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Self awareness sucks. Sometimes I think I may be the most morally perfect human being to ever exist. I also think I may be the most delusional narcissist to ever exist. One makes me a god and the other just makes me feel like one. Both are equally concerning and I ping pong between them every few days.

I do understand why people choose to remain ignorant. But I also understand that willful ignorance is just cowardice. Cowardice is weakness and I have no patience for the feeble minded. Seeing as how I am both physically disabled and mentally ill, these beliefs also make me a hypocrite.

Unfortunately I am also very stubborn and thus have no interest in changing. I’m not even sure I could if I tried. This makes me a deeply flawed person.

So, either I am the worst god, or the best narcissist.

I’ve realized that this internal conflict is what defines me and that greatly upsets me. Because with that realization comes another.

I will never have peace. Not in mind, not in body, and possibly not even in death.

So when Israel assassinated Iran’s leader I had a whole mental breakdown with snot and tears. I gathered my mom and brother in the living room and told them what’s gonna happen. My little brother wants to be a Marine. I have no fucking clue why because he is in no way cut out for that life. Nor does he seem to understand the intensity of it. Right now he’s 15 and I’m hoping in the next 3 years he will finally mature a little (if at all) and come to his senses and realize that a military life does not suit him.

Anyway, what I told them was this; the US is going to war. Maybe not right now but eventually Iran will retaliate and give Israel an opportunity to declare war. Biden has never kept his word on anything since he was elected. He is supplying weapons to Israel. He said he would NOT get us into another war. That’s bullshit and I don’t believe him. He is going to make us join the fight on Israel’s side and the Republicans are gonna back him up because they are all too stupid to realize that this is the perfect opportunity for Biden to get re-elected.

Democrats and Republicans are both funded by AIPAC which is basically just Israel paying our politicians for their loyalty and support. So almost everyone in an elected position right now is a Zionist. Enablers, supporters, traitors. All of them. Anyone who isn’t a Zionist hasn’t done shit to stop them so they are complicit as well.

Basically, all odds are stacked in the favor of the pedophilic Christian nationalists known as the U.S Government. The people have been brainwashed and indoctrinated for generations through the manipulation of our education system, lack of funding for infrastructure, gerrymandering, media monopolies peddling misinformation, and intentional destruction of community and culture, especially among areas with a high population of minorities. They have turned everyone against each other and thus there is no class solidarity in America. Because of this there is no armed rebellion or organized violent protest. There is just a smattering of walk outs and sit ins and everyone who has studied history knows that peaceful protest is a waste of time and effort.

There will be no resistance. There hasn’t been in a while. The rise of Nazi Germany happened just like this. It’s going to happen again. Except this time it’s happening to the most powerful and imposing nation in the world. A nation with the world’s largest Navy, Air Force, and Army. And all of our military branches are going to get bigger. Congress passed a law that now automatically registers every male 18 years or older for the Selective Service. This means that when the US enters the war with Israel, there may be a draft and that draft will include every man of age in the US. It’s possible that enough Zionists will enlist and the draft won’t be necessary but still there’s a precedent for that kind of fuckery and we call it Vietnam. That’s why my little brother was included in this convo. I do not want to see him forced to fight and die for a country that isn’t his.

The second part of that convo was explaining that a war will accelerate climate change resulting in the AMOC collapsing. This will devastate entire ecosystems. We already knew that with overfishing continuing at this rate that there won’t be enough fish left in the sea by 2050 to support the fishing industry and that will result in a whole lot of impoverished people starving to death. AMOC collapse wouldn’t just speed that up it would wipe out entire species. It will also create bigger, stronger, hurricanes, raise sea levels to catastrophic heights and eliminate coastal civilizations. Even worse it would create a perpetual drought for the Amazon Rainforest killing 10% of the world’s biodiversity. It will make the southern hemisphere hotter and the northern hemisphere colder. People will freeze death, die of heatstroke, dehydration, starvation, or fall victim to a natural disaster. The last time the AMOC slowed it ushered in an Ice Age. If the US military increases emissions they will speed us towards the next, and possibly final, Mass Extinction.

Of course, I was told that I am jumping to conclusions and that I needed to calm down and stop spiraling. Maybe I am spiraling. But the thing is, in 2019 I told my mom I needed face masks. She asked why and I explained that every 100 years humanity experiences a global pandemic. The last one was in 1920 so the next will be 2020 and since I’m immunocompromised I wanted to make sure I’m protected. I also told her that the news was saying there’s a new unidentified virus in China and I think it’s very likely that that will become the next pandemic. She also told me that time I was spiraling and that I needed to stay off the internet for a while. Anyone wanna guess what happened the next year?

I don’t think I’m spiraling anymore. I think I’m right, because today, on what is likely to be our final Independence Day thanks to a deeply corrupt Supreme Court’s complete undermining of the rule of law and the complete lack of enforcement of the checks and balances that is outlined in our Constitution, Iran has retaliated against Israel.

The reason this is terrifying is because this gives Biden the perfect reelection campaign. Trump is a felon and hated even by Republicans so he already has a leg up. He’s also .05% less Hitler than Trump so to the average liberal he still looks great. Thanks to the recent Supreme Court decision he also has the power of a monarch or dictator. He said he wouldn’t use this new power but like I said he’s always full of shit. What is likely to happen is that in order to secure his seat of power he will rally the Zionists to his cause and bring the US into a new war on the side of Israel. We all know the popular vote is useless and the Electoral College is rigged so if he does take us to war he’s basically guaranteed reelection. Republicans and Democrats alike are chomping at the bit to commit war crimes because they all invest in defense contractors so war will just line their pockets even more.

The speed at which we head towards total destruction is now entirely in the arthritic hands of a drugged up dementia patient. And as I sit here listening to fireworks in the distance that ironically mimics the sound of the artillery we supply to Israel, I am so incredibly heartbroken. When compared to the entirety of Earth’s history, humanity is but a flash in the pan. We have barely even begun and we are already almost gone. It is quite literally the end of the beginning and the beginning of the end. What a waste of potential. Or maybe there was never any potential. Maybe the reason we haven’t found other intelligent life is because it is a curse. Doomed to destroy ourselves and comprehend our own suffering. Maybe this universe is better off without the spark of life.

I can only hope that I am wrong. I want to be humiliated. I want to be embarrassed that I would ever think such a future awaits. But so far, I have only been proven right. Now the only hope I have left is that this world which is so deeply ironic in the worst of ways is just a cruel simulation created by some incomprehensible higher power. That we are toys in the hands of creation. That all this cruelty and suffering had a purpose, even if it was just to amuse some omnipotent evil.

Maybe Hell is real. Maybe this is it. Maybe we are just existing in the forms most suited for our miseries.