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tw: rant

I really want to appreciate my man The Doctor, but I need to write a chapter of my two hundred (which might become five hundred) page fanfic. Sometimes I wish I had a second coauthor in my writing team who had a lot of free time and an enormous will to write... Like, having four people (including me) is already a big luck and commitment from them all (especially from my current coauthor, who have been helping me with this fanfic for all three years!!!), but I haven't updated my work since November 2023 and I want to finish the current chapter because I hate it but it should be done for all the chapters, that are waiting ahead. I am the one, who supposed to write, nobody in my team owns me writing my book.

I prefer to say, that it's coauthor's and my work. I mean that I began writing and it's my responsibility to continue it, if I want to (free will to leave a fanfic unfinished and stuff), I often I wish that I had another person, to write for me some moments, so I had to just adapt them, polish and call it a day. Even for one chapter.

I guess, everybody went from this, even the greatest authors. Tears, bloody lips, sleepless nights, apathy and many more. I just wish I had the same thirst for writing my works like I did two years ago. Alas, almost 150 deleted pages can crush your spirits.