ceriseloves - Cerise
ceriseloves
Cerise

safe place | she/her | mental health awareness Here I vent about the sadness and feelings I books

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ceriseloves
1 year ago
ceriseloves - Cerise
ceriseloves
1 year ago

Every Nico Di Angelo fan focusing more on the background of the episode than the actual plot

Every Nico Di Angelo Fan Focusing More On The Background Of The Episode Than The Actual Plot
ceriseloves
1 year ago

It's always "aros can still date!" "aros can still be in (any type of non-romantic or romantic) relationships!" "aros aren't heartless!" "aros can still love in different ways!"

Well, sure, you do you.

But not all of us. A lot of us are *completely* non-partnering. There's loveless aros. Aplatonic aros. Hell, even heartless is a label some aros use!

We don’t need to do anything to "replace" the romantic relationships we don’t have. People can be completely happy alone! Without a partner! (Shocking, I know!)

I'm just a bit tired of all the amatonormativity I still see under some of the trending aro-positivity posts...

ceriseloves
1 year ago

It's so curious how there's a high chance that I'll never know my cause of death, because maybe it will be something sudden that my brain won't process at all before dying and then other people will know. But I won't.


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ceriseloves
1 year ago

aro culture is wishing someone would prioritize you in the way romantic partners are prioritized

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ceriseloves
1 year ago

All that I know about me is that I exist. To me I've always existed and the fact one day I won't exist anymore terrifies me.


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ceriseloves
1 year ago

because the og post had reblog bait and really doesnt help people with ocd:

Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696

Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433

LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255

Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386

Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743

Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438

Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673

Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272

Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000

Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253

If you ever want to talk: My tumblr ask is always open.

ceriseloves
1 year ago

recognising people's ao3 usernames in the kudos is like taking out a library book and seeing a familiar name like ah, yes, we are both connoisseurs of the art. cheers bitch 🥂

ceriseloves
1 year ago

if you aren't just a tiny bit in love with your friends then idk you might be doing something wrong

ceriseloves
1 year ago

if you aren't just a tiny bit in love with your friends then idk you might be doing something wrong

ceriseloves
1 year ago

I'm obsessed with "vampire empire" from big thief, and that's because every time I hear

You turn me inside out, and then you want me outside in

You spin me all around, and then you ask me not to spin

You say you wanna be alone and you want children

You wanna be with me and you wanna be with him

I feel heard!!! Like I relate so damn hard I want to scream and cry and hug someone.


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ceriseloves
1 year ago

This!!! We would get yelled at just by mentioning a boy's name, what do you mean you're upset I'll never introduce a boyfriend to you????

parents: i want you all to get married and have families

also parents: sex is bad. dont talk about sex its inappropriate. in fact, dont even think about sex until youre married

me: *is ace*

bro: *is ace*

parents: how could this have happened

ceriseloves
1 year ago

To those who have bad relationships with their mother, who feel lost, who feel ugly or not enough, who feel like making friends is the hardest thing ever:

I see you! And you deserve to be fully appreciated and loved.

Do not give up on yourself because you're here for you! This is your life, you matter and your happiness matters! Reaching for help isn't bothersome, it's beautiful and needed.


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ceriseloves
1 year ago

I’m not “a little bit” in love with my friends. I’ve straight up just been-

IN LOVE WITH MY FRIENDS

I’ve always felt infatuated about my friends! I just love them so much!!

You always hear, “You need to be best friends with your SO”

But why can’t they just be friends? Why do you need a romantic add-on? You can literally do everything with a friend I don’t understand.

This is an aromantic message

ceriseloves
1 year ago

People underestimate how much it fucks you up to be subtly excluded as a kid. I would try to talk to my classmates and be met with disinterest or annoyance. The one friend I had, who I clung to and nodded along to his every word, had other friends he liked just as much or more. And his other friends didn’t care for me at all.

I look back at pictures from the time and see how separated I was from them. I remember knowing I was different. I remember posing questions about the world to the girls playing next to me and realizing that they had never asked the same ones to themselves. That the ways we thought couldn’t be more different.

I kept myself amused with my own fanatical stories and musings in my head. I would wander the playground on a circular path, imagining a friend and being sorely disappointed when it didn’t feel as real as I’d hoped.

There was a bubble separating me from everyone else, thin, and nearly invisible, but with a pearly sheen you could catch under the right conditions. I knew it was there, they knew it was there, and it changed me

ceriseloves
1 year ago

girl with naturally clear skin will never understand how annoying it is to have acne. how it fucking hurts to buy a ton of products but still wake up with the same ugly skin that ppl blame u for. like obviously i tried washing my skin, i tried all the acne products i could, i hate how my family always reminds me of it, as soon as i feel confident they just have to tell me that i should stop doing this or that as if i hadn't tried it already

ceriseloves
1 year ago

Everything indicates I'll have to outgrow her, but I don't want to.


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ceriseloves
1 year ago

Probably what bothers me the most in media is how being 'just friends' is seen as something bad, something nobody wants. The classic downtrodden expression of 'we're just friends,' like it's a failure. Why is friendship seen as a step, not a final goal? Why can't we see deep friendships between people on TV and not have it portrayed as 'not enough'? There are so many types of love, man, and every single one of those is enough.

ceriseloves
1 year ago

In a world where a pretty face matters the most, I was cursed with acne and the scars weren't left only on my face.


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ceriseloves
1 year ago

Tell me if you think I'm boring or if you just take me for granted


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ceriseloves
1 year ago
KAPOW!!!!!
KAPOW!!!!!
KAPOW!!!!!
KAPOW!!!!!
KAPOW!!!!!
KAPOW!!!!!
KAPOW!!!!!
KAPOW!!!!!
KAPOW!!!!!
KAPOW!!!!!

KAPOW!!!!!

ceriseloves
1 year ago

This year I spent almost half of my paycheck to throw myself a birthday party and my mom asked me why I was putting so much effort on my own birthday and I felt like crying because I just know that if I didn't do something for my birthday there wouldn't be anything, it would be just like any other day.

In 19 years of my life, I only had 3 birthday parties and in 2 I bought or baked my own cake.

ceriseloves
1 year ago

I guess my roman empire is my longest friendship.

Every day I think about us, every time I look at something funny I want to show it to my best friend. We met when we were 10 and she was my first friend ever, we grew up together at the same school till I were 15 and left to do high school in another state.

In those years we were together we've been in several friend groups that with time got separated, but we always stayed together. The problem was that even though we had each other, we would always be looking for a new friend because it seemed we weren't enough for each other, or better, I felt like I wasn't enough for her.

She has always been my best friend but I'm afraid I never have been her best friend, I was just there, I was her friend like every other person was.

After leaving for high school I came back to do college in the same city as her and we're different. Something feels off, she has another friend and I have other friends as well. Maybe I'm selfish but even though I have new friends she will always be my number one but for her I'm just like everyone. I'm not special and I know that she's not obligated to have me as her favorite person just because she's mine, but I guess I want to be loved the same way I love her.

She never starts a conversation, now we have a trio and she only does stuff if there's all of us. We (me and her) alone don't exist anymore.

I hate feeling like this.


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ceriseloves
1 year ago

Every time I think about myself I end up crying to sleep