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Chubby Short Omega Male Reader X Tall Muscular Alpha KNJ
Chubby Short Omega Male Reader x Tall muscular Alpha KNJ
Warning: Slight hurt/ Comfort/Fluff, Depression, Body dysphoria, Omega males have feminine curves, Insecurities, Self-doubt, Dangerous fasting, Extreme Diet, suicidal thoughts, Non consensual attempt of rape.
Paring: Male Omega Reader x Alpha Kim NamJoon
(This two-part story is dedicated to myself and my friend. We have massive body insecurities, mainly me)
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" Nobody is going to actually like you if you dont lose that pudgy form."
" Try this herbal tea diet. It will burn away all that ugly fat."
"Hi, I am calling from herbal life with some food supplement that will help you improver your life."
The words burn in your memory. You know how the happiest moments of your life are buried almost like a dream, and then the one that scars you the most are the ones you remembered vividly? The more you remember, the painful it gets. You felt like you were created to be the laughing stock of everyone around you, but you laugh with them through your pain.
The advertisement, despite the progressive movement for the future, fails to reach the audience. Nobody wants to see a chubby person modeling a two-piece or lingerie. Nobody wanted to understand that not all body types are the same nobody wish to comprehend that it could be a medical condition. You are a clown to those around you—an animal on display.
Today you woke with the shiny light peeking through your bamboo shades. It almost gave your body a natural glow reminiscing the look of a deity that had just awoken from slumber. You reached toward your nightstand where your phone laid there, charged at a hundred percent. Eight-thirty read your phone, laying it your phone back down, you let out a moan while you stretched out the sleepiness out of your body.
You look to the side of the bed, where you find an empty spot. Namjoon probably left early to work out or something. Sitting up carefully while taking off the sheet from your body, placing your tiny feet on your fluffy slippers. You proceeded to redo the bed and reorganizing anything that looked off-placed.
Kim Namjoon a major hotty, an icon, songwriter, and rapper, not to mention a tall Alpha. You were still wondering how in the heck did the universe make the decision that a 6'7 ft (200.66 cm) fit man would end up with a 5'0ft chubby man. You had so many questions like, why would the universe humiliate him like that? The story of the cool guy and the nerdy boy seems so cliche, but it was your reality.
You worked as a computer programmer for a small company. It didn't make the money Namjoon did, but it was enough for yourself and the rental. The night you meet Namjoon, he was with his friends drinking, and you had gone with a friend, well, a person who you thought was a friend. They left you there. Physically known that Omegas are not strong unless you put them against each other, they would look like two bunnies fighting. You had an Alpha that night that was harassing you, trying to get into your pants. After denying the Alpha about five times, the Alpha thought your no's were not valid. Forcing you out of the seat and pulling you through the crowd that smelled like cigars, sex, and sweat all together made your mind hazy, and you almost wanted to puke.
When the Alpha had pulled you toward the restroom or more like lead you to the Alpha restroom, They lifted you up and pinned you to the wall. The harasser was taking his time licking and smelling the sweet scent of apple pie and marshmallow. You had concluded that if this was going to happen, you were going to end it altogether. Your virginity was meant for your mate and not because your parent had told you gosh, no. The idea of innocence is a concept that has been introduced to shame Omegas in manipulation. You did not have the desire to please other Alphas like an ATM. You wanted to share the intimate moment with that special person that would make you feel safe, loved, and cared for, not a drunk bastard.
You had blocked out all reality and concentrated on breathing. You were no match for the stupidly drunken Alpha, so fighting was a no-go. You regret coming here, regret being friends with somebody who played you, regret being im this moment, and sadly non of it is your fault. Closing your eye, you tried to imagine the last time you felt light when you felt euphoric. Nothing, just darkness, and pain. Everyone shaming you, invalidating you, using your kindness for their own benefit just to throw you away like a used tissue.
You had not realized when your face was decorated with tears of sadness you were desperate for a source of comfort, something that would tell you, 'It's ok. You are safe now.' 'Don't be scared. I'll hold you and take care of you.' This was not a fairy tale. When the Alpha had stripped off the first layer of clothes from your lower area, you had this new flush of helplessness, sorrow, and torment.
