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Taking on the internet, more dangerous than you think. Preface, none of this is a relection of the original artist or thier work, just thoughts inspired by their work's concepts.
I remeber reading a NariLamb fanfiction on AO3 (who's name eludes me and I can not find it) which obviously center on the angst. Now, at the time of reading this story was still in its infancy, like 2-3 chapters, but what it established was a theme of broken trust. Primarily from Narinder towards Lamb. Now, obviously, he always feels betrayed for "stealing my godhood" but what I found different and exciting, was that it was specifically, Narinder hating the Lamb's lack of trust in him.
I believe the story had prefaced Narinder's downfall as him wanting to assuage mortals fears of death through resurection. Like, he was a necessary part of life, it's end, and he found it frustrating and disheartening that when mortals died, all they seemed to do was beg for more life, for more time, for him to "go away" for longer. Death was his domain, it was who he was, and he was doing his best, but people where only ever afraid of him.
Then comes Lamb, who was very devoted and unafraid of him as their patron. Narinder got his hopes up, that someone finally understood. He belived that he hsd found someone who did not fear him, who understood his necessity and wanted to serve for that purpose, rather than to earn his favor to stave him off.
Then Lamb betrays him, "because they didn't want to die", and it hurt him. It hurt him because it told Narinder Lamb didn't trust him as their god. That they, his prophet, didn't trust Narinder with their afterlife. They had preachdd his word, spoke his glory, shared to gospel of death and why one should not fear it, and when it came time to die, they refused. They took up arms against him. The one person who was suppose to accept what he was, maybe even love him and convince others of to do the same, didnt truly trust him. And that hurt like hell.
What does this have to do with the artists work? It gives me that same vibe, but with a different twist. Narinder here spent 1000 years chained up by the people he loved and trusted. Then the Lamb comes, his promised 'Liberator', and in the final moments, they turn on him, take his power, his title, and leave him with nothing. If someone wants to chain him again, they don't have to over power a God to do so now, anyone can, he's easy prey. And that must be terrifying for him.
Trust in those he may or may not care about, utterly shattered. Ability to direct his own life, gone. Agency and choice, illusion at worst, pity at best. His own, personal hell that he lived in for 1000 years, is now a cage that looms over him at all times, and he has no strength to stop it should it come for him, no course of action to escape, no hope of liberation. And the person who holds that power betrayed him once, and may hate him (in his mind). No shit he's scared, the only delay action he can take is avoidance, stay out of attention and hope trouble never finds him.
And I find it fascinating for a story. If Lamb had promised Narinder and not themselves they would not look in his mind, which is yet another vulnerability he must suddenly content with, that would be even worse.
Anyways, that's my thought dump on all of you, and the drawing that made it resurface. Thanks by!
Took a few days but BEHOLD MORE NARI ANGST/WHUMP
Was thinking about trod Narinder being secretly in love with Lamb the whole time and the fact that Narinder most definitely has trust issue and fears of being mortal now
So with those two trains of thought combined, I wanted to explore… other hidden feelings he might have towards the lamb… 👀💧
Eat well, my flock, Cult of Nari Babygirls tm 🤲