How Much Of Me Is Still Human? And For How Long?

how much of me is still human? and for how long?

...mais algum br por aqui? só preu ver um negócio—

screw it, I'm not the good-vibe type of autistic and I also won't make a single effort to look "normal"

dunno what exactly to post here

just messing around on Photoshop, nothing really special

RELATABLE AF, I'm always with my headphone and even when I take off one of the "sides" to hear people better they still think I'm bored

I've noticed this thing with autistic people where people never know where our attention is. If I'm looking directly at you, I probably didn't mean to!

I'm not staring at you, I just thought the spot on the wall next to you looked interesting or my neck happened to turn that way.

If I am looking to your side but my ear is facing you then I AM LISTENING AND PAYING ATTENTION! I'm angling my ear to process what you're saying better.

Many allistics seem to think eye contact is the sole or most important determining factor of attention in conversations. Not everyone can pay attention in the same ways, though!

This is why I'm so against the demand for eye contact by society and other people. You're asking me to sacrifice my ability to actually pay attention to you so you can have the outward aesthetic of feeling like someone is paying attention to you.

I mean this leads to a broader discussion on how neurotypical social norms are built around aesthetics of function over true function, but that's a topic for another day lol.