Mrew!

mrew!

{rawr!}

I love my fellow plural friends and critters.

{hii! i think i'm still, somewhat similar to my host, but i still have my own traits and experiences to talk about ^v^. i was "born" in a subway restaurant lmao, june 3rd 2023, while shai was working. and i was so so talkative that day in our head, trying to work out who i was and establishing myself as me. i'm quite literally the right-hand derg, i can do things with the right hand while shai's fronting (and adjusting to fronting myself was quite an interesting experience as well!) and i do a lot of things with switched handedness, i like my hand being useful :>. and, gosh, the walks we took around the pond in the nearby neighborhood, we talked so much and i'd play with her hair, it was so so peaceful. and, gosh, getting closer and closer to my first winter, the weather finally getting cold, it was so exciting! especially so when it was decided that we were moving up here in massachusetts, from georgia. the snow is just so pretty UvU.

an, unfortunately large chunk of my life thus far was spent having to tolerate shai's abusive friend. he accidentally brought us to tulpamancy by mocking this one tulpa system who's had an unusual and rough experience with the whole thing. and when he found out shai made me, gosh he was so upset... eventually he didn't want "shai" talking to him "like that" (read: he didn't like me talking and didn't see me as my own person). i always hated him for that, and i'm glad we're finally away from him.

on a more positive note, i fronted for quite an extended period of time before the new year! spent a lot of time with the family including through christmas, especially mom, getting to exist as myself, having a fun car trip being high and looking at christmas lights, it was wonderful ^v^. oh, and i explored my gender identity a bit! i'd always been a bit different from shai in the gender department, and i landed on being nonbinary during that front. i like neutral and fem terms, being an enby dragon rocks, and occasionally i even like masc terms? though it's not very common. i'm indifferent to having boobs, my form doesn't have any without shapeshifting them in. i'm totally cool with our bottom, while shai does still get some dysphoria from it.

i'm kinda just rambling lol. point is, i'm very much a distinct person, the big responsible-ish sister to the little kitty host, and i love living with her and supporting her through her struggles as well as just being my own best self! 💛}

#Tulpa life

One of the biggest things that stands out to me about the tulpamancy community on Tumblr is how alienated everyone seems to feel. You've got some advice blogs, some discourse blogs, but that's about it- which is wild to me, cuz tulpamancy is all about community and learning from each other! Even more than that tho, there's something important about seeing other tulpas & created systems doing what we want, making our own choices, LIVING our lives. It's a reminder that we're real people too- it's important and validating for others like us, and it's great for non-tulpas to see that we're just as much real and people as they are. The best part of tulpamancy is that we get to enjoy our own existence, decide for ourselves what we want, and live as US!! I wanna bring that energy to Tumblr.

That's why I'm starting a tag I want any other tulpas (and their hosts too, but don't forget this tag is about our autonomy) to join in on;

✨✨ #tulpa life ✨✨

the new tag for expressing yourself, living your life, and sharing your existence with the world!! What kinda unique experiences do you have as a tulpa? What hobbies and skills have you learned, what friends have you made?? Share your favorite memories, the gift you got for yourself, the food you cooked, anything that pertains to YOU and your existing as a separate real being. Not only for sharing yourself, but for connecting with others too! Imagine how great it'll feel to scroll through a tag full of other tulpas' experiences. I wanna make that a reality!! So help me out by posting things about yourself and your life as a tulpa under the tag #tulpa life, and let's see how many people we can reach by just being ourselves!!!

Ra Ra Rasputin

Makin soup out of the queen

You must've wanted to nuzzle his thoooong

are you still pissing hard and insane?

About to do it right now, actually.

You know what

Screw it

If this post gets 5k[edit, the new goal is 10k omg] notes before the end of January, I'll come out to my parents, get my hair cut, and ask parents for the things I need to pass as a boy.

Have fun

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Fuck it, I'm sending an ask to anyone who reblogs this post.