I Get So Enraged At Myself For Having Syptoms Of Trauma That Weren't Even My Fault.

i get so enraged at myself for having syptoms of trauma that weren't even my fault.

i don't give myself enough credit for things i've already achieved. it doesn't eliminate the fact that i have new goals as well but still.

i used to walk with my head straight down and now it's up when i walk because i put myself in the habit of it, i barely ate healthy and now i prefer healthier options, i didn't drink a lot of water and now i did, & i've lost 70lbs total, maybe 40 of it through sheer work.

realizing i need to be more proud of myself so i can excel further.

all before 8am! (i woke up super early). today's goal is minimum 20k, ideally 30k.

"James was very shy, super introverted, could barely look you in the eye, barely have a conversation."

“Most of that he-man thing was just a facade for James to deal with his own insecurities. I always felt that he was a gentle soul and a very loving guy.”

"James carries around this dark stuff but I always love it when the kid comes out again. Because that was the kid I first met and that was the guy I fell in love with."