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Here are some music recs (no one asked for) for TAD fans:

Rabbitology

Fish in a birdcage

Yaelokre

Drop some more recs in the comments ☺️

I need them to stay

I need them to stay. I need them to help me get through this. But I can't make them stay. And if I can't, then who can?

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AN: My mind went blank on this one.

Remember today you are loved

Remember today you are loved. Let that love be your guiding light, let it give you strength. When you make difficult choices, remember that you will not be judged. Remember that those who love you will not try to shape you into something you're not if their love is sincere. You are your own person and that you deserve to be loved as you are.

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AN: I started playing Baldur's gate 3. I've never played DnD in my entire life but I saw this game and was like "this looks awesome". So now I am playing it, and I am absolutely terrible at it hahhahaha but it is fun.

A question for uh.... everyone. When you send an ask to someone here, do you get a notification if they reply or?

Promise to be kind

It feels like this is the millionth time I've been broken. A part of me just wants to give up. But I know I can't. So I get up, and I promise to be kind, no matter what. No matter how hard the times become, I cannot lose that part of myself. Because if I do, if I let go of that kindness, I will be just like them. And that is the last thing I want.

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AN: I feel like the fewer of these I have left, the slower I am with writing. Terrible. I started watching Doctor Who a couple of days ago. I've been avoiding it for a long time because it has so many seasons and lately I feel like I can't watch anything that has more than 3 seasons ahhahaha. This whole binging culture and tik toks and all that has ruined my attention span. So I was like "This is a challenge. If I like the show,I will then watch all 13(?) seasons of it". So far so good :)

I was literally thinking of it right now. I will forever be sad about not managing to buy it before everything went to shit 😭

I have lost a song to the internet. I remember there being a song called That Boy on the Bandcamp for Robert Hallow And The Holy Men. I remember some of the lyrics. Weirdly, I now cannot find RHatHM on Bandcamp at all, or any trace of this song anywhere online in any capacity. So that's . . . strange.

I make jokes to show how broken I really am

Laughter echoes the hallways as we try our best to escape reality. There is always a bit of truth somewhere in our conversations. You come up with elaborate metaphors to show how this world has brought you down to your knees, I make jokes to show how broken I really am. Strange as it may sound, it helps. It gives us strength to get out of bed the next morning, and the morning after that. We face the world with a smile, masking the pain inside. Maybe one day, our smiles will become genuine. Until then, we'll practice.

We're both unwanted daughters

I haven't seen you in a long time. You look the same. Except for the scars, the scars you've been hiding for so long. They're out in the open now. Oh, how tired you must've been, hiding all the time. But I understand you, better than anyone.

We're both unwanted daughters, always on the run, trying to find our place in a world that refuses to accept us. But at least we have each other.

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AN: So, I recently watched Good Omens(I know,I'm very late hahahahah), and I am devastated after that ending.....and also can't wait for s3 even though it's only been confirmed,like,less than a month ago?

And now I wanna read the book and just more of Neil Gaiman's stuff in general.

Happy new year,Dear Hearts!! Wishing a lot of love,joy and peace to all of you!

And,ofc,happy birthday to Joey :)

My jokes are my armour and my kindness is my sword

"Oh, you're too kind for this world. You won't survive a week alone in it". Yes I will. Just because you decided to be bitter about everything doesn't mean I have to as well. My jokes are my armour and my kindness is my sword. It doesn't always work, but it sure as shit gets me through some tough times.

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AN: I see quite a lot of you reblogging this. Thank you,dunno what sets this one apart from the others, but the response to it has been wonderful. Thank you all so much and happy holidays :)

Marta

I wish I'd done things different

I am at peace with everything. I wish I'd done things different, but it is too late for that now. Regret will get me nowhere. I must be strong now, focus on the future, prepare myself for more mistakes, but also for more good decisions.

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AN: why the fuck can't I write a good conclusion to these lately? Hahahhahaha help

I'm not trapped with you, you see, you're the one who's trapped with me

I can't wait to wipe that smug smile off your face. You think you won. I'll let you believe that just for a little bit longer, and then enjoy as I see the smile disappear off your face. I'm not trapped with you, you see, you're the one who's trapped with me.

