Okay So My Mom Is Literally, At The Moment Calling Me Arrogant Despite My Obvious Self-hate And Self-worth

Okay so my mom is literally, at the moment calling me arrogant despite my obvious self-hate and self-worth issues an I'm like,,, gurl it's called a DEFENSE MECHANISM because it's better people think I love myself than throw me into a mental hospital cause I'm not normal. hahaha

like she says that she "supports" me, gurl you bodyshame me ON THE DAILY and tell me that IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH. like IM SORRY I ACT ARROGANT SO THAT I DON'T ALWAYS HAVE TO THINK IM WORTHLESS.

i just

i don't know what i have to do to make you happy anymore

I'm happy with my achievements and suddenly im arrogant

I'm sad with what I don''t do and I should JUST BE BETTER

I'm sorry I'm not what you want me to be

and I'm sorry that I don't always make you proud

but it does not change the fact that I want you to be happy for me

the way I am and not the way you want me to be

"extreme expectations are the most toxic form of pride"

like everything I do, I say, even the music I listen to is my way for askng for help and understanding

I know I'm lucky, and I should be thankful. Others have more difficult lives, and you tell me that constantly. But I just hope, you understand we all have our problems and mine? My problems are me, and you.

I'm not asking for much, just acceptance, and love for my shortcomings and my achivements. I want you to tell me it's okay I'm not perfect, and be proud of what I have accomplished

I know you do your best for me, but please at least remember that I am also doing my best for you.

nobody tell my mom my tumblr I am literally baring my soul out here

see y'all in therapy ig o7

imagine if my mom saw the signs hahaha

Also so many bloggers are here doing deep dives on Ody's character arc while I'm here having a Pansexual Panic

Hello

Hi

Epic the musical fandom.

WHY DO YOU KEEP MAKING HERMES AND POSIEDON HOT

LIKE

I GET IT

THEY'RE GODS

BUT LIKE

It is unnnecessary for you to make this stressed 1 9-5 job with 4 other part-time jobs God so hot

Same for the fish dude

omfg i forgot that i never showed tumblr my greatest achievement. my pride and joy, my pi-ass de résistance