A taller Alpha had rushed into the bathroom, eyes crackle in rage and anger glowing its golden color, indicating that his wolf was present. The Alpha that held your body looked at the other growling, dangerously protecting the vessel that carries their pup. The taller Alpha, however, did not care for the ominous warnings of the shorter Alpha. He was ready to shed blood if he needed to.
The Alpha, close to the bathroom entrance, rushed toward the one hovering your poor and shaken body doing an apex tackle on the Alpha. Stradling the weaker Alpha, he started to use some of the techniques that his fellow Alpha friend had shown him giving uppercuts, lower, hook, and punches. Did this mysterious Alpha know that possed him to become this protective and aggressive? No, but he felt good protecting an endangered Omega.
You had heard a bit of the commotion going on. You smelled two Alphas one was the one with the sour smell, and the other one smelled like mahogany wood and black cherries. You were scared where the two of them going to gang up on you? You let out a pitiful mewling sound which had a quick response from the nice smelling Alpha.
The Alpha hands covered with the crimson fluid from the knocked out Alpha rushed to aid at your side. The Alpha emitted a smoother scent from the previous one. He slowly made his way toward your curled, shaken body, studying the smell of distress and mentally in pain. He quickly dressed you again and took off his suit jacket that wraps completely around like a dumpling. Your eyes still close far deep in the mental pain your wolf had let out more desperate mews. The Alpha picked you up and cradled you placing your face directly on his chest, and started crooning the sound that would help any Omega who was distressed or worried by something.
You felt calm, almost like you were floating. The happiness you were seeking bubbled your wolf fronted as you had opened your eyes a lovely glowing lavender color. You felt safe, loved, and cared for by this stranger.
."It's ok little Omega. Alpha has you now. I will always protect you from harm. My sweet little Omega, you are safe now."
Your blurry sight tried to focus on the good-smelling Alpha, but with no mental strength to keep you running, you were left to repose with a soft purr. Your wolf knew that in whoever's arms you were in, they were going to take care of you.
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Shy By Day Wild By Night
NSFW)Shy By Day Wild By Night (Camboy Hybrid Cow Male Reader x College Student Wolf Hybrid Jeon Jungkook )
WARNING: IF YOU DONT LIKE BOY X BOY SMUT AND ALOT OF BODY FLUID PLEASE DONT READ.
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The weekend rolled by pretty quick, and once again, it was Monday, meaning you had classes in the evening. You had gotten tip for camming not only that night on Thursday but Saturday and Sunday. You could never post pone 'Mooy body worship on Sundays.' It was where you got the real money to help pay for your classes, apartment, and so on. It wasn't weird to get at least 10K from camming, but you had a viewer who tips you for Saturday and Sunday these last days. Somebody's grandpa or grandma has too much money and possibly is making it rain on you.
While taking your time in the shower, you had completely forgotten to send Jungkook your note as he usually falls asleep in class even if you are there to wake him up. Once you turn off the water, you reached for your big fluffy towel and warped your body. Drying any droplet from your smooth skin and carefully drying your hair carefully avoiding your tiny horn nobs.
When you finished, you put on some underwear, some jegging, your bra, and an oversized shirt to hide away your chest. You moved on you curl your hair like you always do, and putting light bb cream with a bit of tint on your lip. "Don't worry (M/N), don't worry about Jessi and her goon. You are pretty, and you are lovely. You are intelligent and strong." You always pep talk to yourself before leaving the house.
You picked up your backpack and phone and saw you had five miss calls from no other than your wolf friend, Jungkook. You were nervous because not only had you forgotten to send him your notes, but you forgot that Jungkook was also going to walk with you, so he was probably waiting down at the social area.
Bitting your lips and looking outside the big windows where your balcony was, you sigh, and right before you could call back, you heard a knock on your door. Who the heck? You didn't have many visitors, and if you did, they would call beforehand. The person rang the door and knocked again, so you put your backpack on your couch, walking toward the door, and without looking at the fish eye hole, you were meet with a chest.
