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guess what i'm trying to say is i want to look more like a man than a boy
i'd love to be toned instead of just skinny because i feel too skinny for a man sometimes
i'm trying hard to recover from my issues but it's still difficult. i want a happy life and it seems far away sometimes but someday i'll have it.
all before 8am! (i woke up super early). today's goal is minimum 20k, ideally 30k.
the urge to excel in everything i'm passionate about is a passion in itself.
i get so enraged at myself for having syptoms of trauma that weren't even my fault.
i don't give myself enough credit for things i've already achieved. it doesn't eliminate the fact that i have new goals as well but still.
i used to walk with my head straight down and now it's up when i walk because i put myself in the habit of it, i barely ate healthy and now i prefer healthier options, i didn't drink a lot of water and now i did, & i've lost 70lbs total, maybe 40 of it through sheer work.
realizing i need to be more proud of myself so i can excel further.
happy october guys, i'm so excited.
⬇️ goals below the cut ⬇️
five october goals of mine right now:
complete a 31 day journal prompt challenge
learn a new language/maintain a duolingo streak
maintain a step streak of at least 14 days
reach 4000 posts on edsf
no cigarette relapses
🍁🍂 next, my goals for this week (Sept. 30-Oct. 6) 🍂🍁
one day of 40k steps
listen to two full, "new" albums
write at least twice every day
choose mostly healthier food options
i'll change & update this next one every day, but here are my goals for Oct. 1 (today):
go another day without an emotional meltdown
spend one full hour off of my phone
check off/complete my 40k steps goal
download duolingo + choose + start learning
work a little further at controlling my stims
making this post/pinning for a self-reminder. have a good october!
crying at this comment on sad but true
actually today went super well. i've barely had caffeine, i'm 20 hours (fat burning mode hell yeah) of a fast, i've been productive today, have progressed in japanese, and i have over 20k steps.
gooooood morning. 13k steps 7am, goal 20k. i've been saving these to just one a day so they're more of a treat.
i shit you guys not. i have like two sips and didn't finish it, i've been surviving off of lean proteins (clean protein bars like rx, macadamia nuts, and an oikos triple zero) and fruit with water & black coffee all day and i'm not hungry whatsoever, i'm actually full. i feel kind of amazing.
gooooood morning. 13k steps 7am, goal 20k. i've been saving these to just one a day so they're more of a treat.
actually super proud of myself for having strengthened discipline with food now. when i was fat/bigger than i am now it felt impossible to say no and now i can quickly turn down empty calories/sugary foods.