Why Are You Such A Picky Eater?

“why are you such a picky eater?”

lol bro i’m not gonna waste calories on food i might not even like get your head out of your ass

Can you do a meal plan for 1 day for 700 calories or less thank you?

Sure, I dont know what yall eat but ill try to make a meal plan.

Breakfast:

Oatmeal with honey and banana and tea/ coffee

1/2 cup of oats cooked 85 cal

1 teaspoon of honey 21 cal

1/2 Banana 44 cal

Black tea 0 cal

Black coffee 0 cal

Green tea 0 cal

Breakfast adds up to 150 cal

Morning snack:

Fruit salad

1/2 an apple 36 cal

1/2 cup of blueberries 42 cal

1/2 cup of strawberries 25 cal

1/2 a pear 50 cal

Tea/coffee 0 cal

Morning snack adds up to 153 cals

Lunch:

Rice crackers with cream cheese and Diet Coke/no sugar Coke.

2 rice crackers 52 cal

Creme cheese 34 cal

Diet Coke/no sugar Coke 0 cal

Lunch adds up to 86 cal

Afternoon snack:

Cucumber+carrot+capsicum pieces

1/4 cucumber 11 cal

1/2 carrot 13 cal

1/2 capsicum green 10 cal

1 bottle of lemon and cucumber water 10 cal

Afternoon snack adds up to 56 cals

Dinner:

Brown rice bowl with tuna and avocado with salt and pepper seasoning.

1/2 cup brown rice cooked 109 cals

Tin of tuna 130 cal

1/4 cucumber 11 cal

salt+peper 0 cal

Dinner adds up to 250 cal

The total adds up to 690 cal

(If you want me to do another meal plan with a different calorie count I can.)

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What I ate :

Breakfast/ Lunch: Arabiata pasta 🍝 (300-400 cal)

After eating I was feeling bad so I did a workout. Never eat while watching Netflix istg, it makes you eat more, I took a small portion for myself but I was watching modern family and then I ate more. Drinking more water today. I'm feeling good now that I did the workout, I'll try to do anything ab workout in the evening so that I can eat dinner.

why does nobody ever believe me when i say that i fucked up?

the thing is. that i know what the problem is. grew up as the eldest daughter, the smart child, the mature child. read books as a way of escapism and got branded as the perfect, quiet, non-problematic, holds-the-family's-expectations child. grew a fear of failure so big that it's suffocating me all the time.

so people never saw me fail. i've fucked up more times than i can count and more times than i care to count. but people never saw.

because i'm so terrified of failure that at the last second i pulled myself together, i lied, i was the best actor and diplomat you have ever seen, i didn't sleep to make the deadline, i crammed until my head hurt and i couldn't see the pages through my tears and i made it.

every single time. i made it.

but i also told people that i fucked up. because i can't deal with emotions (never learned how to) so i whine to people while i procrastinate and fuck up and they start expecting the worst and then.

the last moment comes.

i fake it and i make it and they laugh at my worry and say "you always panic over nothing. never seen you fail, you never will."

and i just shrug and laugh and make a joke about it because if i'm in on it then it doesn't hurt as much. right?

your future self loves you. they will look through old photos of you with affection, not disgust, nor embarrassment. they wish they could tell you stories of your future, of how much you’ll change, of the people you’ll meet, of how you’ll eventually learn to accept yourself, then love yourself. they will read your diary entries and poems and favourite lyrics, heart aching, tears in their eyes. if only you knew...

your future self loves you. if only they could show you. they are living proof. you’ll turn out okay after all. they wish they were there to console you, dance with you, and make you write it a hundred times: “I AM LOVED”. they will listen to playlists you made, just to experience you again. they will write you a letter - of forgiveness, longing, reassurance. you will never read it. but you will know.

a gentle life

hugo grenville \\ schemelinsky alexander vladimirovich march morning \\ larry bracegirdle \\ susan ryder \\ federigo zandomeneghi in bed \\ ylli haruni girl reading \\ deborah chabrain

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