Omfg I Forgot That I Never Showed Tumblr My Greatest Achievement. My Pride And Joy, My Pi-ass De Rsistance

omfg i forgot that i never showed tumblr my greatest achievement. my pride and joy, my pi-ass de résistance

Okay so my mom is literally, at the moment calling me arrogant despite my obvious self-hate and self-worth issues an I'm like,,, gurl it's called a DEFENSE MECHANISM because it's better people think I love myself than throw me into a mental hospital cause I'm not normal. hahaha

like she says that she "supports" me, gurl you bodyshame me ON THE DAILY and tell me that IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH. like IM SORRY I ACT ARROGANT SO THAT I DON'T ALWAYS HAVE TO THINK IM WORTHLESS.

i just

i don't know what i have to do to make you happy anymore

I'm happy with my achievements and suddenly im arrogant

I'm sad with what I don''t do and I should JUST BE BETTER

I'm sorry I'm not what you want me to be

and I'm sorry that I don't always make you proud

but it does not change the fact that I want you to be happy for me

the way I am and not the way you want me to be

"extreme expectations are the most toxic form of pride"

like everything I do, I say, even the music I listen to is my way for askng for help and understanding

I know I'm lucky, and I should be thankful. Others have more difficult lives, and you tell me that constantly. But I just hope, you understand we all have our problems and mine? My problems are me, and you.

I'm not asking for much, just acceptance, and love for my shortcomings and my achivements. I want you to tell me it's okay I'm not perfect, and be proud of what I have accomplished

I know you do your best for me, but please at least remember that I am also doing my best for you.

Hermes in greek mythology: The great Hermes. Slayer of giants.

Hermes in PJO: ALEXANDER HAMILTON-

Hermes in EPIC: *dolphin laugh*

that is if i don't get called ungrateful and kicked out :)

imagine if my mom saw the signs hahaha

Protector of youth (children's blood coat your hands)

Hello hello, it is 11pm in France right now and I have to wake up at 6am tomorrow for school 😀

I require at least 7 hours of sleep to be functional and I have an essay in English in the morning 🫠

But since my brain won’t stop buzzing with ideas at the most inconvenient time and a mosquito is drinking my delicious blood and making that awful buzzing sound (edit: the mosquito has been murdered in cold blood), I figured I would make use of this time.

Basically, this is going to be 3 times other gods prevented Apollo from doing his job and one time he did it alone.

Anyways here’s the prologue 😄

Apollo has dominion over many disciplines.

He is art, whispering in the ear of the poets, guiding the sculptor’s hands and the musicians’ deft fingers.

He is soft light and scorching heat. He drives the sun chariot, providing life to plants and mortals alike.

He is the Far Shooter, alongside his sister, his arrows never once missing the target.

He is the Python’s slayer, claiming prophecy as Phoebe did before him, inevitable dooms spewing from his Oracles.

He is Knowledge, always learning and teaching those who seek his aid.

He is Truth, unable to utter a lie.

He is healer and destroyer. He cures and unleashes plagues on the mortal world.

He is the protector of youth alongside his sister, boys are under his care while Artemis looks over young girls.

With so many domains to preside over, it is a hard task to balance them equally.

Especially when others gods meddle with it.

(It is now 11:30 pm, I hope I fall asleep soon 😭)