"J-Jungkook?! What are you doing here? I-I was heading downstairs." You stuttered, not knowing why but then it could that
A. Your crush is standing in front of your apartment where you perform naughty adult content.
B. He is your crush, and he is wearing a low v neck shirt, showing off his thick, muscular arm with tattoos and his chest.
Or
C. Your Crush is in front of you have suddenly had a hot flash of arousal because you are just a horny little cow is into a strong Prey and predator play, and there is a sexy Alpha wolf in front of you. Now you have started to wet your underwear with a thick hot slick.
"I was worried because you didn't pick up. So, I decided to ask this old lady if she knew what apartment you lived in, and now I am here." Jungkook crossed his leg and, armed leaning on the door frame. He lowered his sight, raising one eyebrow and lightly tilting his head as to day ' What's up.'
" I-I was going to call you, but I got distracted. We should um get to class we dont want to be late." You slowly turn to shift away from the intense look on Jungkook eyes. Jungkook smiled at you and nodded his head in no motion. " How about we skip! I brought snacks, and we can watch some movies!" Jungkook smiled as he entered your apartment, his tail wagging furiously, showing his excitement, and who were you to say no to your excited friend.
"Are you sure?" You weren't asking Jungkook, more like asking yourself because you dont know how much you would last without asking him to ravish you. Jungkook sat on your couch and patted a seat next to him. " Come on, relax. It just the two of us."
"Ok, I'll change first. I'll be back!" You nervously rushed into your room and locked it. You back to the door while panting heavily. You quickly looked around your room for a butt plug that could hold off the slick that was patching your dark jegging. You pull out long fluffy pants with a cow print on them and a white shirt. You went inside your bathroom and cleaned up the slick with soft wipes.
"Calm down (M/N). Your crush is here, but it doesn't mean that you should act like a little slut. You need to calm down. He doesn't know about your room, and he is a good guy. He is such a hot guy. I don't even know if he swings toward cow hybrids. Maybe he likes cats or tiny hybrids?" You were rambling on when you heard a knock on your locked door "(M/N). Are you ok in there?" His voice muffled by the door.
"Yes! I'll be right out!" You shouted back as you arched your back and arm resting on the countersink and your other hand holding the thick baby blue silicone buttplug. When you teased your rim and closed your eyes, enjoy the slight tease and slowly sliding in the toy. It was your favorite buttplug. It was decorated with cute little stars and rhinestones. You moan as the toy rested in, sighing, picking yourself up and washing your hand, and putting on the cozy outfit you picked out.
When you turn around, you saw Junggkook sitting on your bed, dark eyes hungrily looking at your body as if you were a wolf's last meal of the month. "KOOK!" You felt like your soul wanted to leave your body. You wanted the whole world to eat you up and kill you. You were embarrassed not only had you put on a buttplug, but you also spoke about him. How much did he hear? You dont know, but you were shaking. Your stupid knees buckled in, making you fall on your legs.
Your vision watered up as you had the rush of thoughts of 'what ifs?' It is slowly making you depressed and embarrassed that you didn't notice how Junggkook had lifted you and cradle you rocking you and whispering comforting. " My little cow, it ok daddy is here. Daddy doesn't hate you. He loves you so much because you are perfect. You dont need to cry." Jungkook wiped your tears away and lifted your chin, making your eyes connect with his.
"You are such a good boy (M/N). You dont know how long I have been crushing on you, and when you ran away that day, you made me realize how much I love you so much. Your body is perfect, and I love how cute you look with those outfits you have. They look so cute on you. I love the way your body had filling everywhere. It makes me want to eat you all up and worship your body all night long. I wanted to ask you if you wanted to be my boyfriend before, but I would always chicken out by how great you look. I didn't know if you were into interspecies or tiny hybrids. Bu-" You had cut off Jungkook by sealing his lips with yours without breaking off the kiss. Your straddle his lap, his member warm against yours as you slowly grinded on his cloth groin.
Jungkook's state of surprise subsided as he places both his large hands on your waist. Jungkook emitted a rumbling sound as he found that his new boyfriend was just as excited as he was. You had small desperate moans mixed in with moos in response to his rumbling. When air needed, you slowly pulled out a glittering string of saliva connecting the two of you while the two of you panted. Your eyes half-lidded, while his held that primal look of hunger and lust.
