69-toojay - suffer through my hyperfixations.
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suffer through my hyperfixations.

idk gay shit. Pearlydews on ao3

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2 months ago
"control It,,, Dominate It. Like You!"

"control it,,, dominate it. Like you!"

prompt 4/16/24: favorite scene

i... uh... i... i am normal i swear!

@renfield-anniversary


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2 months ago
Song In My Head- Marilyn Manson, Fated, Faithful, Fatal.

song in my head- Marilyn Manson, Fated, Faithful, Fatal.


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2 months ago
Renfield Anniversary Week, Day 5: Favourite Ship

Renfield Anniversary Week, day 5: Favourite Ship

NO ONE CAN STOP ME FROM COMBINING MY SPECIAL INTERESTS!!!!

Dracfield as the three cheers for sweet revenge cover because I'm FERAL and RABID


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2 months ago
I Think I Need To Practice Skin Tones.

I think I need to practice skin tones.


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2 months ago
Today I Offer You Toxic Yaoi, Tomorrow.. Even More.prompt 4/18/24: Favorite Ship@renfield-anniversaryi

today i offer you toxic yaoi, tomorrow.. even more. prompt 4/18/24: favorite ship @renfield-anniversary i also made a spotify playlist for them because i am evil.


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2 months ago
Song In My Head- Marilyn Manson, Fated, Faithful, Fatal.

song in my head- Marilyn Manson, Fated, Faithful, Fatal.


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2 months ago
He Knows The Next Few Hours Are Going To Be Painful.
He Knows The Next Few Hours Are Going To Be Painful.

he knows the next few hours are going to be painful.


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2 months ago

Alright that's it I'm well not ashamed but certainly feeling a little strange to admit that after a lifetime of being frightened and a little disgusted by the vampire kink have I finally begun to see the appeal of it and YALL KNOW WHICH PAIR OF FUCKING DEGENERATES IT WAS?

No it wasn't any of the sexy ones like Bradd Pitt playing at fag boytoy with Tom Cruise. It wasnt the AMC reboot that none of you shut up about and it certainly wasn't the book which made my phobia a lot worse by the way because vampires = sexual predation metaphor, ive never liked it. Never liked the idea of someone seducing food then claiming to love it, there's something dehumanising and condescending and awful about it and the catholic guilt undertones of the books and the way Claudia and other girls are described in the books does not help.

No, it wasn't any of the sexy ones. The sexy ones just make it worse.

IT WAS THE NIC CAGE MOVIE WITH BEAST FROM X MEN!!!!

Suddenly I'm realising that like a/b/o or a lot of other kink stuff maybe I've always disliked these things because they seemed cringe or whatever but a lot of dynamics that I want are embedded within these tropes FUCK. Like corruption, consumption, and subservience and sadism and ownership.

I think I also like that because both Loustat and Dracfield are creature x creature ships, the fear is a little alleviated.


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2 months ago
It Was Thirst That Awakened Me. And I Knew At Once Where I Was, And What I Was, Too. There Were No Sweet
It Was Thirst That Awakened Me. And I Knew At Once Where I Was, And What I Was, Too. There Were No Sweet
It Was Thirst That Awakened Me. And I Knew At Once Where I Was, And What I Was, Too. There Were No Sweet
It Was Thirst That Awakened Me. And I Knew At Once Where I Was, And What I Was, Too. There Were No Sweet
It Was Thirst That Awakened Me. And I Knew At Once Where I Was, And What I Was, Too. There Were No Sweet
It Was Thirst That Awakened Me. And I Knew At Once Where I Was, And What I Was, Too. There Were No Sweet
It Was Thirst That Awakened Me. And I Knew At Once Where I Was, And What I Was, Too. There Were No Sweet
It Was Thirst That Awakened Me. And I Knew At Once Where I Was, And What I Was, Too. There Were No Sweet

It was thirst that awakened me. And I knew at once where I was, and what I was, too. There were no sweet mortal dreams of chilled white wine or the fresh green grass beneath the apple trees in my father's orchard. In the narrow darkness of the stone coffin, I felt of my fangs with my fingers and found them dangerously long and keen as little knife blades.

