Made This For U

Made this for u 💝

something something, you're the only person left, so hold me

@cecropiacrown you know what i mean

i am so in love with the fact that e'ming is a representation of hua cheng's strongest, basic emotions and how his cruel treatment of e'ming signals to the audience his own repression of any feelings he considers weak or useless to xie lian

because he's quite expressive and emotional. he's confident but he's not a stoic type. but when it comes to his neediness for xie lian's affection, his excitement at receiving affection from xie lian or his pain at having hurt xie lian (seeing xie lian so readily accept and be ok with being hurt after he stepped in between hua cheng and lang qianqiu), those are the times e'ming is most expressive and hua cheng hates it.

we make jokes about hua cheng being jealous of e'ming and i love those jokes but e'ming is also such a fascinating way to get across hua cheng's repression and resentment for his own perceived weaknesses and feelings.

all of those emotions he doesn't think are useful to being strong and protecting xie lian, he represses them so violently, and his violence towards e'ming is such a creative way to show his low self-worth

Feng Xin and Mu Qing

feng xin and mu qing who spent their teenage years together, in constant proximity, because they were both close to someone else

feng xin and mu qing watching their nation collapse, their home ruined, their kingdom dissapear

feng xin and mu qing losing their friend, first losing him emotionally by not being able to understand what's going on and then literally losing him as he vanished for 800 years

feng xin and mu qing both ascending to godhood, constantly seeing each other as they co-ruled(?) the same area

feng xin who never wanted to become a god, who didn't know what he was if he isn't a bodyguard to the royal family, who was abandoned by the woman he loved, never forgiving himself for leaving and losing xie lian

mu qing who always wanted to ascend, who knew he had the potential to but was constantly overshadowed and wanted to desperately to prove he was not a servant to be discarded, who still never forgave himself for leaving when his friends needed him. for coming back too late

and so they take it out on each other. 800 years of pent up frustration, guilt and misery and they take it out on each other because really, who else can they take it out on? who else knows xie lian? who else rememberes xianle and its' days of glory?

yes, they're constantly at each others throats. yes, they dislike each other.

no, they don't hate each other. how can they? they're all each other has and it's been that way for 800 years

can you really hate someone when he's the only contsant thing in your long immortal life as the world shifts around you? happy and unpleasant memories, they're the only ones who know. the only ones who remember

is this anything

FengQing slumber party 🌙🌠🌠🌠

Hua Cheng: *chooses violence*

Xie Lian: *blushes*