I am lying in bed with a fever and now TAD announced that they're working on something new!! I am HEALED!

Write me well, my love

Sooner or later, you will turn our triumphs and tragedies into a song. Hell, probably into an album. I wonder how I'll feel when that day comes. I wonder if I'll recognise myself in the lyrics, or if your vision of me became so crooked that even you don't know who you're writing about.

If that doesn't turn out to be the case....Write me well, my love. With all my scars and flaws, but also with all my good parts, or at least those you think were good.

And I'll listen to your songs, and find myself in them and learn to be a better person. I hope you do that too.

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AN: I almost forgot abt this 😬😬😬😬😬😭

Be good

These old walls will shelter you if you take good care of them. Be good. Be respectful. Each wall holds an old god. They require sacrifices. If you fail to please them....well, let's just say it didn't end well for the previous owner.

Do you like my dress? It's got pockets

I see you looking at me, I'm not blind. Do you like what you see? Do you like the way I braided my hair and decorated it with little ribbons? Do you like my dress? It's got pockets. And one of those pockets holds a knife just for you.

Come closer now, don't be shy.

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AN: I write most of these on my phone and sometimes I just completely lose any sense of how to do shit on tumblr via phone. Anyways I attended a wedding yesterday, it was very nice. But one of the guests, a 75-ish-year-old-man (who is from USA, just a fun little fact) was a creepy old pedophilic fuck. We were talking about my eyeglasses and my poor eyesight and he,out of nowhere, grabbed my shoulder and said in my ear 'I do find glasses quite sexy' or something similar to that. The whole thing was so creepy and scary that I forgot what exactly he said. Thankfully I managed to avoid him for the rest of the night (:

Thank you,you are an angel ♥️♥️

So I recently became obsessed with Moulin Rouge the Broadway musical. If anyone has a...ahem.... slime tutorial, I would be 🥹 very grateful.

So I recently became obsessed with Moulin Rouge the Broadway musical. If anyone has a...ahem.... slime tutorial, I would be 🥹 very grateful.

I'm not lonely, I just like being on my own

I've never known comfort like this. The warm,dark silence in my room. The absence of human noise. I'm not lonely, I just like being on my own. That's something nobody seems to understand. I wish they could. I wish they could see how being alone isn't a curse.

Sometimes it's a blessing.

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AN: 🤷

I will be the man my father never was

Life hardens you,they say. It gives you thick skin. But can't it also make you kind, I've always asked myself. I believe it to be so. I will teach myself kindness and patience, I will be the man my father never was, the man he never wanted to try being. I will be my own person, regardless of what they say.

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AN: Summer is almost over, I am sad. Hahahahah went swimming today. It was quite cold.

I can't do this, you don't understand

I cried so much I don't know how my tears haven't already made a lake around me. I can't do this, you don't understand what my mind makes me do, the thoughts it creates. Those ugly, vile thoughts. I'd like to try to save myself, but then again, I don't think I can do it on my own, if at all.

And you're not doing much to help.

Give me your fire

The way you go through life has always fascinated me. Full of energy, be it good or bad. Give me your fire, wrap me in its heat and give me that ability to get through everything with either a smile or a frown on my face. Because anything is better than the numbness I feel in my head and heart.

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AN: My boyfriend is teaching me how to ride a bike hahahaha. Don't know how that'll end hahahhaa. Hopefully without a broken arm/leg :'D

I know she's giving up

I hear her muffled cries through the locked door that divides us. I know the end is near. I know she's giving up. And I feel useless. I wish I could help. But even worse than her cries is the silence that comes after.

Because it's in that silence that I realize it's over.

Please don't do this, my heart is breaking

My mind doesn't comprehend what's happening at first, but my heart does. And it's breaking. Please don't do this, my heart is breaking. Can't you hear it? No, you can't. That loud, empty silence is something only I can hear. I want to say something, but it's better not to. If I stay silent, the numbness will take over and that is better than to break down in front of you.

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AN: 20 more to go! Whew! Somebody tell me I can do this hahahaahhahaha