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"stop walking in circles y/n, jun begged, i’m feeling giddy."

sat on the sofa in order to put his shoes on, jun was looking at you wandering into your shared apartment since at least twenty minutes.

"i mean, i’m always giddy around you but still, you’ll make a hole into the parquet."

finally looking at your boyfriend, you asked, feeling uneasy :

"but what if she doesn’t like me?"

frowning at your question, the young man mumbled, caught off guard :

"why do you think that? of course she’ll like you."

softly forcing you to stop your tracks, jun grabbed your chin to meet your gaze. your bottom lip nervously shaking, you acquiesced :

"yes, i’m scared she thinks i’m not a good girlfriend for you."

jun’s heart broke at your words, only realising now how worried you were. while he grabbed you hands to force you to sit next to him, you carried on :

"what if they think i don’t deserve you? what if she finds that i’m too much of a picky eater? and that i’m not interesting enough? and your step father? what if he think i’m stupid? and your brother? what if he thinks his present is lame? i’m just an outsider, maybe this was too early for me to come with you at such a family event like chrismas. i don’t want to be a burden."

jun received your flood of questions with full force, becoming fully aware of the fact that you were actually way more anxious by this dinner than he expected. of course, he knew that you were an introvert who needed time to get comfortable and that it was the first time you physically met his family but still, he thought he told you enough stories about how excited his mother was to meet you that you were less worried. but he understood that it only made your concerns grow, completely scared of not being enough.

"my mom will unconditionally adore you. she always asks how you’re doing when i call her to the point where i sometimes think she loves you more than me. you became a member of our family the moment i kissed you on your front door, you instantly had a place at our table for chrismas as well as for every family event and non-family event."

pressing a soft kiss on your temple, jun added without any hesitation :

"if you feel too overwhelmed, we can stay here tonight, i’ll tell my mom that i am sick."

"why? you exclaimed in panic, no don’t lie or stay for me! you can’t see them regularly, i don’t want to be a burden."

"you aren’t a burden, y/n. and i would absolutely hate to know that you’re spending christmas in a hotel room alone or that you’re forcing yourself for my sake."

"and i would absolutely hate to know that you’re not seeing your family for my overthinking ass, you retorted before ordering with a determined tone in order to suppress your nervousness, enough with the overthinking, we’ll be late, let’s go now."

"that’s my girl, jun murmured with a fond smile, don’t worry, they will love you. and if you ever feel tensed or uncomfortable, tell me."

"always. thank you for dealing with my stupid concerns," you whispered after hugging him tightly.

"if it bothers you, then it isn’t stupid, jun reassured, now let’s go for real or my mom will scold me for being late."

a/n : chrismas isn’t over yet, i’m still allowed to post this silly lil drabble. merry christmas everyone!

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heyyy if your requests are open and you’re up for it, dad!junhui for your svt as dad series? really enjoying the series so far!!

dad!jun who was in complete shock when you told him you were pregnant

dad!jun who was so so very careful and gentle with you throughout your pregnancy and would softly ask ‘are you okay’ and ‘do you need anything’ at least 3 times a day

dad!jun who was so anxious and excited to hold the baby for the first time

dad!jun who often stayed up later than he should’ve because he kept checking on his sleeping son

dad!jun who enjoys walks in the park with you and his baby boy

dad!jun who takes lots and lots of pictures of his son and makes it his phone background

dad!jun who has a million different nicknames for his son

dad!jun who is extremely protective over his kid and doesn’t let anyone near him

dad!jun who definitely dresses his kid up in costumes and silly outfits just for fun

dad!jun who also loves baby sunglasses

dad!jun who insists on waiting an additional 2 weeks after you’re cleared for sex again

dad!jun who is the one that actually required some convincing when you bring up having a second child

dad!jun who gives in the moment you climb on his lap

dad!jun who calls you his pretty wife the moment you sink down on his cock

dad!jun who realizes just how much he needed your touch and missed being inside of you

dad!jun who watches in awe as you bounce on his cock

dad!jun who doesn’t even put in the effort to fuck you and just lets you do your thing

dad!jun who nearly passes out when you milk him dry

dad!jun who loves his family more than anything

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the first thing jun heard when he walked through the door was a light sniffing. then a soft blow. yours. instantly, he kicked off his shoes and ran towards the living room. that’s where he found you, huddled at the end of the sofa, your bottom lip still shaking. jun couldn’t help himself but think about how cute your habit of always sitting on the floor was. your arms tightly held around your knees, your puffy eyes looked up, meeting jun’s concerned ones.

