I Dare You(to Love Me)

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I Dare You(to love me)

Jos Cleary-Lopez x physically disabled fem! reader

Warnings: MDNI, smut— oral, fingering, kissing, marking, slight overstimulation, first time(reader receiving), fluff, some angst, mentions to surgery & scars.

Reader’s first time reveals some truths about herself to Jos.

Bit of self-insert, sorry not sorry🫢

(Pictures used a from Tumblr & Pinterest)

“y/n, it is the middle of summer. You’re already sweating.” Jos says quietly, “Why are you still wearing long pants?”

You looked back at her, swallowing harshly as you began to panic. You couldn’t let her know, you could never. She’d hate you and be disgusted with you just like anyone else, then. The more you thought about it, the more you felt like crying. You feel the painful lump in your throat and the racing of your heart. Fiddling with your thumbs, you looked down and your crossed legs.

Jos doesn’t back down. She asks again, “Baby, what’s the matter? You can tell me anything, you know that.”

Your fists balled together trying to divert the tears that were pricking your eyes, away. “Look at me, y/n.” She says, moving closer to you. You shook your head, still avoiding her gaze. “Baby, please.” She repeated, hand reaching for your chin and tilting it up so she could see your face. The card game on the floor was long forgotten.

“You’ll just be disgusted by me like everyone else.” You croaked.

Her eyes narrowed, puzzled. But her gaze was soft and filled with obvious concern. “y/n, I don’t— I promise you, nothing about you could make me feel that way.”

“I don’t know how to tell you.” You admit. “I’m scared.” A tear slips from your eye. “I like you so much, Jos. And every time our make-outs almost turn into more and I just— I know I say no to it but it’s not because I don’t want to do it.”

She looks at you, still concerned but listening attentively.

For the lack of better words, you rolled up jeans to show her. “I…have cerebral palsy.” You revealed fearfully, “I had to get surgery twice when I was a kid to make sure I would stop tiptoeing and actually walk because my muscles and tendons were so tight. So by the end of twelve years, two surgeries and four long and very obvious, ugly scars…after many of my friends saw these and got terrified a disgusted by them…I don’t ever show them. Because I know better than to do that.”

She looked at them, then looked at you. You got self-conscious and looked away again. “Baby, they’re not ugly. Okay? And as cheesy as it sounds, they got you to where you are today. It improved your life, you could do more of what you wanted. Kids are assholes sometimes, they didn’t know better. But I do, I know you and those scars and your condition don’t define you. What does define you, however, is how you treat others with so much respect no matter how nasty some people can get with you. You’re kind, you cherish your friends, your family, me. You love me for who I am. y/n, you are perfect the way you are. You are my girlfriend- you’re perfect for me.”

You told yourself not to cry, but of course she still managed to make you cry. You shook your head, desperately rejecting what she was telling you. Your mind didn’t want to accept it even though it was the sort of response you’ve always wanted. You couldn’t believe your ears, and not in a good way. But damn, your eyes watching Jos…how that tank top perfectly hugged her figure? It was making you feel some things. You exhaled harshly, avoiding her eyes again while swiping the tears away, “I’m sorry.”

“What are you sorry for? Don’t ever apologise for things that aren’t your fault.” Jos sat closer to you, tilting your chin again so she could see your face. “I’m just happy you trust me enough and told me so I know what to look out for and help you.”

“I’m not used to such a reaction so I just— I can’t believe it, literally.” You admit, “But thank you, Jos. For not ditching me like everyone else has.”

She doesn’t say anything but smile at you, cupping your cheek and leaning in. Her eyes silently asking for permission to kiss you. You were feeling so many emotions at once, but desire won. You nodded, allowing her to crash her lips onto your own.

“Ever done this before?”

“No.” You mumbled.

“That’s okay, I got you. We'll figure it out together." She assured, "You can show me how you like me to do it."

Fuck. You whined into the kiss as she deepens it, then telling you to sit in her lap. You pulled away, looking at her right in the eye. “Yeah, sit in my lap.” She confirms. “Okay…” You agreed hesitantly and let her pull you onto her lap. Her fingers hooked on the hem of your underwear and your jeans, “Take ‘em off, baby.” You gulped, lifting your hips and allowing her to pull both pieces of fabric down. You laugh, it was a bit of struggle but somehow neither of you thought of standing up to remove them first. Once the pieces of clothing were abandoned, you were sat comfortably in her lap. She tilts your face to kiss you, hand cupping and caressing your cheek. Once she started to kiss you, you’d forgotten about your worries. Her free hand was tentatively on your thigh but it soon started inching closer and closer to the juncture between your thighs.

