You Really Think I'm Telling You All Of This Because I'm Missing You Or Some Shit ? No, It's Me Trying

❝ You really think I'm telling you all of this because I'm missing you or some shit ? No, it's me trying to have your back. ❞ he tells Topper, and Topper doesn't see it that way. It's fine, he will. When Sarah stomps n his heart like it's a sport.

❝ The sooner you realize that you're giving her more than you're getting -- and that has nothing to do with sex -- the sooner you can get your balls back. ❞

"Oh my God, there's been OTHER times. Alright? You're pressuring me, man." How can he remember the other singular time that he's said no to Sarah with Rafe BREATHING down his neck like that?

"Why do you say that? I'm not - - - I am NOT smothering her. I'm just being there for her, alright? Fuck. Do you want me to spend more time with you? Is that what this third degree is?"

  𝖧𝖾 𝖽𝗂𝖽𝗇'𝗍 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 𝗐𝗁𝖾𝗇 𝗂𝗍 𝗐𝖺𝗌 𝗉𝗈𝗂𝗇𝗍𝖾𝖽 𝗈𝗎𝗍 that he could be nice. He somehow felt it put a dent in his reputation ; though his reputation varied from bad to worse ever since he returned home from college. The rumors were expulsion, others were drop out. He never confirmed nor denied - all he could note is how Ward felt about it. Try as he might to follow in his father's footsteps.

So when Georgie mentioned that this was the first time he was nice to me he glances at her.

❝ Don't sound so surprised. ❞ Rafe replies, nearly biting the inside of his cheek. ❝ It's not like I have to be. I'm just doing Topper a favor.❞

@devilsanddarlings ; ❛  This must be like the first time you were nice to me.  ❜

𝖧𝖾 𝗁𝖺𝗍𝖾𝗌 𝗐𝗁𝖾𝗇 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗂𝗌 𝖻𝗋𝗈𝗎𝗀𝗁𝗍 𝗎𝗉 because he regrets it, even if they can't see that. He regrets harming Sarah. Even if he told Ward different when it came to shooting her ; he was trying to show his father how hardened he was and how he'd not let anything happen to Ward. Not even Sarah. But what did that get him ? Nothing. And yet even as her words sting he brings the armor back out again as he stares his sister down.

❝ Know? Oh, he knows. ❞ Rafe replied, stepping closer to Sarah. ❝ And he didn't give a fuck. ❞ His words he hopes hits her like venom. Maybe like the bullet that hit her accidently before -- and he also felt horrible about that. But no one thinks he ever does, so why should he try to convince them otherwise?

❝ Why don't you run, Sarah ? You're good at that.❞

"does dad know how you tried to drown me? no, so why don't you stop with that shit, rafe." sarah snapped at him. she always seems to lose her cool when it comes to her brother. arguing like he'd ever see her view on things. also, ward and sarah haven't been close since all this began.

"love how that's what you resort to when you have nothing else to say. you're trying to meddle in my relationship and you need to stay out of it. seriously, rafe."

❝ Here's a quarter. Call someone who cares. ❞

❝ Oh wow, the one time you told her no...and it took you what? Five minutes to remember that one time ? ❞ Rafe raises his brow to Topper and his voice gets high pitched. Rafe can tell that he's getting under Top's skin with this but he's just spitting the facts. ❝ She's going to leave you, dude. It's what she does. ❞

Sarah tells Wheezie and Wheezie tells Rafe. Great. Fantastic. WONDERFUL. Dear God, he hates this. "For fuck's sake. . ." He breathes in and then slowly exhales his annoyance. Is nothing sacred?

"One time? Okay, yeah, one time. Remember that day she ended up hurting her arm and she wanted to go to a party anyway? I told her no and I stayed in with her." That. . . is not helping his case. "A smotherer? Are you frickin' - - -." He cuts himself off. "Really?" Top's voice gets higher pitched and he's trying so hard not to get emotional about this, but what?

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