" Let's move this to my other room." You whispered into his ears and nibbled them lightly, making him growl in response. Jungkook carried you out of the room and into a very familiar room he had seen on his computer screen. He couldn't believe he was here. He dismissed the thought and layed your body on the bed. He dives in, latching his mouth on your neck, planting kisses, and bites around your neck and collar bone.
You shivered as the wolf explored his hands around your sensitive body, twitching and gasping when his fingers tease your visibility erect nipples. " Are you sure about this (M/N)?" Jungkook asked because he knew at this point if he went any farther, there was no stopping until he has bred you full of his pups inside you. The image of you sweaty with all type of bodily fluid and your belly full of his cum made him harder by the second.
"Yes! I want you to stuff me. I want your cock inside me fucking me like crazy. I want you to breed me fully, Alpha." You were desperate to feel any skin-to-skin contact with him. " I am clean. I took my test at the beginning of this month and taking birth control" You moan out.
"Good, I am clean too. I took my test a couple of weeks ago. Dont worry. Even if you wanted me to wear protection, I would." Jungkook inputted his information. You hummed and nodded " I want to feel you inside me without a stupid rubber on. We are clean, and I am protected." You kissed Jungkook again, letting him know that everything is ok.
Jungkook took that as a cue to tug off your shirt and pant, careful not to hurt you. He roughly started marking your smooth skin as you cry out from both the pain a pleasure. He toyed with your cloth teat as they began to leak, slowly damping the bra you had on. Jungkook eyed your body's reaction to his touch like he was playing an instrument.
You grew tired of the barrier that covered Jungkook's stupidly hot body. You had huff annoying and started to paw and tug his shirt and pants. "Off." You whispered. Jungkook complied and discarded off both his shirt and pant, leaving his underwear on.
You eyed his body thoroughly how each contraction and flex of his arms and body made the section of his body prominent. The wold smirked and ripped the bra you had on. Thankfully it was just a regular one and not the expensive one you wear on locations. A sharp inhale from your nose as you felt the cold air kiss your sensitive teats. You wanted to shy away from the look Jungkook had on, but before you could react, the wolf took in one of your nips and started sucking on them during his handwork on the other nip.
Hot flush started to build up in your body as you felt Jungkook tongue flickers and suction motion on your vulnerable nip. You were wondering if your milk was good enough for this hungry wolf, but you were too caught up with your moans and shivers that rang through the room.
"You are perfect for me, my little Mooy. You taste amazing I dont want you to waste such sweetness with anybody but me." Jungkook caressed your face softly, working up to capture your plum swollen and drooled lips. You trusted your hips upwards toward his creating some friction. "Please." You said as a mantra you had been waiting for so long to get knotted.
"Desperate," Jungkook growled and yanked your underwear. Your cocklet semi-hard and leaking per cum already from all the teasing, just waiting for it to get attention. " Such a pretty boy for Alpha. But I want something better." Jungkook knee between your leg, taking in the strong vanilla scent you were strongly producing. He eyed the pretty silicon that he had to watch you swallow up inside you and lightly wiggle it making you whimper and squirm. Jungkook, however, held down your hips with your other hand while he playfully tugged at the plug, watching it slowly slip back inside.
Once Jungkook had enough of playtime, he slowly pulled out the plug entirely, not only eas the plug preventing the sweet vanilla scent from him but also the thick slick that had honey texture on how thick and warm it was. Jungkook watched as the slick slowly soak up the bedsheet. He looked at your pink rim that was trying to clench to something, which he found exciting teasing your edge with his look index finger.
"No! I want in!" You begged as you teased your nips, milking yourself. Jungkook growled in in warning and smacked your inner thigh. " Stop moving, you little slut. You'll get what you want when I think you deserve it. Now let me enjoy my meal." You mewled when you saw the wold lick his lips and get closer to your hole. The wolf held intense eye contact with your shiny eyes, and as of a taste test, he licked some of the sweet slicks on your area.