“I’ll take it slow, okay?” She broke away, lips separating unwillingly. Jos looks at you, searching your eyes for the answer since you didn’t open your mouth to talk. “Yeah, yeah.” You finally managed to say, “Okay.” Jos starts kissing you again once she gets a confirmation from you, her fingers ghost your clit and you flinch. A second later, her fingertips were on your clit, rubbing slow circles on it to let your arousal grow for a while. You fought a whine that was caught in your throat, painfully swallowing it when you felt her slide a finger down towards your entrance. Your clit throbs, causing an ache and she’s definitely felt that little movement. Jos chuckles into the kiss, finger teasing your entrance for a little too long. Right before you could complain, she started pushing her finger in slowly. A whimper falls from your lips, muffled by the unending kiss. Jos takes this as her cue to pick up her pace, her hand’s also left your face and was now on one of your thighs to keep them open for her.

Jos laughs lowly, sending a shock down your spine, “You’re so wet, baby…” You whined at that, and the fact that she’s slid a second finger in. “Oh, shit.” She groans at your tightness, fingers staying still so you could get used to the feeling. “Does it hurt?” She asks quickly, gaze studying your face for any signs of discomfort. You mumbled incoherently and shook your head, “Keep going?”

“Okay.” She grins, moving her lips down to your neck while her fingers got back to work. Jos kisses a trail down the side of your neck, and when you let out a yelp at a certain spot, she went back to it and started to kiss it over and over, sucking and then biting down on it lightly. Shit.

You moaned, squirming in your position. Jos chuckles right into your ear, proud that she figured it out so easily. It only made you even whinier. “Baby~ are you close?” She teases.

Your breathing hitches.

“Tell me.” Jos said gently, handing caressing your thigh.

You breathed in then exhaled harshly, painfully admitting, “Yes.”

She smiles then pressed a kiss to your shoulder. Retracting her fingers as much as she could without leaving you, they were then forcefully jammed into you so she could hit your sensitive spot and push you over the edge. Jos did this a few times over before you started to clench erratically around her fingers.

“Shit.” You panted, “Oh, my God.”

“It’s okay, it’s okay.” She cajoled, “That’s good, just let it happen. I’ve got you.” Jos’ voice was so sweet, but her actions were so sinful— it drove you crazy. Your heart was beating in your ears, breathing coming out in short gasps, you were whining and whimpering…all because of Jos.

“Go on, baby. Come for me.” She whispers, “Come on.”

With a final push of her fingers poking at the spongy part deep inside you, you felt yourself unravel. “Fuck, fuck, fuck.” You mumbled, leaning fully onto her while your head fell back onto her shoulder lazily. Jos keeps going though, until you let out particularly high-pitched cry and lifted yourself of her. She quickly removes her fingers from you and eased you back down into her lap while she whispered sweet words into your ears and caressed your thigh, “You’re okay, baby. You’re okay. Breathe, beautiful. You’re alright, I promise.”

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Next thing you know, Jos lifts you off the ground and places you on her mattress. You locked eyes with her. She asks, “You…wanna go again?”

“Again?” You asked, a little bit winded while you leaned against the headboard, legs still apart while she knelt in between them.

She nodded, biting back an excited grin.

“So—”

“I’ll use my mouth if you’d like.” Jos continues.

“Oh.” You said back, the same giddy smile forms on your face again. Nodding your head, she moves, face to face with your dripping cunt, her ass tilted in the air. Dear God.

Jos was incredibly gentle, seeing that you’d just came once. Yet, you were still so sensitive and kept flinching. So, she went slower, and softer. You let out a ragged breath, she holds onto your inner thighs causing your hand to fall off your knee and limply onto your side. “Mm— fuck—” You murmured shakily, “Fuck— Jos— feels so good.”

Satisfied, Jos laughs, breath fanning against your heat and eliciting a whine and a string of profanities to spew from your lips. Jos fully attaches her mouth onto you, like she was trying to suck you dry. The sudden increase in intensity numbed your mind, causing your clit to throb harshly in her mouth and your wetness to leak out more and more every time she did it. You cried out, “Fuck!” You gripped the sheets beneath you, unsure of what the hell you could do with them other than that.

