Rotting On Otto And Thinking About Paired With Him Having To Lose Cici And The Idea That He Was Alone

rotting on otto and thinking about paired with him having to lose cici and the idea that he was alone really puts things in perspective, again, because I brought this up to someone and thinking abt it more, otto pointed out when he was talking with cici in earlier episodes about he was bullied or in his words " had tormentors " when he was young. so it's like. this man definitely has so much self esteem issues and was really, really alone all the way up to adulthood and while he did have colleagues, he didn't have friends I think

not a fan of this doodle but it was an art request so

I'M REALLY TEMPTED FR

if I made an otto ask blog would people be into that

going to be posting midnight oc doodle designs, don't worry abt it

yeah, I just honestly find it all so interesting their dynamic because it's really a circumstance with both individuals really seemed eager to try and work through their issues but on otto's end all his care went into misguided actions of general manipulation and being pushy to know about the candleman, the dreams, and neglecting her health the more he went on a downward spiral and I really like looking at both aspects of him and noone I do hope you or anyone else doesn't take this as me generally going ' oh he's such a good person ' because to me he's more of a person who tries to do good but is really failing to do so because he's too caught up in the past to look at what harm he's inflicted on the present, he's got a lot of layers to me and I find them all interesting and more or less consider him really sad more than anything /gen my document put it best, if you want to give it a read because I wrote something down after someone asked about my opinions on him. https://docs.google.com/document/d/1M41vWw3GWgsVhK2PEMDSrZss9rjhieDjEbHozyhhYgM/edit?usp=sharing also gonna edit this rq and say I really don't mind and even get why so many people really do hate this man bc for what its all worth, he is an absolute piece of shit, I just have a lot of brainrot on him and he's a hyperfixation and I see him in a much diff lense than other people /gen

I think ch3 also triggered some of Otto's trauma or smth....? I mean, look how he reacted right after listening Noone's story. You know at the end of her dream The PA screamed scarily “Everyone needs someone. Don't leave me alone!” and sobbed when the Candleman took her, “Don't take her. Not this one too.”

A few seconds of silence and you can actually listen how unsettled he is for a moment. How his breathing slightly shuddered.

No wonder why he hugged her so tightly after that.

But then the mirror fell off and was broken bcs he held her too tight. I love how they put this kinda subtext in the podcast. The uneasiness of it. The writings on the wall... He also smacked a moth flying around the light, the little creature that fascinates Noone.

finding out that orin scrivello and charles-haden savage are the same movie is making me feel wildly confused but also making me go ' I see it '

in general it's the same way I feel about martin short being in the barbie movies because it's like wild as fuck but you CAN see it

old men and their cunty behaviors are what I'd like to view under a microscope