Your brain suddenly had a fuse blow because your whole body melted when you felt the predator's tongue lapping your sweet juices. Your body was trying to thrust forward, but the mean wolf held you in place. The swirling and sucking motion from the wolf was slowly building up a pooling sensation in your lower region. Your cocklet twitching with each lick and finger thrust that your lead gave you.
The room felt warmer than before as your body started to sweat. Your moan sinfully played as you got near the end. Jungkook, understanding that your undoing was coming rather quickly, he had pulled away right before you came. "No! No, please. M' wanna cum so badly, please!" You sobbed at the ruin build-up, begging and pleading the tall male in front of you who had taken off the last piece of clothing he had. His member rivaled you knotting dildo, which made you even more excited. In a needy way, you arch your hip as an invitation which the wolf took it gladly.
Jungkook rod was thick and long with enough girth to satisfy your wall's needs. He lifted your hip only and lined his member at your entrance, and with no problem, he sinks in his member deep inside you. Your breath hitched as you felt your needy hole become full of Jungkook. When you look at your belly, you saw a lining of the wolf's thick cock imprinted inside you.
Your eyes roll back when you felt him hit a particular spot inside you. "Alpha so good and big." At this point, your mind was blank. Jungkook emitted rumbles in delight. The warm cave around him was better than his hand or any other toy he had used. It was perfect and friendly.
Jungkook's hips thrust motion started at a slow pace, and before he knew it, he was delivering hard and long thrust into your needy abuse hole. You cried with the feeling of his cock abuse your slit. You pull yourself up and reach for Jungkook's neck, wrapping your arm around and pulling yourself up, wanting to be drop on his member.
"My cute slut look great with my cock inside," Jungkook growled in your ears as he held you up and dropped you on his member. The quelching sound of your slick made Jungkook crazy the fact that both of you, now covered with dirty fluids, made him go mad as he piston in you at an inhumane pace.
"M'cumming. Cum. Alpha." You repeated as you nuzzled the wolf neck, biting and nibbling on the exposed skin. "I took baby, let it go come for Alpha," Jungkook replied, placing you again on the bed without slipping out of you.
Your plus and breath hitched as your body felt the familiar deprived sensation, pleading and begging for the predator to keep ongoing. Your eyes started to flash, and everything around you went static as you let out a loud and long moan scream Jungkook's name. Your body Twitching a jerking with the thrust Jungkook did as he chases after his own spill.
Your body tried and unable to move by how tried it was. The only feel you felt was when Jungkook's knot started to swell up, locking both of you together. Junkook huffed as he felt his seed starting to fill in.
"I love you, my little cow."
"I love you too, my wolf."
For about forty-five minutes, the two lovers were locked in together, savoring the time they were intimately connected.
A/N: I feel weird after writing this but hey it ok.
I couldn’t upload because I was in the ER but I am here and better
The working pup ( Havanese Dog Hybrid! Male x Min Yoongi)
Warning: The fiction will contain depression, anxiety, stress disorder, drinking, self-harm, suicide attempt, suicide thoughts. If you are sensitive to the thing listed previously, I will recommend not to read. I can understand something because I suffer from some of these mental illnesses. However, I don’t wish to trigger any of my lovely readers. Proceed with caution.
I will put a warning when the things get a bit darker you may skip ahead to the warning ending. IMPORTANT A/N AT THE END I KNOW YOU DONT LIKE THEM BUT I WANT TO MAKE THIS CLEAR.
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Min Yoongi, know as Suga or Agust D, has made a name for himself in the entertainment industry with his group Bantang Seoyondan. A rapper, producer, and random knowledge provided to his group and people around him. His friends would always tell him how he needed to take care of himself. Yet, he did not listen. When locking himself in his 'Genius lab,' it was a space for him to produce, create, work—a room for him to break down without bothering the other.
As the second oldest of the group, he wanted to help his younger friend lend a shoulder and an ear to listen to their worries, sadness, and bothers. It was hard when you felt the need to take care of others that you forget to take care of yourself. He knew that he could sill his emotion and thoughts to his Hyung, but the same word would appear as clear as day.
A bother.
He felt like a burthen to everyone, a collection of complaints and hate toward him soak his poor brain. Yoongi felt that his work was never enough, and even if his younger teammates look up to him, he felt like nothing he did was that good. He would smile out to the world to show his gratitude and his love toward his fans, friends, and family, but in the end, his production space was where he let that mask fall.
