My Legs Fucking Hurt So Bad. Every Inch Of Them Is Screaming At Me. Fuck Chronic Pain

My legs fucking hurt so bad. Every inch of them is screaming at me. Fuck chronic pain

I hate disautonomia gahhhhhy heart rate was legitimately over 120 going up to almost 170 for at least an hour and a half when all I was doing was relaxing on my couch. Now I’m in bed and laying down and my heart still be racing and pounding around 115. I hate this nonsense. I feel physically like I’m about to have a panic attack from the feeling in my chest even though I don’t feel that mentally at all

As of today I have developed a new tic. Which is where I say scone like a ghost if that makes any sense. It’s like skhoneeeee if we’re trying to pronounce it phonetically

If you haven’t gotten Covid or died of it or you don’t have long covid it’s not because you’re special and good and you made all the right choices. It’s because you’re lucky. there is nothing you did to make you uniquely immune to it. you’re just a regular person who will get sick and die one day like the rest of us

wish it was easier to tell the difference between ‘pain that will get better if you use the body part’ and ‘pain that will get worse if you use the body part’ and ‘pain that is indifferent to you using the body part’ tbqh