A New York Love Story Part 4 Cont..

A New York Love Story Part 4 cont..

Im so afraid of love I began to plead with God himself while his ever soft lips were combined intertwined with mine. Thinking about the days the months and the year we were apart I was the dancer missing my sun, the cold summer in june that was obviously out of place knowing that he was everything that I needed that I wanted that I truly missed. My feet felt as if they were cemented on the block of times square I couldn't move still stunned still in awe. Back at my apartment in the heart of Harlem, Washington heights we sat drenched in heartache and so many questions. Staring into his soul seated at the edge of my California king size bed I caressed his silk like brown skin. Touching my hand keeping it placed upon his cheeks I felt his tears began to fall. 'I never meant to hurt you' is all I said as the river of tears became a tsunami crying uncontrollably. I held him inside of my arms realizing no one had ever cried for me, so many tears many hard to wipe away, streams flowing my soul decided to take a swim in them. 'Why'd you leave me Lyric, I've been walking this earth's surface empty, lost and confused. When you left you took all of me with you, why leave me... I love you Lyric.' Sending back to that very day he uttered the most breath taking words he'd ever spoken to me my body began to tense up again. 'Dont do this to my heart cant take it.' I said as the tears flowed at a steady pace. Looking at me the sorrow began to mix with confusion 'You think my heart can take it?! I feel like a fool sitting here after all the tormenting heartache you've dragged me through for almost a whole year I've been blaming myself for all of this even though I could never figure out what could I've possibly done so wrong'. Turning my back so he wouldn't see the everlasting pain and misery 'you dont understand, love equals pain those words go hand and hand together and once you fall there's no coming back from it. Its a dangerous game a game of chance I cant play'. I said. 'You think this a game?! This aint no joke, I been played out before so I would never hurt you. Man I've never loved anyone as much as I love you. My world revolves around Lyric, I'd rather live in your world than without you in mines'. Pulling me close and turning my face so now I was facing him I began to give in to him.

Please tell me this love that we share doesn’t have an expiration date

Wading in the oceans waves but I’m done waiting for you. Full of regrets wasting time when I know it’s only of the essence but I’ve invested more than a couple of seconds on you. We’re you wading and waiting for me? Maybe the connection isn’t connecting because your lost at sea. Sailing away while I’m wasting away wasting yet another day. I’m all souled out because for you I sold out. Morals and values gone doing things I can’t go home and be proud of. Fornication while on vacation when I know I deserved the jewel of a diamond before I unleashed my jewel, my precious pearl. Cold nights and you shattered my world but I can’t let you be the last thing on my mind and I’m a fool expressing my passion and pain in poetry all for you nah this time it’s for me. I’m more than that ordinary love and I can’t be taken for granted but why must your waves reverberate leaving me tossing and turning in the heat of the night it’s another ambien night.

Ambien Night’s part 2

The kiss in the rain was heart felt made me gain a great security,

But the jealousy and lies made me gain some insecurities.

Apologies were thrown felt its to be apart,

Now after all these years im hearing footsteps in the dark.

‘I keep hearing footsteps baby in the dark... in the dark... ohh why I keep hearing footsteps baby in the dark... in the dark...

Lets stop humping around where's there love there lost to be found. You know I still care, still care'

I took a backseat on love after you... I mean I cried after your. Part of me died after you.

Those lonely nights and the heartache. Tears spilling on silk pillow cases releasing you but leaving traces of you at the same time...