I LOST ALL MY MONEY EARNED BY COMMITING CRIME ON A DISCORD SV DUE TO GAMBLING ON THAT DISCORD SERVER

I LOST ALL MY MONEY EARNED BY COMMITING CRIME ON A DISCORD SV DUE TO GAMBLING ON THAT DISCORD SERVER *CRIES IN FUCKING PEASANTNESS*

JESUS CHRIST LMAO

Idc what the outcome will be but I'll probably need the motivation

If this post gets:

350 notes: I'll start properly writing the Vigilante AU that I'm struggling to do

500 notes: I'll start to clean my household that's dusty af

1000 notes: I'll start studying for my Journalism(I have to catch on a lot hwlp)

2000 notes: I'll start art studying more on the face

3000 notes: I'll start actually exercising the whole week(I've been needing to take vitamins because of how much I just sit and struggle to do something with my body)

4000 notes: I'll start actually studying for my school

5000 notes: I'll try stopping the voices in my head that says that all my injuries/suffering are just little and actually start trying to ask for help more

10000 notes: I'll go and fight my trauma and start trying to cook more food other than rice and eggs because I still remember that fire back when I was around 5(It's funny because I wanted to become a chef before and now I joke a lot about arson, ironic, ain't it?)

Why so much? I really want to do these and yet there's something in my head making me scared of doing these

No rules, go insane if needed

Ben Clark rant because yes

Warning: Very subjective because this getting written to cope with my headache🥲

Ben Clark. Just, a silly guy, right?

S1

Usually seen as just a shadow of Aiden Clark, "Oh, it's Aiden's cousin!" "Oh, is it that psycho's cousin?"

Ben doesn't mind! He's given up before, he doesn't mind being seen as "Aiden's cousin" and not "Ben Clark", he doesn't mind only following his cousin around, letting his cousin decide for him, he's given up, and is quite dependent of his cousin's choices.

He doesn't mind the fact that he usually just sleeps whenever there's nothing to do, because there is nothing to do, should he read? Should he listen to music? He doesn't jump into a lot of the group's conversations, and generally just gets forgotten.

He's only a helper to them, he's only their ally, their healer.

S2

And then Ben became more of Ben Clark and not the cousin of Aiden Clark. He started making more independent choices, he started getting seen as someone and not just a shadow.

The group started becoming more like family, his allies, his friends, started feeling more like family, he felt loved, cared, he felt at home.

(ps the headache hadn't subsided👍)

Hm

😭😭😭

What if Taylor fell out of the jeep?

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Reblog if you think asexuality is a legitimate sexuality.

I'm trying to prove something.