A long string of ‘oh, my god’ and ‘fuck’ coupled with her name comes from you without an end as she ruthlessly ate you out, helping reach your second high with ease. Your hips bucked right before you came, making Jos grip onto your thighs harder so you stayed put like this— closer to her face than ever. Your knees were giving way, though and she knew so she just let that happen too after a little bit. You fall back on the mattress, a whiny mess following her ministrations. Trembling as you came down from your climax, you were also breathless.

“Fuck, that was so hot.” Jos knelt again then sat down. Your gaze falls onto her face, and you were dumbfounded. Using her hand to clean off her face and chin that was dripping with your cum, she leans forward to capture your lips into her own. “Are you okay, baby?”

“Mhm.” You hummed, “I’m okay.”

Her hand strokes your cheek, “Good. You did so good, baby.”

You smiled blissfully, catching her gaze for a beat, “Fuck.”

“So beautiful, baby.” A similar smile creeps onto her face as she attacks you with kiss after kiss all over your face making you giggle.

“I love you.” You told her, arm resting on her shoulder as she sits before you and between your legs.

“I love you more, baby.” She seals the promise with yet another kiss, “I love you— so, so fucking much.”

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ANYONE BUT HER 7

JANIS IMI-IKE X FEM READER

a little Regina x reader

Warnings - swearing, mentions of cheating, mentions of anxiety. Regina being Regina. Hurt. Angst

The POV switches between reader and Janis (I use — when I change the POV)

The last part🤧, happy reading lovelies 🫶🏼

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“Hey Tes, you should totally come sit with us, y/n has finally agreed to sit with me and the girls” Regina almost brags, a massive grin plaster across her pretty face.

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Ignoring all of my surroundings i stare down at my full plate of food, i feel everyone’s eyes on me and i don’t like it. I use the small plastic fork to push a piece of food around the plate, wishing the world would swallow me whole. I feel a hand on my shoulder and look up to see Regina with a reassuring expression. “you okay y/n/n?” She asks in a low voice obviously trying to avoid bringing any attention to the fact that she is being nice to someone. I flash her a small smile and nod praying she lets it go. Which thankfully she does. Well she was distracted i should say. I look in the direction of her glare. Janis and Damien are glaring right back at her. And as if on que in walks bea, she sits down at their table, trying her hardest to get Janis’ attention, a smirk plastered across her face. I look back at my plate. My head once again shoots up when i hear the clatter of a lunch tray hitting the floor, i sigh upon seeing that Karen had dropped her lunch, Regina looks at the girl as if she was internally face palming, Gretchen had yet to grace us with her bubbly presence, and Karen, she is stood in front of the table looking like a deer caught in the headlights of a car being drove by Regina. I quickly push my tray across the table and gesture for Karen to take it. She stands there for a few more seconds, confusion evident in her expression. “Have mine, I don’t want you waiting in that lunch line again” I chuckle before wiping my sweaty hands on my jeans and standing up. “Hey imma just go to the bathroom okay? I’ll be right back” I say looking at Regina who simply nods, still glaring at Janis.

I rush to the bathrooms, not even a second after I enter, in comes Tessa. “Okay I can’t take this anymore, Janis didn’t- BANG” she starts but is interrupted by a loud crashing noise from outside the bathrooms. We both stay still looking at each other, our fight or flight response having not kicked in yet. That was until we heard shouting, both of us run to the door, her beating me to it and opening it for us both to look and see what caused the sound. Next thing I see is a flash of blonde hair run past me, I look on the ground to see a navy blue backpack, with pins and a cross stitch circle on it, I roll my eyes and pick it up knowing exactly who’s it is. “Cmon that was Janis and Regina, I don’t like this, whatever that was. was not good news” Tessa says while grabbing my arm and running in the direction of where the blonde ran.

We end up outside under the bleachers, a few students circled around to watch the chaos too.

“Why the fuck do you keep messing with my life Regina? Just leave me alone for once in your sorry life” Janis nearly screams while she steps forward to be right up in the blondes face.

“I didn’t do anything loser” Regina laughs back in Janis’ face, which only angers the smaller girl more.

“Well I didn’t cheat or use y/n and you know it” she continues to shout at the blonde girl

“Well suck it up because she’s mine now, she hates you” Regina pauses to laugh once again, this is also when Janis had noticed your presence within the circle of teenagers who are observing their little argument. “And all it took to break her was some silly little lie but now I have her all to myself” Regina finished before turning to look what Janis was starring at, her face goes pale and she opens her mouth to speak but I move faster, my legs taking me away from the scene, dropping Janis’ backpack from my shoulder somewhere on the way.