--- The Vampire Lestat.


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2 months ago
Its So Confusing Sometimes To Be A Girl

it’s so confusing sometimes to be a girl ❤️‍🔥


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2 months ago

Uh- are you aware of the meaning of proship?

Proship has never meant anything except a combination of three ideas:

Ship and let ship (your ships don't harm me and vice-versa) and YKINMK (your kink is not my kink, and that's okay; my kink stories don't harm you and vice-versa)

Harassment over fiction is not acceptable

Censorship of fiction is not acceptable either

Any other definitions are made by antis, not proshippers, and are an attempt at revisionism to justify harassment based on false claims.

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2 months ago

i still just cannot get over beyond birthday as a character because everything id ever seen in fanon before reading LABB indicated that he was some kind of dark spectre haunting L's past and then i read LABB and not only is he just a weird crawler freaking it crab style on the floor, L does not even interact with him one single time. he just makes naomi deal with it. like sorry can you fucking imagine being BB and spending your entire life obsessing the fuck over the guy you see as the bane of your existence and your eternal rival forever and you try doing murders so you can finally defeat him and he fucking delegates you. and then he goes and becomes eternal rivals forever with a gay high schooler

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2 months ago

tragedy is when a man has so much failwife potential & yet gets assigned suave dom by the fandom and isn't allowed to be anything else. chin up king your loser energy is seen and appreciated. by me

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2 months ago

one of the funniest things about Light Yagami is that he is So aware of himself and So invested in Not Being Perceived As Strange that he has no real grasp on what an actual human interaction should look like. he knows what a Perfect interaction should look like, sure; he knows how to appear effortlessly charming and how to assuage suspicion, but the issue with that is that he reacts to really stressful and bizarre situations in an unnaturally prim and proper way, and then somehow can't understand why that makes him look even weirder. like. okay. this man with the darkest eyebags you've Ever seen and ever Will see walks up to you during your college entrance ceremony and says, "yeah, I'm L. best detective in the world." and Light goes through seven Completely Understandable And Normal Reactions in his head before he settles on, "y'know what would be the normal thing to do here? to completely fabricate my reaction so that I seem as disengeuous at possible! I can't have this guy think that I learned how to interact with other human beings from anywhere else but PBS KIDS! I have to react like Chief Yagami's totally normal son would!!" and like, that's all good and well, but if you were Actually Normal and not the weirdest person on planet earth, you'd have probably looked at the little cryptid and said, "uhm, actually I think that you're a filthy liar and also you dress stupid. why do you exist in greyscale."

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2 months ago
Old Boy But /aff

old boy but /aff

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2 months ago
Me And My Malewife Boyfailure Lurking

me and my malewife boyfailure lurking


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2 months ago
69-toojay - suffer through my hyperfixations.
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3 months ago

@casualnearenjoyer you're absolutely right here you go

Matt: what're you guys gonna do shoot?

Kira Guards: what ? us? The silly men holding the automatics aimed at you? Ofc not we're just playing, we're like grus minions but instead of the most evil person we serve the most gay person we meet, have a nice gay day sir.

Matt: will do!

Dn part 2 fix it

Takada : can you look away or give me someyhing to cover myself pls?

Mello: Ma'am I'm gay and you're evil


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3 months ago
69-toojay - suffer through my hyperfixations.
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3 months ago
Hannibal Season 2 Summary
Hannibal Season 2 Summary
Hannibal Season 2 Summary

hannibal season 2 summary


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3 months ago

i love the concept of divorce lawyers. the only things in the world that have the power to undo your marriage are death itself or a special little boy with a law degree.

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3 months ago

PLEASE, for the love of the fandom gods:

COMMENT on things (creators need good feedback and encouragement like they need air)

REC & REBLOG things (if you like it, chances are that other people will, too)

LEAVE NICE TAGS (because creators WILL look for them)

DON'T DELETE YOUR STUFF (orphan them if they're on AO3 or remove tags if you're on tumblr, but for all that is holy, DON'T DELETE THEM)