"bad day?" jun guessed.

you hated your summer job as secretary from the bottom of your heart and jun knew it. you always complained about your insufferable coworkers and arrogant clients. but you were still a student who needed money and the work your dad offered you paid well so you stayed, bearing in silence all the things you mentioned to him. you nodded weakly.

"you want to talk about it?"

you shook your head negatively. jun kneeled before you and opened his arms. you immediately melt into his embrace as your tears started to run down his neck.

jun hated seeing you cry. most of your friends called you heartless and kindly joked by saying you felt no emotion but jun knew how wrong they were. you just perceived yourself like everyone’s emotional support and buried your feelings deep down so you could smile for them. "who’s gonna dry their tears if i’m crying?" were the words you had told him when jun was conforming you in the intimacy of your shared apartment after all your friends cried during your degree ceremony. jun had thought about how strong you were but also how harsh you were toward yourself, not allowing you to cry.

those self-restriction weren’t only put in place for sadness but for every other piece of the emotion spectrum: anger, fear, hurt, etc. you only gave you permission to explode when you were surrounded by the comfort of your home and jun’s company. so, each time, jun took your place as an emotional pilar and bit back the tears which threatened to fall.

gently rocking you, jun massaged your temples, whispering soft words. as your sobs decreased, he told you:

"it’s okay to cry. remember to never feel ashamed of your feelings which are a hundred percent valid. never feel like you’re over exaggerating cause, to me, you’re the bravest girl i ever met. but sometimes, you need to let me be your valiant knight in a shiny armour, okay?"

his last words caused you to giggle softly as you nodded, a begin of a smile on your lips. placing a tender kiss on them, he suggested:

"do you want me to run you a hot bathtub?"

you agreed eagerly almost immediately.

when you were finally laying in the bathtub, you murmured:

"work was just horrible. one of my coworkers asked me print him so many useless files. i didn’t even cleared a quarter when i filled the folder and he said after an hour and a half that some files were worthless. if you had seen how many papers went to waste, i was so angry he didn’t listen to me when i suggested him that it’d be better to keep up with the numerical system only.

"then, they all left for lunch time, leaving me alone while they went all together at a restaurant, not even bothering to ask me if i was interested or not. i mean, i don’t care if they didn’t want me to join them but it made me feel like some pariah.

"finally, one of the coworkers started to complain about my dad so badly. he was literally screaming right in front of me and not so far away from my dad’s office and i felt so angry but i couldn’t say anything. i’m literally working here because of nepotism. i have no competence nor diploma for this post, i’m not legitimate at all. but i was boiling and nobody stood up to tell him that he should stop. i’m so angry with him and with myself. i mean, i perfectly know nobody must love my dad but he went way too far, saying it right into my face, and i should have said something at least. but i was just petrified."

your story broke jun’s heart as he was smoothly massaging your scalp. starting to rinse your hair, he hummed:

"like i said, your feelings are totally valid but you need to remember your dad is a grown man who can handle criticism and hate from his employees. this coworker of yours did this intentionally to see if you’ll tell him and because he knew it would reach you. but, even if it’s hard, you shouldn’t let them go under your skin. it was just pure gratuitous hate and calling him out wouldn’t have change anything. you’re not responsible for his behaviour and for not reacting.

"besides, you’re far from a nepo baby and you’re actually way too qualified for this job. i mean look at you! you’re my amazing genius of a girlfriend who’ll start her master degree soon! you don’t need their approval or anything. and remember that if you want to retort anything, i’ll support you in any case."

looking up at him, jun could see tears stinging your eyes again.

"no don’t cry, he panicked, it wasn’t my intention at all!"

a melodious laugh escaped your lips and, after kissing him deeply, you whispered:

"thank you so much junnie. thank you for being here and for always listening to my stupid concerns."

"if it bothers you, then it’s not stupid. don’t thank me for something like this."

pressing your hand affectionately, jun was proud of you for expression your emotions and took even more pride in knowing that he was your greatest confident before whom you allowed yourself to let your emotions appear.

after watching a ytb video abt jun being the original emotional support kpop boy (that was the title) i can't get this image of my head. i really need a jun in my life

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