I end up in a janitor’s closet, the bell had already rung so there was barely anyone in the halls, allowing me to swiftly slip into the room. My legs buckle, I brace myself for the cold surface of the floor but I am instead surrounded by the heat of someone’s presence, I didn’t even hear the door open again, through clouded vision I look up to see the green haired girl I’ve been so desperately trying to avoid the past few days. “Let me go” I choke out a sob, which only makes her grip on me grow stronger, she pulls me up a little so she has me in her full embrace, one of her arms around my waist, the other cradles the back of my neck. She tangles her fingers in my hair, the coldness of her rings inviting me in, she continues to hold me, slowly pulling us both onto the floor so we can sit more comfortably.

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This isn’t the girl I knew, the girl who was in a band, the girl who had everything together. Well that’s how she seemed to me. Now she’s in my arms sobbing. Tessa warned me not to break her heart, and even though I didn’t do anything, I feel like im in the wrong. So I do the only thing I can to save her from me hurting her again.

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“I’m sorry” she says while letting me go out of her hold. I look up, tear stained eyes, my eyeliner probably streaked down my face by now. She gets up, dusting her jeans off before turning towards the door, she doesn’t even hesitate before opening the door and leaving. I stay sat on the floor for what seems like forever. I pull my knees up to my chest and put my head down, closing my eyes.

The door slams open and I hear the squeaks of multiple peoples shoes before I am shook by the shoulders, I slowly look up hoping it is the green haired girl I have grown to rely on in these situations. But no. My eyes focus on the people’s faces. Tessa is kneeled in front of me, Aaron stood behind her and Damien stood in the doorway. Damien quickly shuts the door seeing the state im in and flicks on the small light. Aaron just stares at me and Tessa sighs. “Cmon we are ditching” she states knowing better than to ask questions right now.

We all get out of the janitors closet and walk towards Tessa’s pink jeep. Tessa and Aaron in the front, me and Damien in the back. I press myself right into the corner of the car, not wanting or needing anyone to touch or come near me. Damien keeps staring at me as if at any second I will disappear, Tessa makes quick work of driving while Aaron plays with the radio, he whispers something to Tessa, she whipsers something back and they argue in a hushed tone for a few minutes before Tessa agrees to whatever he was saying and turns to go a different way. I stare out of the window, not exactly taking notice of where we are going, just thinking about everything that has happened this school year and praying it ends soon.

After ten minutes of sitting in silence, the only sound being from the radio, the car stops, I look around to where we are, my heart skips a beat when I realise we are at the beach me, Aaron and Tessa grew up going to nearly every day. I look up to see Tessa looking back at me, Aaron and Damien get out of the car but she sits there staring at me. “What happened in the janitors closet?” Her ocean blue eyes staring into my own, perfect blonde hair shining as the rays of sun hit her through the windows of the car.

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If you had told me five years ago this is where we would be I would’ve laughed in anyone’s face and told them to fuck off. Yet here we are. Broken and Damaged.

If you had told me five days ago I would’ve been heart broken by Janis ‘Imi’ike I would’ve said “she would never, anyone but her would but she would never” yet here I am. Broken and Damaged.

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“Y/n, listen, Janis really likes you, she just feels like she’s to blame. Regina is a bitch for doing that to the both of you. And in result of that you and Janis lost each other. But trust me when I say. It will all work out.” Tessa says now stood in front of me, her hand held out for me to take, the car door open, I willingly take her hand and walk with her to the beach, Aaron and Damien following. We eventually all split off to do our own thing, Damien is on the phone to who I am assuming is Janis. Aaron and Tessa are in the sea making the most of the weather while I sit watching them, I know they both like each other. I’ve known for years, probably before they knew it themselves. Aaron has always stood up for Tessa and Tessa has always been there to pick Aaron back up when he falls. And if that’s how it will be for the rest of eternity, then im more than okay with them. Nothing can break them up. They are Aaron and Tessa.

I pull out my phone and see multiple missed calls and texts from a multitude of people at school. Regina. Bea. Gretchen, Karen, Cady and Janis being those people. I turn my phone on silent and grab my headphones from my bag and play music before turning my phone off and putting it back into my hoodie pocket.