This particular night he had come into the shared apartment late half-drunk but nowhere near his right state of mind. The question that always pops up in his mind now and then had set off. It was only a matter of time where his cup would be full, and he felt like it was drowning him.
'Am I even this great to be here?'
'Maybe if I end, will the pain stop?'
'I am not enough for anybody, no even for myself.'
'The group will be better off without me.'
'Army, I love you, but I can't do this anymore.'
The thought hit him like a truck harder than he thought he had set his mind that he was going to do it. He didn't harm himself before, but he thought, what better way to go out it by overdosing and a couple of cuts.
Yoongi set himself to go to the kitchen and the cabinet where they would keep the over-the-counter drugs. His eyes scan the cabinet and the medium-sized bottle that read acetylsalicylic acid, also known as Aspirin. He put the bottle in his jacket and closed the cabinet, and moved on to the drawer where they kept their knives—grabbing one of the sharpest they had.
Yoongi had decided to go to his room. He wanted to do this in his safe space where nobody would bother him. By the look of the hallway, it seemed that everyone was asleep or they were out. He locked his room door, took a quick shower, and put on comfortable clothes, a plain black shirt with some basketball shorts.
WARNING STARTS HERE
Yoongi looked around his room. All the things BTS had to accomplish through the year made him so proud. He was proud to be in this group, but he knew that he was better without him. The white hair man sighed smiled. He had a great run while it lasted. He had leftover a couple of hundred pre-recorded beats for his group. It was the least he could do.
The medium-sized bottle now in his right hand and his left hand cracking up, the lid opened. White pills. Yoongi had held his breath and shuffled to sit on his bed. He swallowed the thick resting saliva that had been held since the time he stepped inside his room.
The silent room is killing his nerves by a light ringing tone of silence. He closed his eye, and with a shaky hand, he brought the bottle up his pouty mouth and tilted his head back, letting in the pill slide into his mouth. Some of them spilled out, but as long as more than half was inside, he was okay with it. The shaky hand throws the bottle into the wall, and the rest of the pills flew around. He cups his face as he swallowed the overdose.
Teardrops were slowly seeking out the exterior of his body. The young man gently laid himself back on his bed, letting out silent sobs and shaky breath while he grabbed the sharp item he was going to use to harm himself.
"This is better Yoongi. Nobody will remember you when you get old, so why not start early." His words reach nobody but himself as a claim and reassurance that what he was doing was the best way to go. No other way.
The pale hand with badly chewed nails grabbed the handle of the metal tool. He rose it up to his eye level and studied the sharp tool. The same knife they would use to cup up meat that would warm up his belly was the same one that he would use to frore his body to the other side.
The silent sobs were now much more audible than before. His pain, his sadness leaked out. He was numb with so much hurt. Yoongi rose his hand left arm and brought his right one that held the tool and started slitting, cutting the once virgin skin into battle scars.
"Don't worry even if I leave
You'll do well on your own
I remember when I first met you."
The pills had set in, making every slit less painful than the one before. Had he made the right choice?
"Before I knew it, you grew up
Though we are putting an end to our relationship
Don't ever feel sorry to me
I will get to meet you again no matter what form
Greet me happily, then."
Maybe he will become a star and shine down on his family, friend, Bandmates, and mostly ARMY to guide them in their journey. Let his pain be free and not caged where only he suffered alone in the darkness.
His vision started to fade as the leak of crimson red started to soak up his bedsheet. The room now perfumed with iron.
"Wanna put an end to this winter
How much longing should we see snowing down
To have the days of spring, Friend"
Each word was getting slower and raspier.
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Jimin had woken up in a bit of panic. He did not understand why but he was up already. He would go to his hyungs room to sleep and cuddle up with him in these cases, letting the oldest be the little spoon.
Jimin had grabbed his pillow and slip on his slipper, ready to go to his Lil meow meow room. When he reaches Yoongi's room, he knocked and tried to open the door. To his surprise that it was lock. Yoongi never locked the door, and if he did, he would open it knowing it was him coming over. A sense of panic washed over his body when he didn't hear anything from the elder's room.
