at the possibility of it being the case. Anyone would know you’re Rafayel’s lewd princess and he tends to your needs like no one else.

“Please faster…” you beg him to just go all out, completely let his control and composure go.

Rafayel groans, wanting to keep focusing on your pleasure first and foremost, but when you’re pleading him to do to you whatever he pleases… it feels impossible to behave.

“As you wish, your Highness…” those are the last words he pronounces before his pace gets abnormally fast, his cock hitting your womb harder than ever before.

Your boyfriend pins both of your hands down to keep you in place, at his complete mercy.

“Oh gosh…!” you cry out, feeling the funny tingles come up in your stomach once more, knowing you’re getting close again.

Your hands tremble under his grip, which Rafayel notices immediately.

“Okay your Highness… I’ll help you…” he pulls his hands away from yours, using one to hold your waist while beginning to rub your clit with the other one.

“T-thank… you… please…!” tears start falling out of your eyes as your vision goes starry white, and all you can really acknowledge is your pussy throbbing one last time before squirting all your pleasure juices out, all over Rafayel’s cock.

“P-princess, you—!” the Lemurian can’t go on any further while you naturally clench all around him, with your toes curling up on the mattress.

The impossibly tight warmth around Rafayel’s nether region drives him to the edge as well, and he cums, letting his dick spurt out all of his hot semen inside of your cunt.

Loud whines escape his mouth until he’s done, collapsing on top of you. You yelp at the sudden weight drop on your body.

However, when you see your boyfriend peacefully recover from his high, nuzzling your chest, you can’t bring yourself to tease him.

Your fingers start ruffling his purple locks, earning hums from him. It doesn’t take long for you to also feel your eyelids drop heavy as you get pulled into a deep sleep.

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“How was your night, darlings?” the old couple’s woman’s question numbs you in embarrassment.

Are you really supposed to answer that? You turn to look at Rafayel, who chuckles at the dumbfounded expression on your face.

“Splendid, ma’am. Thank you again for lending us those outfits… it really brought us back to how Binsha Ancient city was when the murals were built.” The old lady claps her hands together in satisfaction, feeling rejoiced that you two had a good time.

She looks at you with a fond smile.

“Of course. After all, this lovely little one clearly has the aura of the princess our folks’ tales speak of.” You shyly smile back, elbowing your boyfriend, who’s clearly agreeing with her.

Rafayel seems to, once again, know so much more than you, and tonight you two are gonna witness the teal sky.

After thanking the couple again, Rafayel holds out his hand for you to grab it before you head out.

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Uh...first ii fanfic lol. But i just had to write this, so...here.

Where Do We Go?

Where does one go when they die? What occurs in the liminal space between life and death, when one can do nothing but wait to be revived?

Taco finds out the hard way.

Seeing Taco shatter right before their very eyes was not something the last four contestants thought would be happening on this particular day. They could see the dents in her face, scrutinized every stifled wince as she moved, but they never realized the extent of her pain. They couldn’t have- or perhaps, didn’t want to.

MePad stared down at her bow tie, watching as the contestants jumped off of their platforms. His eyes narrowed as he turned towards MePhone, who was deliberately ignoring his gaze.

“Aren’t you forgetting something?” He asked sharply. “Or perhaps, someone?”

The gazes he drew weren’t happy in the slightest, and perhaps a bit annoyed at his reminder of the antagonistic object. But he kept his gaze stern as he stared down at MePhone.

“You…are bringing her back, right, MePhone?” Knife asked, a bit worriedly.

Silent, MePhone crossed his arms in contemplation. The silence that followed was heavy with anticipation.

MePhone stared, then shrugged. “Well? What do you all think?”

MePad felt a glitch of shock shudder through him at the contestants’ nonchalance. Taco was gone, and yet…

“You hold her life in your hands, MePhone.” MePad loomed over him threateningly, stepping towards him. MePhone froze. As did the others. MePad took another step.

“Bring her back, now.”

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Nothingness. Complete and utter nothingness. A void, endlessly swallowing itself. Oroboros personified. Spinning, spinning, an infinite drop from a cliff high in the air.

And Taco was at the center of it all. Powerless, she fell.

She cried out, and yet her voice was stolen from her. She turned and flailed, arms reaching for something solid, something concrete, something real. Something to tether her to the realm she existed in, because surely she was tangible. Taco was real; she was real, she was deeply flawed, she was a manipulative, horrible individual. But, if nothing else, she had hands and arms and she existed.

…Right?

Gained…nothing…

-just…using you-

Apart of…a plan…

As soon as the voices came, they went. Snuffed out like the light of a candle. With it came resounding pain, thudding inside her right eye. Something cracked and another snapped, and she was suddenly shattering all over again. Bright, searing heat burning her from the inside out-

Only to go cold again. Resetting.

And she was still floating. Floating in nothingness, staring up at nothing. Perhaps this was not nothing, and it was something. Perhaps she had gone blind? Had gone deaf? But at least she had not yet lost the ability to feel. Yes, yes, there was no reason to fear, because if anything, she had her hands, and she could count her fingers up to ten, and-

Taco pressed her hands together. Or, she thought she did. But she felt nothing. No pressure against her digits, just her hands flailing in the nothingness. She tried to feel herself, but there was nothing there. Nothing.

She was nothing.

Gained…nothing…

-just…using you-

Apart of…a plan…

Is this…what…you…said to ?

To who? To who? Who did she say it to? Who did she wrong? Who was it, who was it? Why couldn't she remember?

Is this really what you want?

What did she want? What did she not want? What, what, WHAT?! What did she do, where did she go wrong, why was her memory so-?!

Do you know…who I am?

…

Who…was…she?

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The fall ended abruptly. The plummet uncerermoniously dropped Taco onto soft grass, hard dirt, and her own limbs. Pain shivered up her arms and legs, but it was nothing compared to whatever she had just been in.

The void. The endless, nothingness void. The falling, the-

She was heaving in breath after breath. Her arms came around herself, checking, solidifying everything, making sure that she was still here. That she was here, and she existed, and…and…

Hands, she had her hands. Her feet, and her body. And she had air, flowing in and out of her mouth. She had the ground beneath her, and the voices around her. The sun was shining in the sky, and it was blazingly warm compared to the cold of that…that…

“I…” Her mouth felt dry. A tear dripped onto her hand. Warm. Real. “I thought…”

It was silent. She felt eyes drilling into her. Maybe they were concerned. Maybe Taco just wanted them to be concerned. Maybe they believed she would be better off gone.

Someone was speaking, but she couldn't hear their words.

She did feel a pressence at her side, reassuring her. Cool glass pressed into her back, and a fuzzy feeling overtook her body as they teleported away.

One question lingered in her mind: What happened?

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