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I Miss You
Paring: Ziva x sister!reader
A/n: I was reading @blazogirlsoneshots “My Jacket!” and I was inspired
Warning: Mentions of suicide, mentions of self harm
You did it. You finally did it. I know what your thinking. Your thinking, ‘Oh! What’d she do? I wanna celebrate.’ But this is nothing to celebrate. It’s something to mourn. You had just killed yourself. Did I leave a note? Yes. Because you couldn’t leave your baby sister on her own, without an explanation.
Ziva’s perspective
I entered the apartment, stopping at the body.
“I’m sorry, Ziver.” Gibbs whispered, pulling you into a hug. You felt yourself start to cry. Soon Tim spoke up,
“Boss, there’s a note.” You broke the hug and ran over yanking the note out of his hand. I began to read it,
“I know I always say, ‘A suicide is never a suicide.’ but this time? This time it is, I killed myself.
Tim, you were like brother to me. A geeky brother who no matter how much they were picked on, still continued to express how they felt about it. You always knew how to cheer me up, and I thank you for that.
Tony, you were also like a brother to me. I love how you know so much movie trivia and never hesitate to share. I saw so many movies because of you. Thank you.
Jethro, it’s time to come clean. Surprise! Jethro and I are dating. Although you may have known because I called him Jethro. I love you, and I’m so sorry to do this to you again. Just remember the happy times, please. Also, I’m sorry I committed suicide before your proposal but I couldn’t see you proposing and me having the guts to do this. Yes, I saw the ring and it was absolutely beautiful but next time, try hiding it better. One thing I’m always going to haunt you with is that it’s okay to cry. I love you.
And Ziva, I’m so sorry but I couldn’t take it. I felt alone no matter how much you all said I wasn’t. I know nothing can fully heal the pain of me being gone, but I still have the jacket you loved. You can have since I won’t need it anymore. I love you my baby sister. Don’t ever forget that.
I love you all but this is my goodbye.~Y/n.” I set the note down and ran to her room and opened up her closet, grabbing out the jacket. A was a light blue denim jacket, y/n’s favorite.
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“Ziva? Seriously?! You can’t just take my jacket whenever you want.” You stated, annoyed.
“But it looks so nice on me.” She said.
“Ziva give me my jacket back, I got plans and my ride will be here any minute.”
“No.”
“Yes.” I grabbed onto the her arm, “Give me my jacket.”
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I clutched the jacket and flopped onto her bed. I laid there and allowed myself to cry.
Gibbs perspective
You saw the almost empty bottle of bourbon by her body. It made me feel guilty as y/n never drank until her and Ziva joined the team. Or more specifically, when you fell in love with him.
“Jethro?” Ducky called.
“Yeah Duck?” He asked, turning to face him. He rolled up your sleeves to show your arms littered in scars. Some were as fresh as moments before you died. Palmer stuck his hand into her pocket, pulling out y/n’s favorite pocket knife. What made it so special? It was one you had given to her. You grabbed it from him, and revealed the tip of the knife covered in blood. Your heart sank knowing your gift to her got her here. Dead.
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Gibbs may have put on a strong face, but that night when he went home, he finally allowed himself to cry. Cry because he promised to protect you, how was he gonna protect anyone if he couldn’t have protected you from yourself. He walked downstairs to the basement, and dug through his glass jar of washers that he’d hid the ring in. That way it wasn’t bulky and hard to hide. He pulled it out and stared at it, imagining what you would have said.
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Tags: @nerdyfangirl67 @hi-i-1
I hit 50 followers and I’m so happy! Thank you guys so much for your support and this gives me an excuse for a follower prompt writing thing… so here’s some prompts, send me an ask with the number and genre and the character. Also thank you @nerdyfangirl67 for your help with this.
I write for-
Bucky Barnes
Peter Parker
Tony
Tim
Ziva
Ellie
Gibbs
Here’s the prompts-
Fluff
“I like the way your hand fits in mine.”
“You have something in your hair, umm… Do you want me to get it out?”
“It’s nice that your voice was the first thing I heard today.”