"Hyung?"
More knocks from the petit hand. Jimin bit his lips and look around and remember that they kept the keys in the kitchen. He rushes over and saw Jungkook there opening a bottle of banana milk.
"Hyung? What is wrong? why are you sweating like that?"
The younger asked, a bit scared to his Jimin in a state that he had only seen when he had fallen back in his old unhealthy habits.
"Jungkook, I need you to be ready to call 911, or something Yoongi is not opening his room, and I have this feeling," Jimin sputtered while looking for the key. Once he found Jungkook had to pull out his phone, ready to dial if need. Jimin rushed back to the elder's room and quickly opened it.
The room felt much colder than it originally was. Jimin's eye fell onto the male on the bed whose bed was dripping with blood. Jimin is quickly pulling himself together. He went to aid his Hyung, ignoring the metallic smell, and went to see how soaked up his body was.
He wanted to scream tears blinded his eye, but he wiped them away, activating quickly, and started to wrap the elder's arm and tightly tie it on the slit.
"JungKook call now don't stand there call!" Jimin started screaming at the younger, still as a rock, eyes blown out entirely and in shock. He snapped out of it and pressed the automatic 119 number. Thankfully, he spoke to the man over the phone without any crack, but inside his body, she felt like screaming and crying. Why would Yoongi do this?
Jimin's hysterical cry woke up the whole house, bringing four in their room to the source of his cries.
Jin pushed away from the ones that stood shocked and looked around for the item that Yoongi used before.
"NO!" Hoseok yelled, going to grab his Hyung, and was stopped by a tearful Namjoon. Namjoon knew everyone would not be in their state of mind, but he understood that if everyone were to drop the bleeding male on top, it would make matters worse.
Teahyung was held by the youngest that he had tried to pray off his hand. The room felt so cold, and the smell of death was slowly consuming the room.
A knock brought the member out of their state. Jin quickly opens the front door, letting the paramedic in and letting them Help Yoongi while Jin had the task of holding a sobbing Jimin away from Yoongi.
"We need to take him now to an emergency. There is no time. Meet us over at Asan Medical Center Seoul" The paramedic rushed out with the team and Yoongi's body on a stretcher.
END OF WARNING
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About a week later from the incident, Yoongi was going to therapy at least every three weeks. He was prescribed medication for depression, anxiety, and stress disorder. The process was tedious for him, but he didn't want his bandmates to go through the same. He made his goal to try to get himself back in condition, but he needed to have help. His bandmates were a great help, but he knew that they had their own problems to deal with too.
"Mr. Min?"
He didn't want to go back to square one, but it was hard for him to do so. He was supposed to be resting, but he had gone back to his space to create more, and while he had dance practice and vocal session to record, he still didn't feel the same.
"Mr. Min!" The physicist brought the male attention.
"Huh?" Responded Yoongi.
"I was asking, have you thought about getting a service hybrid?" The lady started witting down notes on Yoongi's reaction and emotions.
"I- No. I dont know."
"Well, Mr. Min Service hybrids are great while we will still keep you under your regular medication. Service hybrid can provide a different level of comfort than what a human could. While a human can be a great support. I am sure that they might not understand or detect your feeling as hybrid do. You are a great candidate for a service hybrid, Mr. Min. Especially if you are touring, they will help you a lot. I understand if you need to think about it, but I highly suggest it. Service Hybrid is trained to help you. Their job is focused on making use to keep you safe, making use you take your pill on time, and always staying by your side. A couple of shelter academies where they train therapy hybrids, service hybrids, and emotional support hybrids. Right now, it would be best if you had a Service Hybrid that can go everywhere with you to help you with depression, anxiety, and self-harming situation." The doctor said, writing down a letter of approval, signing it, and sealing it in a manila envelope.
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Yoongi had come home thinking about this service hybrid thing. Would it help him? He needs to do his own work and study a bit about what was a service hybrid. What did they do? And how it would benefit his mental health.
A couple of days went by. With him doing research, he came to realize that he was going to commit to this. He wanted to be better. He hated how he would disturb his bandmates with agonizing cries and a sleepless night. He did not want to become a bigger problem.
