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Is This Gay Or Heartbreaking Or Both

is this gay or heartbreaking or both

Kate watched them go, and kept the frown off her face. The change of mood was quite striking. ‘Sometimes you get the clown,’ her father had said, in his final illness, ‘sometimes you get the ancient beast.’ Then he’d started to laugh which had set him off coughing again, and she’d had to sit him up and get him some water. When he’d recovered, he corrected himself. ‘Actually, I think you always get both.’ And he’d given her that smile which had always comforted her as a child, but now just made him look frail and old. They’d sat in silence with only the clock ticking and the rain at the windows.
‘God, I miss that man,’ he had said at last.
‘Maybe he’ll visit tomorrow,’ she had said, her hand tight on his.
‘Maybe tomorrow,’ he had smiled, closing his eyes.
She could never decide, over the years, if those were the best or the saddest last words.
Best friends, she’d thought. She fought down the memory of the dying old soldier in the hospice. Maybe tomorrow.
I’m sorry, said a voice in her head, and it almost froze her. She’d been briefed about the Doctor’s occasional telepathy: low level, they’d said, and rarely used. I miss him too.
Not now, she thought back at him, we’ve got work to do. She felt her cheeks flush and her jaw tighten: he should have the damn decency to stay out her head!
As you wish, said the Doctor, and stepped politely away. But as I returned to my own thoughts, I took an image of Kate’s dying father with me, and filed it for later: Alistair waiting for me. ‘One should live with one’s sins,’ I’d told a young man once, though I couldn’t remember who or why.
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