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(Damien’s pov)

The whole car ride my phone rings off the hook, but I couldn’t care. Y/n is sat next to me looking like she had been hit by a bus. She looks a mess. Eyeliner somehow still in tact but she looks empty, her gaze set on the outside world. I notice she does that a lot these days. Just blankly stare at things, lost in her own head. Aaron and Tessa are trying to talk to her but she isn’t paying them any mind.

Once at the beach she just goes off away from everyone and sits down, throwing her backpack down before grabbing her phone and headphones out of her bag. That’s when I notice my phone is once again ringing. The ringtone being the one I set specifically for Janis. I pull my phone out of my pocket torn between my two best friends. Janis hurt y/n but there has to be a reason behind it. So I do what I have to and answer the phone.

“Daims I fucked up big time, please go check on y/n, I left her in the janitors closet and I don’t think she’s in the right headspace to be alone” she says with a hint of regret in her voice. I can tell that she is pacing around even through the phone.

“Okay no, Janis the girl is absolutely broken right now, you best explain and have a goddam good excuse for this. I know the whole Regina thing wasn’t you, but what the fuck?” I almost shout, only quieting down because y/n is sitting not even a few feet away from me.

“I’ve watched her since we where kids, I’ve seen her happiest moments from afar but never had the courage to go up to her, now that I have she’s been the saddest I’ve seen her. And I feel like it’s on me, I never wanted her like this. I wanted to make her happy” she starts

“Shut the fuck up and come to the beach, tell her yourself. But don’t blame me or anyone else if she doesn’t want to hear it” I say still angry at my best friend. I look over to y/n who is still spaced out, music blaring from her headphones.

“Fine im nearly there anyway, was going home but I’ll turn around. Cady is driving us”and with that the phone call ends.

Not even a few minutes later Cadys car pulls up next to Tessa’s. I watch as Janis gets out. I look over to see y/n layed on a beach towel from Tessa’s car that we brought out, her eyes closed and an angry Tessa storming over, Aaron following.

“What the fuck are you doing here?” Aaron surprisingly says before Tessa can, his face confused and angered. “I came to talk to her” Janis tries to walk past the taller boy. He steps in front of her before she can “wait Janis don’t we need to talk first” Tessa then buts in, grabbing Janis’ arm, taking her back to her car. They both come back a few minutes later and Tessa nods to Aaron to let the two girls talk it out.

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I sit up and open my eyes, the sun blinding me, making me wipe my face for what seems like the thousandth time in the past hour. I pull my phone out and change the song just as someone taps my shoulder. “Don’t touch me right now Tessa I swear to fuck I will dunk you in the sea” I say flinching away from the person who only moves to stand in front of me. There stands Janis, her face full of shame. She sits in front of me so I take my headphones off and stare blankly at her. She goes to speak but stops herself so I take that opportunity to talk for her “if your only here to ‘comfort’ me then leave again then save your time and fuck off” I put y headphones back on but she leans forward and takes them off of my head before I can react. “The fuck?” I say in shock. “Middle school” she says as if I should know what that means. I continue to just stare at her, pissed off. “I’ve had a crush on you since middle school. I used to watch you every class we had together. Then in high school when you started the band. I would listen to every song. I went to your first show. I forced Damien to go to that show that night. Your last show. When Bea cheated on you I was so pissed because ever since I’ve known you I’ve seen you to be this happy person. But then these past few months you’ve lost your smile. And I blame myself for that.” She blurts out in one breath.

It takes me a second to process what she said but once my brain catches up i sit there shocked. “I’ve hurt people in the past, I’ve had the hardest time falling in love with things, but falling in love with you has been one of the easiest things I’ve done, but seeing you like this” she gestures to me “has been the hardest thing I’ve done because I know I’ve played a part in the way you’ve lost your smile. I don’t expect you to forgive me but im here to ask you to give me a second chance to fix this and bring back your smile” she finishes with teary eyes. I look back at her already crying, all I can manage to do is nod and choke out another sob as she leans forward to hug me.

Fun little Angst blurb I made

“I’m here for you baby, every step of the way…it- it’s gonna be hard, really hard and there are gonna be times where you wanna give up but you just gotta keep trying, you gotta push through… but you don’t have to do this alone, I’m here just remember I’m always gonna be here” ___ grabs her hand and gently runs her thumb over ___ knuckles “I’m just so scared” she says trying to pushing through a sob

Im not sure which character I’m using but I’m thinking x reader for sure because I love being comforted lol

I’m so sleepy 😴 what do you mean I have to go to school? what do you mean I need an education? I’m just a baby let me sleep :(