Trans Nonbinary Rant - Tumblr Posts

i need help

cw: transphobia, homophobia, mention of p4nic attack, mental health

so like i have a problem.

i have come out to my mum as nonbinary a month ago and she basically told me that the dysphoria i had was probably some sort of mental illness and not dysphoria and that she wouldn’t call me by my name and pronouns. i cried about it for a day or too but i got over it cuz i thought that it would be fine. then my mom and my dad(who i didnt really believe was transphobic) spewed out some transphobic shit a few days ago. like seriously my dads a whole “trans is a illness” and my mum is like “the media is transing our children”. they had this “conversation” with my sister(who was trying to get them to understand that being trans isn’t sad and that we need trans visabilty) but they weren’t getting it. my dad just gave up and went downstairs and my mum was being stubborn and wasnt having it. i wish i could of said something(seeing that im trans but my sister isnt) but i was having a panic attack because of their words. i cant stay in this house if my parents are spewing transphobia every week or so. my mental health has been greatly staggering ever since quarantine started and my parents have not been helping. especially after i came out. i cant leave for at least 6 months though because my mom pays for my dental stuff. it feels selfish too, because my parents are both slightly homophobic and two of my sisters are gay, and i have a very young sister who would miss me a lot. i dont want any of them to go through the same thing without me here. plus, my mom is pretty bad with mental health issues, and my sister has been needing to go to a therapist for a while now. i dont know how to feel or what to do. at all. please help