“You can call me whenever you want… Even if you don’t have a reason to.”
“I’m bad at texting first, so I always end up hoping you will.”
“Wait, don’t pull away… Not yet.”
“You look really cute in that sweater.”
“No, like…. It’s just, I can’t believe you’re actually wearing my clothes.”
“You’re a big piece of inspiration for this, honestly.”
“God, you always make me blush so damn much.”
“I’ve been trying to get ready for like an hour and a half, because I know you’re going to look so good and I need to try and match up.”
“Could you hold my hand?”
“I really love holding you, (darling, doll, babe, baby- lmk).”
“Your lips are really warm.”
“I can’t get over how a few months ago I wanted to learn your name and now you’re having breakfast with me in my sweater.”
“No, (blank), don’t tell him/her I said that about him/her!”
“My friends get so annoyed by how much I talk about how sometimes.”
“Wanna, like– I mean, if you’re not busy… We could get lunch? Or even just coffee if you don’t have a lot of time?”
“You don’t need to leave so soon.”
“Quit smiling at me, I can’t stop messing up my sentences when you look at me like that.”“You’re hiding under the blanket because you’re blushing?”
“You make me so happy.”
“Don’t give me that puppy dog face. How am I supposed to say no to that?”
“Let’s share my coat, since you’re so cold.”
“I can’t believe I got the first date, let alone a year.”
“Would you mind if I kissed you?”
“I know I’ve kissed you like, ten times, but just like another ten, please.”
“I would’ve had breakfast ready, but you were sleeping on my arm, and I didn’t want to wake you.”
“Yeah… Huh? Oh, sorry I was just thinking about my girl/boyfriend.”
“I’m so in love with her/him, I don’t know what do do.”
“I remember practicing how to ask you out to the mirror.”
Angst
"Do I really mean nothing to you?"
"I never meant to hurt you!"
"You are worth less than dirt to me."
"We could have been happy together..."
"I should've protected you!"
"Will you stay with me till I'm gone?"
"Don't leave me here, please!"
"It was my fault... it was all my fault!"
"I don't want to die-!"
"Please give me another chance!"
"It's okay... I wasn't meant to survive this."
"Please forgive me..."
"I'm dying and you can't stop it."
"You're dying and I can't stop it!"
"I only came to say goodbye."
"Stay with me!"
"I thought you loved me. I was wrong."
"I thought I loved you. I was wrong."
"Please don't hurt me!"
"I don't want to see you."
"I'm so sorry..."
"I'm ending it tonight. Don't try to stop me..."
"What did you do to yourself?"
"You can't just tell me to leave!"
"This wasn't meant to work out, you know."
"It's too hard. It's just too hard..."
"I was stupid to think you cared."
"You were stupid to think I cared."
Comfort- Kinda idk
“Just close your eyes. I will still be here when you open them again.”
“Sure, you can use me as a pillow.”
“I’d come for you. No matter what, when you need me, I will be there.”
“Can you walk? I’d be happy to carry you.”
“You can hold my hand.”
“The nightmares are just an illusion. I’m really here.”
“Tell me to stay and I will be here for as long as you’ll have me.”
“It’s okay to be afraid sometimes.”
“You don’t have to be strong all the time.”
“If you don’t know where to go, you can always come here.”
“I want you to know that it’s okay to cry.”
“Take all the time you need.”
“Don’t let your fears dictate your life.”
“It’s okay, it’s just you and me now.”
“You’re not invisible.”
“I love you more than I can ever scream.”
“I swear I’ll never let it happen again.”
“Please tell me what happened so I can help you feel better.”
“I just want you to be okay.”
“Of course I care for you.”
“Doesn’t that feel better?”
“You can talk to me. You can cuss, cry, scream, it doesn’t matter. Just talk until it’s all out.”
“None of this was your fault.”
“You don’t have to go through this alone.”
“You can hold my hand.”
“You’re my entire world.”
“You’re safe here in my arms.”
“See, even our pet agrees.”
Thank you so much for 50 followers!!!