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I’m lost in this city without you...

Spanish Harlem Nights 101 St 1st Ave… Remember this night. We stood roof top hand in hand face to face with our eyes locked in on each other. On this night you tried to reason with me why I shouldn’t return to the place that only filled me with agony and grief and on this night I should’ve listened to my only shoulder I’ve ever had to cry on and I regret that I didn’t. I remember your words so clear, I mean how could I forget you left duplicates of them scattered all around this roof top. ‘I’m empty out here without you’ is the phrase that lingers yet clings to my soul and I drop just one single tear because I promised I’ll always return and always come back to you. You asked ‘what’s so important there that’s keeping you from being here with me’ I couldn’t reply because that would imply I had an answer and truth is I didn’t. I honestly didn’t and it could be because being back here with you was my escape and nothing or no one was gone take away this moment so I captured it and held in this moment of time. Your hand wiped the single tear from my face and you took off your Mitchell and Ness Hardwood Classics Crooklyn Spike Lee Edition Jacket and covered my bare shoulders with it, I guess you could still sense when I was in need of something and things haven’t changed… I truly adore this about you. You never flaked or switched up on me, on us. I looked into your eyes and saw such openness in them and you stroke my hair kissing me gently on my forehead ‘I love you’ you said and in return I kissed you on your left cheek pulling you close and holding you for what seemed like forever uttering the words back. Paradise when we’re together was a true understatement. No one will ever understand our bond and that’s OK because I don’t want them too. It’s sacred and it’s ours and Im never gonna share. Just hold me close, hold me tight because you make all my sorrows cease. You make my heart smile and my soul warm. Can we just stay here and just forget the world… or at least until my flight departs tomorrow morning… Damn

A New York Love Story Part 4 cont..

Im so afraid of love I began to plead with God himself while his ever soft lips were combined intertwined with mine. Thinking about the days the months and the year we were apart I was the dancer missing my sun, the cold summer in june that was obviously out of place knowing that he was everything that I needed that I wanted that I truly missed. My feet felt as if they were cemented on the block of times square I couldn't move still stunned still in awe. Back at my apartment in the heart of Harlem, Washington heights we sat drenched in heartache and so many questions. Staring into his soul seated at the edge of my California king size bed I caressed his silk like brown skin. Touching my hand keeping it placed upon his cheeks I felt his tears began to fall. 'I never meant to hurt you' is all I said as the river of tears became a tsunami crying uncontrollably. I held him inside of my arms realizing no one had ever cried for me, so many tears many hard to wipe away, streams flowing my soul decided to take a swim in them. 'Why'd you leave me Lyric, I've been walking this earth's surface empty, lost and confused. When you left you took all of me with you, why leave me... I love you Lyric.' Sending back to that very day he uttered the most breath taking words he'd ever spoken to me my body began to tense up again. 'Dont do this to my heart cant take it.' I said as the tears flowed at a steady pace. Looking at me the sorrow began to mix with confusion 'You think my heart can take it?! I feel like a fool sitting here after all the tormenting heartache you've dragged me through for almost a whole year I've been blaming myself for all of this even though I could never figure out what could I've possibly done so wrong'. Turning my back so he wouldn't see the everlasting pain and misery 'you dont understand, love equals pain those words go hand and hand together and once you fall there's no coming back from it. Its a dangerous game a game of chance I cant play'. I said. 'You think this a game?! This aint no joke, I been played out before so I would never hurt you. Man I've never loved anyone as much as I love you. My world revolves around Lyric, I'd rather live in your world than without you in mines'. Pulling me close and turning my face so now I was facing him I began to give in to him.

Those lonely nights and the heartache. Tears spilling on silk pillow cases releasing you but leaving traces of you at the same time...

Some people talk about that love at first sight shit

To keep it real I don't know whether I believe it's true

But if it is than tell me if I'm wrong or right

If I fell in love with you before I ever even knew

I catch your eye then look away as if it never happened

At times I feel as though I'm caught up in a strange dream

If eyes could talk then mines would tell ya that I'm feeling you

Sometimes I swear your eyes be telling me the same thing... - J.Cole