He needed the opinion of his bandmate before going to the shelter academy.
"So I know that these nights have been hell for you guys. I hate that I am the one that is making you guys suffer because of me." A slight pause in between his word as a nervous shiver rushed down his spine. What if they didn't want the service hybrid here? Would he have to go back to his apartment alone without his bandmates?
"Hyung." Taehyung, who was sitting next to the shaking male, brought his hand on top of his leg to calm his leg's rapid movement.
"Dont worry, hyung. You know we love you, and even if we have to stay by your side, it is better than seeing you go." Jimin said softly with a warm smile.
Yoongi nodded his head and chewed lightly on the inside of his cheek. " The doctor said that I was a candidate for a service hybrid. I did my research on them before what was the job the hybrid would help with. I understand If you dont want a hybrid here, but I just dont want this routine to keep going. You guys have things to deal with, and I dont want to be a burthen anymore, so if I had somebody that could help me, it would cut down your stress by a lot." Yoongi, shifting on his seat, nervous of the other reaction, just kept his eye on the floor.
An empty response until Hoseok spoke up.
"Hyung, if it is something that will help you get better, do it. No matter what it is, as long it is healthy and not destructive. We dont discriminate hybrid or not. They are still welcome." Hoseok stood up and hugged Yoongi tightly.
"We should go check out the shelter academy tomorrow. The faster we get the paper, the better our adorable and badass Yoongi will heal." Jin stated, and Namjoon nodded. Nobody had disagreed with this decision. They just hope this Service hybrid would help their dear brother and bandmate.
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A/N: I know that this is darker that the other stories but i want to make a small emphasis on how I be using a bit of Service Animal Work because they also help people a-lot and they should be recognized for their time and hard work.
I want make something clear Service animal(dog because according to the article i was reading only dog are recognized fo now.) are different from Therapy dog and emotional support animal. While wish to make sure everything is correct there are major difference in their work.
I am not a professional I was lookin up some information because i think people are not as educated and in the USA think that it is ok to dress an untrained service dog to pretend to be just because they want their dog to be with them. It stress me out because I know the importance of loving a dog and I wish i could bring my dog everywhere but the case it my dog is not a service animal nor therapy nor emotional support and I need to respect those that have their service animal with them. When i see one i look away quickly because i know the pooch is working hard to maintain it owner healthy.
Anyway enough about my rant i will be reading more information about some of the things service dogs( especially at self harm/anxiety/ depression service dogs) do but rewire it to be hybrids.
I am sorry if you felt uncomfortable reader but these are things that i have go thoughts at one point my life when i was younger and i guess i reflected some of my thoughts over to the character yoongi. (AS A FANFIC NOT REALITY. I am sure that idols have it really bad with the hate and it is not my telling or saying that Yoongi has done this. No this is simply FANFIC. please dont make me stress this enough)
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✎ Welcome, lovely readers. As you can see, I have decided to rewrite this story so that we can all understand.
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✎Since I started writing much more frequently in AO3, I have come across a wide range of fanfiction with bizarre and interesting themes within them.
✎The book will contain the following: Hurt to comfort, Smut, ABO dynamics, Hybrids, Femdom, Subspace, Domspace, Genetelia according to their ABO, abuse, Flashback of non-consensual touching and abuse, Fluff, Stubborn Alpha, Enemies to lovers, mates, Knotting, degradation kink, bratty/ Dom dynamics, Hint of depression and anxiety, separation anxiety, slightly detailed smut, Poly relationship, OT7 x reader.
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3/4/2021
Harmony Of The Eternal |Zodiac (Coming Soon)
So I am thinking to write a Zodiac Au Male reader ? Ocish like Within Us| Hybrids.
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Air, Fire, Earth, and Water These four elements have ruled since the rise of their kind. Years of harmony between these four elements when suddenly the earth signs were in disagreement with the counsel for giving Air half of their good a war break out to bring all the elements to fight an unnecessary war.
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A/N: Zodiac sign Au? with Avatar bending powers? But it not Avatar inspired?
Of course it sounds better in my brain playing it out but bare with me.